I've been thinking about this a lot over the past week - the event that... Well... Turned me into a total opiate addict, I suppose, forevermore. I've been prescribed them for a very long time. And, you know, I did mainly use them for pain alone for about 12 years, for the most part. Sure, I had a couple days a week that I scheduled out a little "nice time" where I'd take a couple, right at 8pm sharp, to better enjoy my absolute fave primetime TV shows (lol, I'm getting way too old, to have lived in a non-DVR and no streaming world) But I was hardly addicted or anything of the sort.
Then came that event 10 years or so ago. I'd been taking Oxys orally for maybe 8 years at that point. Suddenly? I noticed I was getting zero relief! Next thing I know, my... Err... Well, bowel movements? They were what you might expect absent opioids in an opioid dependent person: And all that was solely because the Oxycontin 40mg pills were coming out in the toilet 100% intact. They even still had the coating on them, where you could see and read the good 'ol OC and 40 on it! I fished them out at first using a cup - I even showed one of those to my personal physician, in asking both wtf and what can I do to resolve this, ASAP?
The doctor, but of course, had no answer available for me. Just keep taking them, was what they said. It was inexplicable to that doctor. Well, another couple of days of the same thing? I'd had enough. I did the only logical thing at that point: The coating wouldn't dissolve? Well F that coating, then! So crush it I surely did, then taking the powdered result orally.
Well, that was when I truly experienced it for the first time. And, you know what? I'm not even sure I can look back and be that upset over what it did to me: That feeling is just like one would imagine being touched by God Himself. I can't imagine a life without it - mind you, without diverging too much here, my life/health is absolute crap: I've nearly died twice in the last two years (one time, I had a 5% chance of living, the second time, two months ago, a 25% chance. Mind you, neither had absolutely the slightest bit of connection to opiates.) I had the one person I lived for die in front of my eyes, just before that near death pneumonia into septic shock. I'm convinced that this one thing is the only thing keeping me alive at this point, what I live for. That might sound terrible, but, oddly enough, it totally isn't. The only negative is tolerance: Today, ten years on, I can do 1000mg or so of Oxycodone IR at once, and have it be just "right".
But enough of that. My question is rather as such: Did anyone else experience Oxycontin pills, especially the 40mg form of the old OCs, run right through them ten years or so ago, when they took them orally, as intended? Because I am convinced Purdue was F'ing with the formula at the time, trying to alter their abuse potential or something, even though these were indeed still the good old crushable OCs. I had been taking the pills for several years at that point, and always had them work just fine - until suddenly they didn't. Whatever the case was, I have that (what had to be an alteration by Purdue Pharma) to thank for introducing me to the full wondrous, genuine understanding of opioids.
'Tis both a most beautiful and inconceivable thing, while also being a curse and utter damnation. (And the latter is solely because of a lack of anything remotely resembling a sufficienct supply for my current "habit" - I've never once experienced anything remotely resembling an OD, 25+ years on. If you could buy opiates much as you can liquor or cigarettes, life would truly be an amazing thing. Unfortunately, that sure ain't the case, especially now that the political world and current culture has targeted them to near abouts extinction.)
So thank you very much, Purdue Pharma. You made at least one legitimate pain patient become an opioid... Fan? - because of your ridiculous experiment. And, btw, I just realized this might come up, but they were absolutely and totally legit Oxycontin tablets, received from CVS/Caremark, and, when crushed, were indeed Oxycontin tablets, with all the opiates that surely would entail.
Edit to add: This was around 2007/2008 or so, at least two years prior to the switchover to the newer OPs.
Then came that event 10 years or so ago. I'd been taking Oxys orally for maybe 8 years at that point. Suddenly? I noticed I was getting zero relief! Next thing I know, my... Err... Well, bowel movements? They were what you might expect absent opioids in an opioid dependent person: And all that was solely because the Oxycontin 40mg pills were coming out in the toilet 100% intact. They even still had the coating on them, where you could see and read the good 'ol OC and 40 on it! I fished them out at first using a cup - I even showed one of those to my personal physician, in asking both wtf and what can I do to resolve this, ASAP?
The doctor, but of course, had no answer available for me. Just keep taking them, was what they said. It was inexplicable to that doctor. Well, another couple of days of the same thing? I'd had enough. I did the only logical thing at that point: The coating wouldn't dissolve? Well F that coating, then! So crush it I surely did, then taking the powdered result orally.
Well, that was when I truly experienced it for the first time. And, you know what? I'm not even sure I can look back and be that upset over what it did to me: That feeling is just like one would imagine being touched by God Himself. I can't imagine a life without it - mind you, without diverging too much here, my life/health is absolute crap: I've nearly died twice in the last two years (one time, I had a 5% chance of living, the second time, two months ago, a 25% chance. Mind you, neither had absolutely the slightest bit of connection to opiates.) I had the one person I lived for die in front of my eyes, just before that near death pneumonia into septic shock. I'm convinced that this one thing is the only thing keeping me alive at this point, what I live for. That might sound terrible, but, oddly enough, it totally isn't. The only negative is tolerance: Today, ten years on, I can do 1000mg or so of Oxycodone IR at once, and have it be just "right".
But enough of that. My question is rather as such: Did anyone else experience Oxycontin pills, especially the 40mg form of the old OCs, run right through them ten years or so ago, when they took them orally, as intended? Because I am convinced Purdue was F'ing with the formula at the time, trying to alter their abuse potential or something, even though these were indeed still the good old crushable OCs. I had been taking the pills for several years at that point, and always had them work just fine - until suddenly they didn't. Whatever the case was, I have that (what had to be an alteration by Purdue Pharma) to thank for introducing me to the full wondrous, genuine understanding of opioids.
'Tis both a most beautiful and inconceivable thing, while also being a curse and utter damnation. (And the latter is solely because of a lack of anything remotely resembling a sufficienct supply for my current "habit" - I've never once experienced anything remotely resembling an OD, 25+ years on. If you could buy opiates much as you can liquor or cigarettes, life would truly be an amazing thing. Unfortunately, that sure ain't the case, especially now that the political world and current culture has targeted them to near abouts extinction.)
So thank you very much, Purdue Pharma. You made at least one legitimate pain patient become an opioid... Fan? - because of your ridiculous experiment. And, btw, I just realized this might come up, but they were absolutely and totally legit Oxycontin tablets, received from CVS/Caremark, and, when crushed, were indeed Oxycontin tablets, with all the opiates that surely would entail.
Edit to add: This was around 2007/2008 or so, at least two years prior to the switchover to the newer OPs.
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