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Oxycontin -- First Time -- A Miserable Paradox

Edvard Munch

Edvard Munch

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Greetings y'all.
Age: 17
Weight: 162
Height: 6'2"
Previous experiances with drugs: Multiple DXM trips, really high doses of diphenhydramine. I have tried nothing illegal.
Dose of oxycontin: 20 milligrams
Method: Insuffilation
I was really excited to get my hands on such a substance after I seen all the things I have heard about it on http://erowid.com and of course on blue light. I would be highly dissapointed though.
I chopped up 4 pills into a fine powder and snorted it. This was my first time snorting anything at all and it felt rather icky as it hit the back of my throat. After, I had a real nervous excitement in me in knowing the effects that may occur. I lied on my bed in the dark and listened to music.
The trip:
It didn't it me hard, but rather came to me in a slow and very subtle wave. I kept wondering if the drug was working or I was just simply tired and fatigued. I got really drowsy and it seemed as if my limbs took longer to move from point A to point B as I was sitting up in bed. My vision got quite blurry. The room I seen around me seemed smaller and more claustrophobic.
"So...?" I asked my self as I sat there. I started to become rather emotionally dull. I wasn't feeling good, but I was feeling nothing at all. I was really relaxed sitting there. Music just sounded terrible to me and it evoked no emotional response. I wanted it off, but I didn't care enough to shut it off. I simply didn't give a fuck any more. I was emotionally numb to feel hate, and I hated that I couldn't feel hate. It was a miserable paradox. I also felt rather dumb in that brain of mine. My thoughts had come to a stand still like a murky swamp unmoved by any currents. After a while of sitting there feeling numb and dumb, I simply couldn't take it any more and I said...
"This drug fucking sucks." In an apathetic voice and turned off the music. I tried to fall asleep, which I did just fine which is best cause I didn't want to feel any more of this dope.
Retrospect:
Why would any one want to do this drug over and over? I read such positive experiances but for me it just seemed everything I hated in human nature was captured in that experiance. I want to actually feel and experiance emotions to the fullest extent and to hate to my fullest extent and to love to the fullest extent.
If I want the opposite emotional response from this drug, I'd just take 15 50 milligram sleeping pills which causes a euphoric blast wave and a lightning bolt of emotions you simply handle with out splitting your heart in 2 and it would be a lot better to me then oxycontin.
Any hoot, thanks for reading and happy trails to you.
[Changed title from "MY FIRST OXYCONTIN EXPERIANCE" to comply with the forum guidelines -Splatt]
[ 18 July 2002: Message edited by: Splatt ]
 
I get the exact opposite effects with OC. My emotions are heightened, to the point where every word that comes out of my mouth, directed to my girl, seems like poetry. And she receives it as such. On OC, everything is so much more interesting. Mundane activities like cleaning my room, vacuuming, telemarketing (bleh), are MUCH more interesting.
It wasn't this way at first. The body load of OC and an overall adjustment period are necessary for most people to get used to it, and then LOVE it.
This is what I define as a 'hard drug'... a drug that keeps getting BETTER the more you do it. Right now I'm a 10 month oxy addict, and lemme tell you. When I'm high, there's no better feeling in the world (except maybe E, but I always mix it with OC). But when I drain my supply, Hell Hath No Fury like a man fiending for opiates.
Perhaps opiates aren't for you. It surprises me that you've never ventured into any other illegal drugs. If you like DXM, go for ketamine. It's a much cleaner experience. If you love the dirtier aspects of DXM dissociation, try PCP.
For most people Opiates are an aquired taste... like Beer and Monkey Brains. But some people will never appreciate Beer and Monkey Brains.
I say, give it another go. Preferably in a social situation. But this is coming from someone who is addicted to OC. Or consider yourself lucky that you were never seduced into habitual drug dependency
Ketamike is on relapse #2
 
Your experience sounds perfect, you just used all the wrong words to describe it!
Do they make oxy 5's.. i thought ten was the lowest..
 
Interesting report, thanks for sharing. :)
Yes, different people do have different tatses *surprise*, so lets keep this thread how it is and avoid flaming.
Also, I changed your title to comply with the forum guidelines, and picked a phrase from your post that stood out to me what you thought of the experience. If you don't like it, you can change the title part to your liking.
[ 18 July 2002: Message edited by: Splatt ]
 
yea Oxycontin is the pill containing oxycodone...
Now if you snorted 4 percocet for 20mg oxycodone I could clearly understand why you wouldnt like this high.
Or maybe your just not an opiate person...
Never know
 
"So...?" I asked my self as I sat there. I started to become rather emotionally dull. I wasn't feeling good, but I was feeling nothing at all. I was really relaxed sitting there. Music just sounded terrible to me and it evoked no emotional response. I wanted it off, but I didn't care enough to shut it off. I simply didn't give a fuck any more.
Yup, that's opiates for ya. And this is one of the things found desirable about the experience by those who enjoy it. It's a bit of an acquired taste I think, I didn't enjoy my first opiate experience either. (hydrocodone)
I have had only one experience with oxycodone (taken orally). I enjoyed it more than hydro, which in turn I find better than codeine by about a factor of three. It was a small dose and I just felt a bit drowsy and fuzzy and... not "happy", but "content" might be a better word. It felt "lighter" or "cleaner" than hydro, and much more so than codeine.
You might try taking it orally instead of snorting it, it could change the character of the experience?
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The pills were small, circular and white. They were under the name Roxicodone, and below it on the prescription bottle it said Oxycodone.
And yes, each pill was 5 milligrams.
And Ketamike, I've been trying to get my hands on dissaciative anaesthetics for a while now, but all I can find around this crack hole is weed and coke. "Bah!" to weed and coke. And Ketamike, I'm glad someone likes opiates cause I sure don't. Heh.
*He sigh's* "Where is fancy bred? In the heart or in the head?" - Willy Wonka The synapses are fascist, my friends.
Oh! I almost forgot... (The memory has failed) One of the moderator's brought up a fantasmic point. Does your psychological mind set really have that much of an influence of whether you like a drug or not? Aren't drugs suppose to chemically alter the personality with such re uptake inhibitor's and dopamine and all that fancy smancy talk?
I'm a person who enjoy's having really intense emotions, and it anger's me when people are numb to loving the beauty of an elephant and numb to extreme hatred and chaos like riots and such. I guess that could qualify as me hating this drug.
I think to much.
[ 18 July 2002: Message edited by: Edvard Munch ]
 
You snorted Oxycodone(instant acting,no coating) not Oxycontin. I never enjoyed the oxycodone pills because they always seemed weak. Next time get your hands on the pink 20mg oxycontin. The fun will come to you then.
 
Maybe this isn't the drug for you then? Try another time or two then make up your mind. Good luck.
 
yeah that is very fun drug.... but some nice advice is take them when you feel like your comin down thats great and then smoke a bowl its great. yes but oxi is fun.
 
Thanks for posting about your experience. Some good discussion on this thread....
 
Whether or not you decide to try real oxy,
I dont recomend mixing it with alcohol.I had a very bad experience doing this once even after I was warned by friends.
 
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