Adicabrady, with all due respect, and I do appreciate your feedback and taking the time to read thru my post and try to help. However, some of your comments are a little presumptious and judgemental. Of course not taking my pills as Rx'd is not a good sign, of course I know that. That is stating the obvious. How do you think I got here....into the position im in now? Isnt that one of the most common ways for someone like myself to get addicted to oxys?!?! Its called tolerance. And to generalize or assume that everyone taking Rx pills for pain alone is not looking for a high is absurd. There is a term pseudo addiction or medical addiction. Some of us fall into that trap. Either way....who cares. it is what it is. I might as well be a crack head in the gutter, its the same result. Im addicted, just like anyone else. How do you think this all starts? Let me explain.... when you are young and naive of addiction and its power, you go to your doc bc you have 3 herniated discs. He Rxs 5 mg percs qid. Ahhh, pain is gone, you feel great! 6 mos later you go back to doc saying 5mgs arent working anymore, so he gives you 10mgs. Ahhh, pain is gone. 3 mos later you go back, doc gives you 20mg oxycontin plus 10 mg percs for breakthru. Ahhh, that really works, pain is gone. 3 mos later, you go back, 20 mgs arent lasting the 12 hrs as stated. he gives you 3/day, so on and so on.... then your at 3 80mgs/day plus 6 percs for b/t pain. then that doesnt work, but doc wont give anymore, so you DO WHAT U HAVE TO DO TO GET MORE to feed the monster. You do that and 5 years buzzes by your life in the blink of an eye, and here I am. My addiction 2 yrs ago was 5x what is is now (give or take). Ive trimmed it back to what I am currently taking now, which is 30mg roxis ONLY.
So to answer your question, yes, I do think I can do this on my own being that I have cut my intake over the past 2 yrs or so from anywhere between 1000 to 800mg/day, down to what I stated in my earlier posts (300 to 400mg/day). I did that on my own. no rehab. no detox. nobody forced me. All my decision. In fact nobody knows i have this problem. its my one monster in the closet. All for the simple fact that im sick of being a loser hooked on these pills. Ive done a good job cutting out what I have so far, but I have a ways to go. I still have a huge problem, thus the reason I posted a few days ago....