^^See, I've often wondered if for some metabolic/physiological reason I escape wds relatively easily. Or if it's the fact that when I run out, I run out & only my mindset will get me through.
Make no mistake it's definitely akin to hvng flu & gastro simultaneously, & I may have been lax in forgetting to mention Absolutely Everything is a huge task unto itself!! Lethargy & depression/anxiety are huge factors too.
Many wd stories are of BLs unable to sleep, but also unable to leave their bed. Chills/sweats, rls, running eyes & nose, vomiting, diarrhea. I get all of these. One chick writes of hvng to carry a vomit bag even just around the house she gets so violently ill. Most regular users would not be capable of going to work in wd.
In the UK there is such a term as a "drug holiday", that even drs go along with. Where a regular break from opiates is scheduled for tolerance reasons.
Whether I don't get tremendously sick because my body is accustomed to short breaks, from one to three times a month, ranging in length from two days up to seven (uuurgh). Or if I just cope with being sick & Woman up..
I often take doses of oxy ranging between 200-500 daily, then go CT. It's well documented that Pregabalin, & benzos help a great deal. Do you have any Lyrica left over from your taper? Even better, repeat scripts to stockpile? Can't recall you mentioning any benzos,- but it may be time to equip yourself with an arsenal for "just in case". Equally, have you checked out the "potentiation" thread?
Seriously the lethargy is the worst for me. As in, answering the phone is too difficult, as is opening mail or hvng visitors... Thank goodness sweet child of mine is school age & I put maximum effort into before school & after as I can possibly muster up.
I completely get that playing with your son you feel the need for more pain relief!! That is a sickening emotion when you're unable,( for whatever reason), to participate fully in life with your child. A principle I've fundamentally advocated for through this whole chronic pain bullshit!!
Most ppl get incredibly sick when their DOC isn't available, & I don't want to give the impression that it's ever easy. It's definitely do able, but I recommend stocking up on helpful ingredients before an unforeseen event unfolds.
I mentioned in an earlier post that I.m back on an antidepressant. Rather than taking around six wks to work, I feel it's already taking effect. I, well, so far, aren't being woken by my alarm with a feeling of dread in my gut. In regard to your amytriptyline use,-,I've noted most antidepressants have warnings in the provided literature that such meds may induce feelings of psychosis, suicidal tendencies & worsening of depression/anxiety. Which is paradoxical by any means.
So, these next two mths..are you planning on continuing the taper? June isn't that far off,- hopeful PM comes up with some new answers? Uh again duh, we all want answers or explanations or solutions.
I may enable your drug taking
but pls don't let my negativity affect you when it comes to PM.
We fight to hold on & we fight to let go,-change is never easy.
Now, make some positive affirmations & stimulate that tenth cranial nerve. Stat!!
Rtp
