I am able to live without it* because my pancreas still produces SOME insulin. I probably will start taking the insulin eventually, but I'm trying to control my blood-sugar through diet right now. it is actually working pretty well, I've more than halves my average reading since I was diagnosed the week before Christmas**.
I totally know what you mean about the fasting thing. During episodes of anorexia (restrictive type) I've experienced the energy thing, too. Weirdly, when you're starving you do get a boost in energy and sometimes it legit feel like you're high on stimulants.
I sit with my legs crossed almost every time I'm sitting, too! Haha. I sit on "my seat" on the right of the sofa (it's just a two-seater couch and I keep like my book, my kindle, a notebook, a cushion etc on the left side) with my legs crossed and my laptop on a table in front of me. I don't really notice it having an effect on my legs (possibly because I have sat this way my whole life: when I was four and started Reception (Kindergarten) that's how we were taught to sit on the floor (the teacher would sit in a chair and us all on a carpet in front of her whenever she was reading to us or talking to us etc) and I just got into the habit I guess. It is awful for my back, though. I have back pain anyway and I have two herniated discs, but I sit badly hunched over. My parents would comment on how hunched over I was and I assumed they were exaggerating, but my dad took a pic of me and I was HORRIFIED. I didn't even look like I had a human physiology, my back bent practically into a lower-case letter "n" :/
Yeah, I definitely try to live life to the fullest; I'm all about trying new things, finding new interests, going new places etc. My main priority in life is right now is just find happiness where I can.
Thanks
I know deep down it's not my fault. I experiences several harrowing traumas as a kid and young adult and it's my way of coping with all the pain.
*but not a long life and my body would be absolutely wrecked. I am making a huge effort with my diet now and if that doesn't work well enough, there are pills you can take and if THAT doesn't work, then I guess I'll take my insulin. I am being upfront and honest with both my doctor and the diabetes clinic about everything, too.
**Despite that initial attack of acute pancreatitis being a decade ago, it was only December 2021 when suddenly the a routing blood test showed by blood sugar levels were dangerously high. We do the count by a different means to the US, but basically anything from 4-7 is normal, as a diabetic they'll accept under 12 but really want it less than 10. More than 20 is serious and 30 is a medical emergency. The machine goes up to 32 and mine was so high the machine couldn't reas it.
You definitely sound like some one who has the strength to take on and beat this type of diabetes!
It's amazing what simple things like fasting or diet change can do for a person. Although it takes incredible discipline and commitment to stick to it.
So it's definitely not easy.
Just got done eating a bunch of sugar right before I pass out.
I need to work on this part of myself again as well.
Unfortunately it seemed like fasting was MUCH easier when I was in my teens & 20's.
But I also did a lot more drugs that rid me of my appetite, stimulants & opioids even.
I find that now in my 30's, fasting is much tougher and harder to do. But it's definitely worth it once you experience that clarity.
I've never thought about it much either (sitting on floors cross legged). I did read awhile back that sitting this way too often can lead to blot clotting in the legs.
It also does a number on my knees. But when I'm at a computer with headphones, it just feels easier to be on a floor and have my drinks or whatever I need within close reach around me.
I should probably invest in a desk or something more comfortable some day though. lol I started looking into it tho once I realized my knees were locking up and getting fucked up.
Sounds like you've been through hell & I completely empathize with you!
I went through a lot growing up as well. Lots of personal things.
I hate when doctors tell you to just find the 'root' of your depression or anxiety or whatever. Like I've been through so much shit & have thought about it and faced it over a million times, but yet here I am. They think reflecting on my past traumas is gonna magically heal my depression or mental state some how. lol I rarely think about all of it but maybe my subconscious does though, I dunno.
My mom had severe depression & anxiety issues, along with most of my family, so I think it's something in our genes. lol
Everyone's different though & some times working those things out works for them.
Damn, so your blood sugar was incredibly high just recently then? Has it come back down since?
Hang in there, I have faith in you my friend!
I lost my mom & my oldest sister last year. And my heroin dealer who I hung with for years up and murdered somebody one day out of the blue & went to prison. Got kicked out of my apartment. Every apartment I've lived in has rude ass people above me constantly stomping & pounding all night & day. It's driven me to mental breakdowns a few times where I became hysterical and all I could do was scream and cry at people.
Life always sucked before that too, but for awhile I was meeting lots of new people and everything was fun & life felt more "mysterious" and "spontaneous". And then everything changed one day. Prolly cause I hit my 30's. lol
I get stuck in nostalgia alot & it leaves me in melancholic states of mind. I had an awful childhood and grew up in trailers and cars with my mom & lots of brothers & sisters. I try to look at all the good times though and reflect on those the most, but it's always a grim reminder of how fleeting life can be.
Our shitty journeys are creating our character though, if I have to look at it a positive way. And you seem like a great & intelligent person.
I hope we find something that takes care of what ails us one day my friend. Holler at me any time!
Cheers.
Bleeding gums aren't a big deal in the greater scheme of dental problems.. I've never had them bleed randomly and to the extent I'm spitting blood though. It sounds like they just dry out a lot sometimes.