You're lucky to have an oxy script at all. I suffer from years of chronic, debilitating pain 24/7 in my spine and wouldn't even bother mentioning it to a doctor as it's just not realistic to get a script. I have no problem keeping my use to 5mg a day which has a profound effect on my mood, but it's just "too addictive and dangerous."
Every doctor is brainwashed to tell me to take one sort of antidepressant or another for my chronic pain. I took a dose or two and they made me feel very nauseated and like complete shit - my body recognized them as the poison that they are and I do not think they would help at all considered my pain isn't caused by a neurochemical imbalance, I'm not depressed so why the fuck consider antidepressants.
I also suffer from panic disorder and I get extreme panic attacks and I am working through this, had to quit smoking all that weed which triggered it. Benzos are an absolute no-no though, there's no point even mentioning it to the doctor. I've managed to get 25mg of xanax prescribed in my whole life, and one of the scripts was in order for me to "taper off"... I can't function without having them on hand, and again I don't have much of an issue with keeping my use to a low enough level that I don't build up a crazy tolerance. I will not be ceasing use any time soon because I wouldn't be able to function normally, there is a lot more I am doing to address my anxiety issues though.
I was initially prescribed the antipsychotic seroquel for my panic attacks, by an idiot fuck-tard of a doctor who I wouldn't hesitate to punch in the face if I ever saw him again, although I'd never step foot in his office. Can you believe that, seroquel XR for fucking sporadic panic attacks / chronic anxiety. It doesn't even kick in for three hours... where is the logic and reason in this? That seroquel turned me into a monster and it was my first time ever dealing with a doctor for mental health issues so I had blind faith in him and took my seroquel as prescribed. It fucking fried my brain after 6 months of using it and I had a pretty rough time getting off of it. He just kept prescribing me more and more, telling me it was perfectly ok, until I was up to something like 800mg a day. It was not helping me one bit and it was making everything worse but somehow I was pharmacy hopping for it, I guess I was just a zombie. I didn't know what a benzo was back then though, I was drinking off my panic attacks. That combined with the seroquel made me hit rock bottom. The extreme anxiety I was initially suffering from was made exponentially worse by this. And that is when I lost trust in doctors forever, after I got burned by that miserable filth seroquel.
Seroquel also had severe adverse reactions with other drugs that were potentially dangerous. I can't believe how bad I was on that stuff, worst panic attacks I have ever had. Once I stopped taking it, there was a great improvement. They're not all dumb - I showed up at the ER begging for mercy once - the resident psych straightaway told me to stop taking the massive doses of seroquel and gave me a few xanax. Smart lady, but she should have mentioned the night terrors, sleep paralysis, and weeks of horrible sleep that would ensue.
If I were to take seroquel nowadays with no tolerance, I can feel the filth invading my brain and dumbing me down for days off a mere 25mg dose. Needless to say I will never take it again. I think it's good for sniffing in prison to knock yourself out for 3 days, apart from that I don't see any value in it, not to mention grave danger. Last time I took it, it was 25mg dose and then next day a fucking half percocet made me FREAK... difficulty breathing, extreme anxiety, heart palpitations, felt like I was going to faint, almost crashed my car... this is not normal, seroquel is not safe. Even benzos make me edgy when I've taken seroquel!
Sooo whenever a doc tells me "I'm really excited about this particular SNRI, I think it will help your spine pain and anxiety a lot" I take the script to appease them and then throw it in the trash where it belongs. Then I tell them it doesn't do shit. I am into the chronic pain unit so that is a good start, you just have to play games like they play games.
For all their education, they must be smart. The issue is that they have a job like everyone else and they are playing a role, they have quotas to meet for the pharmaceutical companies. They are most likely unaware of the harm they are causing though.
It's almost like the pharmaceutical companies want to fry your brain. Who knows though, perhaps everyone in those companies is just doing their job too, and there is a higher level of control at play in the hierarchy of antidepressant, antipsychotic, pill pushing brain fryage zombie generating bullshit? It seems that the people in control want to keep you as unconscious as possible, which is why alcohol is the drug of choice for them to market and push on us. If I listened to them, I'd be tranquilized like an animal and I'd be completely unable to function in society.
I just get my meds elsewhere, doesn't impact my life too much although it would be nice if it could be covered by my insurance. It sucks having to be dishonest with doctors though, I'll get a new referal and then I'm always let down. I've learned to expect no help now. Obviously a little oxycodone is going to help me out a lot considering I have excruciating chronic pain, but this will never be acknowledged by anyone but myself and my girlfriend as I will hide it from everyone else.
Moreso land of the chained and shackled than land of the free.
