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Mgold55

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Hello.. I am just curious to what everyone thinks . I had a huge oxy problem for about 2 years, going up to 140 mg daily, rehab ensued. Im 7 months clean completely off everything, and lately ive been having an urge to pop one. What are the odds that will lead to full blown addiction again? Is it possible for an addict to pop one and then stop for a week or two before popping another? I dont think so, but i want the opinion of the masses. I feel like I know the answer.
 
I'd love to say you would be ok but yeah I think we all know the answer especially when it comes to opiates.
I know a goooood handful of people who have been to rehab (myself included) and only one of them has been able to 'pop just one' and not eventually full blown relapse and fall into addiction again (normally within a few weeks).
I mean let's say you can 'pop one' and then are ok for a few days/week after, you'll think "oh that was easy, no prob" next time it'll be popping 2, then 3, then twice a week, then 2 days in a row... You can see where I'm going.

What are you like with other substances (eg. Alcohol) do you indulge at all?

The saying is 'once an addict always an addict' and although I don't think this is entirely true, 99.9%+ of the time unfortunately it seems to be :(

Good luck. Maybe you should get to some meetings or call your sponsor?
 
No.

You can't pop/snort "just one" again. Don't do it man.

Opioid satan will take over again. There is no "one pill". Just like an alcoholic there is no "one beer" you can take...

Trust me. I started with oxycodone again, then oxymorphone, then 2 weeks later I was on straight fentanyl and overdosed. I was 2 years clean from opioids.

I'm 74 days clean from opioids now. Don't do it.
 
SnafuInTheVoid said:
No.

You can't pop/snort "just one" again. Don't do it man.

Opioid satan will take over again. There is no "one pill". Just like an alcoholic there is no "one beer" you can take...

Trust me. I started with oxycodone again, then oxymorphone, then 2 weeks later I was on straight fentanyl and overdosed. I was 2 years clean from opioids.

I'm 74 days clean from opioids now. Don't do it.
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I must say NO!! once your brain has passed pass the point to addiction, I have never been able to play with those switches, and not trigger " MORE??!!" why even bother, as a sober alcoholic, I have had 20 years and with the help of cancer and opiates picked up booze again. It was worst than when I stopped in my 20s . i must say that the expression in NA & AA that your disease is doing Push-ups in the parking lot is true. What I learned is in the 35 years of my not drinking, my Life got amazing, but my alcoholisim did not stop growing when I stopped, it keeprihjt on its progected path of progresion. So whe i picked up alcohol in my 50s , I was a brown bag under the bridge, cardboard box DRUNK!! Yet I had a nice house,wife, family,great job, $$ in the bank . really everything. But I drank like I would have if I lived long enough to get to 50, Really Ugly, thankful 10 years sober again.
 
I'm 28 from 18-26 I used drugs from cocaine to heroin to mdma to 2ce and now I'm not aloud to use (parents) so I just use now and then and sometimes I do start feeling like I want it more often but I just dont allow myself
 
Iceman1216 said:
I must say NO!! once your brain has passed pass the point to addiction, I have never been able to play with those switches, and not trigger " MORE??!!" why even bother, as a sober alcoholic, I have had 20 years and with the help of cancer and opiates picked up booze again. It was worst than when I stopped in my 20s . i must say that the expression in NA & AA that your disease is doing Push-ups in the parking lot is true. What I learned is in the 35 years of my not drinking, my Life got amazing, but my alcoholisim did not stop growing when I stopped, it keeprihjt on its progected path of progresion. So whe i picked up alcohol in my 50s , I was a brown bag under the bridge, cardboard box DRUNK!! Yet I had a nice house,wife, family,great job, $$ in the bank . really everything. But I drank like I would have if I lived long enough to get to 50, Really Ugly, thankful 10 years sober again.
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I have a lot of time for AA. One thing though is that in the past I've never had a sponsor I really liked ...and always felt too shy to ask people I met if they could sponsor me...guess part of my issue is "people pleasing" plus it don't take much for me to get touchy and feel "rejected" -and as with any other big social interaction, AA meetings are bit scary for me.
Bit of a moot point right now anyway as most meetings are shut because of COVID...
 
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