That's a very valid fear. I completely understand about the depression, anxiety isolation. It's really hard to keep people in your life when you never know when you'll have a good or bad day. I have been that way as well, especially before I knew what was going on with me and could barely function. I know this is going to sound crazy but I do believe there is a social aspect to how we feel. I can tell you that when I was isolating and didn't have anyone around me, I would feel worse physically. I would not get out of bed, because what's the point. I was really beginning to question the point of everything. Being able to open up to a friend or my mom helped. Getting out of bed and moving around helped. It's almost as if just having the ability to TALK about what you're going thru and how you feel, is relieving of some of the physical symptoms. I actually looked for a therapist that specialized in chronic pain, but there wasn't an option for that where I live. Do you have anyone who you can talk to? Do you have any support?
My DMs always open if you want to talk to someone who knows what it's like.
Try Tramadol perhaps? Moderate decent opioid but also increases serotonin & norepinephrine in CNS so it’s synergy with the Mu-Opioid agonist properties make it a great painkiller with mood-boosting / antidepressant properties
Tramadol 50-100mg tablets
Oxy-IR 5mg tablets (Oxycodone IR) a REAL opioid analgesic. Low dose and significantly euphoric/mood-boosting
Ritalin (Methylphenidate) 10mg IR tablets - safe & effective dopaminergic stimulant 3-4X dopamine over norepinephrine…
NOTE…DDI could occur with Tramadol due to both norepinephrine reuptake inhibitor, Ritalin being an inverse agonist but both increasing norepinephrine. High doses could cause a hypertensive crisis.
Ritalin is the safest mild stimulant, 3-4X dopamine increase over norepinephrine
Tramadol is a mild opioid increasing SERT & NET ………I personally would try Ritalin 5mg & Tramadol 50mg, with the Oxy-IR 5mg …….should be fine …..I’d have emergency meds on person in case (Valium 10mg & Xanax 1mg + Clonidine 0.1mg all pulverized into powder put in large empty jel cap for fast recovery
Clonidine reduces norepinephrine in the CNS causes relaxation due to reduced HR & BP. Very effective anxiolytic & sedative properties. Rapid acting Clonidine on empty stomach 20min full onset and effects taking place…..the Diazepam & Alprazolam will add significant anxiety reduction, muscle relaxation, and would save the day combined with the Clonidine. Best anti-anxiety cocktail EVER
Diazepam 20-30mg
Alprazolam 1-2mg
Clonidine 0.1mg
All 3 compounds pulverize into fine powder and put into large jel cap (magnesium 200mg jel caps are huge, I empty and use these for this anxiolytic cocktail. 6’ / 240lbs tolerant male ….this combo/dose is my favourite rescue med, for emergency only…..sometimes for needed times, minus the Clonidine
Just tell the doctor to fuck off, he works for YOU…….you require X and Y because this and that…..they’re low therapeutic doses and you can’t function properly throughout the day and is negatively affecting your day and your mental / physical / emotional health is paramount……so do your job, shut the Fck up, get your pad and write me a script ya limey cock sucker lol….. while slamming a full sized stainless steel Smith & Wesson .44 Magnum on the desk while maintaining eye contact with a serious look on your face.
No, no…….we can’t do that. Would be sooooo gratifying and fun to do (for myself that is) …..only if you can erase their memory last 20min so the police don’t knock on your door with tactical team within the next hour