I have no idea whats going on. Ive had abdominal pain (located from behind my upper abs to the inside of my rib cage) for years now. It has progressed with steadily increasing intensity over time. The doctors have been utterly USELESS. I dont think they believe or care how much this hurts. They just write me off because i had terrible insurance, now i dont even have that. I go into the office with dark rings under my eyes because it always starts at night, especially around 3am, and i cant rest at all. Ill be going about my day and all of a sudden it hits me like a hammer to my gut and i have to sut on the floor from the pain, nausea and light headedness.
It is so bad I can barely concentrate, it's taking me ages to write this. I dont know what to do. If I lay down the pain gets tremendously worse. I havent slept in over 36 hours. I want to puke but retching makes the pain so much worse. Ive had similar attacks before and gone to the ER, but they just put me in a bed and waited till the attack subsided (which it usually does anyway) then when they see my distress has begun to (temporarily) subside, they send me home and bill me. I cant afford that again, i havent been able to work because of this. Im broke and no one understands how horrible this is. Its like my organs are being ground into beef pattys. Ive felt potent physical pain before when Ive broken bones and torn muscles. That was nothing compared to this. NOTHING. Its unreasonable. I dont know what to do, I really think I might be dying.
Fuck! Fucking Fuck! Why the hell is this happening? I dont understand. I thought we understood medicine? I dont have anywhere to go for this. All I can do is sit here writhing in pain, futily pressing one key at a time on my keyboard. Its taken me nearly an hour to write this. Im on the verge of screaming and sobbing but the more stress i put on m insides the more it hurts.
I cant go to a hospital, its pointless. This is the worst attack ive had since this pain started. I wish i had drugs. Id try heroine for the first time if I had it, this hurts so bad. Jesus fuck! I dont know why, i dont! Is this hell? Did i die and now im in hell? I cant live like this anymore!!! Does anyone have any idea what this is? Ive looked into everything but it could be so many things and the doctors just didnt give a flying fuck! Is it liver failure? Gall stones? Septic infection? Fucking cancer? Aaaagh! I just need it to stop! Why wont they listen? I cant even express the pain outwardly anymore, all i can do is clench my arms against my abdomen and stare ahead with a dead eyed look. They dont give a fuck about me cuz im poor. I should just die, this isnt living. What did i do to deserve this?
It is so bad I can barely concentrate, it's taking me ages to write this. I dont know what to do. If I lay down the pain gets tremendously worse. I havent slept in over 36 hours. I want to puke but retching makes the pain so much worse. Ive had similar attacks before and gone to the ER, but they just put me in a bed and waited till the attack subsided (which it usually does anyway) then when they see my distress has begun to (temporarily) subside, they send me home and bill me. I cant afford that again, i havent been able to work because of this. Im broke and no one understands how horrible this is. Its like my organs are being ground into beef pattys. Ive felt potent physical pain before when Ive broken bones and torn muscles. That was nothing compared to this. NOTHING. Its unreasonable. I dont know what to do, I really think I might be dying.
Fuck! Fucking Fuck! Why the hell is this happening? I dont understand. I thought we understood medicine? I dont have anywhere to go for this. All I can do is sit here writhing in pain, futily pressing one key at a time on my keyboard. Its taken me nearly an hour to write this. Im on the verge of screaming and sobbing but the more stress i put on m insides the more it hurts.
I cant go to a hospital, its pointless. This is the worst attack ive had since this pain started. I wish i had drugs. Id try heroine for the first time if I had it, this hurts so bad. Jesus fuck! I dont know why, i dont! Is this hell? Did i die and now im in hell? I cant live like this anymore!!! Does anyone have any idea what this is? Ive looked into everything but it could be so many things and the doctors just didnt give a flying fuck! Is it liver failure? Gall stones? Septic infection? Fucking cancer? Aaaagh! I just need it to stop! Why wont they listen? I cant even express the pain outwardly anymore, all i can do is clench my arms against my abdomen and stare ahead with a dead eyed look. They dont give a fuck about me cuz im poor. I should just die, this isnt living. What did i do to deserve this?