Opioids Oxycodone helps my anxiety/add and I want a doctor to believe me!!!!!!!

[Nikibeamer]

I'm not sure how to begin to explain my complicated situation but here I go.

I have been suffering from anxiety,add and PTSD all of which at times has caused me to get depressed and feel unworthy, helpless, low self esteem and very reclusive. On the outside I appear to be this happy, confident, woman who has it all. I'm attractive ( not to be conceited) have 3 amazing children and a great husband. I have spent thousands and thousands on therapy and tried every anti depressant, anti anxiety, benzo , sleep aid , natural and homeopathic remedy and a few stimulants with high hopes every time that something will fix me. I'm a very strong individual I had a very hard and abusive upbringing and have been on my own since I was 14.Luckily I had a good head on my shoulders and was always hard working and responsible. Despite absolutely no parental guidance or discipline.

I have never had a drug problem or any addiction aside from caffeine I had my fun in my 20's partying on the weekends here and there but never out of control. Now I'm a very seasoned ,35 year old mother and wife who has pretty much seen it all and made my way in life. I know myself and what works for me and doesn't at this point. That's my back ground here's my problem.

I have had a script from my doctor for 60 7.5 mg oxycodone that usually lasts about 3 months sometimes less if I'm super stressed. I have the script for occasional back pain but have discovered how much it helps my anxiety and add. I'm able to focus, it's just stimulating enough to get shit done that would usually take weeks to get motivated to do. It makes me more social a better mom and wife. I sleep great and have absolutely no side effects. In the beginning a little constipation but nothing close to the side effects of adderall and even benzos. I can take it a week then not for a week with no withdrawals and I have been taking this off and on for 2 years. I usually take 16- 20mg a day when I take it.
I get that is highly addictive and tolerance can be built up fast that's why I try to take it responsibly but heres my dilemma.

i want to talk to my Pdoc about it I want to go thru him for my scripts so I can be open about it and tell her that after all these years I have found something that works for me. I don't want to take adderall and xanax anymore they are far more damaging to my my body and brain personally than a opioid. I seriously feel cracked out and anxious as fuck from the comedown of adderall and it's methamphetamine! Why is it oxycodone monitored by a Pdoc for my issues so much worse than all the other drugs they want you to take?!

Is there anyone out there that can relate? That's not just trying to get high but truly benefits positively from this drug. I haven't had to take a single xanax or Ambein when I'm taking this. Anything over 20 mgs doesn't feel good and 2 years later I haven't built tolerance so I want to hear positive stories not the usual warnings and horror stories that led to herion use. There's got to be some one like me out there!

 

[TheLostBoys]

Niki, I know quite a few people like you that have been using hydrocodonr for over 5 years now & haven't gone past a dose of 20mgs a day.

They all went thru the steps you went thru with antidepressants, xanax, etc........

There's a lot of people on this site that don't believe you can self medicate w/o getting addicted & landing on the needle, I'm not one of those people because if you have some self control & some order in your life, you can do it.

Most people will agree with you on the topic of antidepressants, they don't work & in fact make you worse.

But, I wouldn't go to your doctor & tell him that oxycodone works great for your anxiety/add & depression......he might cut you off immediately.

Just keep telling him you have aches & pains & hopefully you continue to get these meds.

Doctors are brainwashed into thinking antidepressants actually work for everyone & since their books & all their teachings say so, it must be true.

You won't be able to convince your doctor because most are idiots

 

[Nikibeamer]

Thank you so much for your response. It's so frustrating! I have so many friends that abuse adderall and personally that is the dirtiest feeling drug I have ever used. But no problem getting a script for that!

I will inever ever move on to needles or go beyond my 10-20mg occasional dose. Everyone is different and every brain is wired different so I get frustrated that people are so quick to assume that everyone will eventually be shooting up including doctors..

My primary doctor prescribes the oxycodone to me but like I said I would like to be honest and open to my physiatrist so she can trust me and monitor me. The only reason I'm considering talking to her about it is cuz she told me she has a patient that she prescribes 2 oxycodone a day to for his anxiety/add so I know he's somewhat open.. If she fires me I really don't care cuz I don't want any more of her adderall or benzos!

 

[TheLostBoys]

That's interesting about your psychiatrist.......I have heard of some doctors out west that do prescribe Tramafol to patients for depression.

If you have a close & friendly relationship with your psychiatrist, maybe you can suggest what you have here since he told you he prescribes oxy to another patient.

I'm surprised he would talk to you about prescribing oxy for depression/anxiety of another patient.

If he's that open to the idea, maybe you should ask but my question is this.........if you're getting g oxy from your regular doctor, why do you have to ask your psychiatrist for the meds?

Maybe you can bring it on slowly by telling your psychiatrist that you were taking oxy for pain & it has helped you immensely for you anxiety/add/depression & you stopped taking adderall & xanax & you feel great.

 

[Buprenorphine]

Ya I wish I could go to the Dr and say I have so and so and I want Oxycodone..... No Dr is going to buy that bs they all are going to think your an addict. However I do agree that it is great and helps alot with your problems just in most situations narcotics are prescribed for pain patients most of the time... Try to see if you can get on buprenorphine I bet you would like it. It def helps me with those same issues you have and last alot longer and def has a nice stimulating effect.

 

[TheLostBoys]

Ya I wish I could go to the Dr and say I have so and so and I want Oxycodone..... No Dr is going to buy that bs they all are going to think your an addict. However I do agree that it is great and helps alot with your problems just in most situations narcotics are prescribed for pain patients most of the time... Try to see if you can get on buprenorphine I bet you would like it. It def helps me with those same issues you have and last alot longer and def has a nice stimulating effect.

I thought of trying it out for pain before but everything I read says it will raise my tolerance big time.

How high will it raise it? I guess 30mgs of hydrocodone will not be felt after using subs?

 

[Seattle_Stranger]

Try kratom.

 

[DL-ark]

Oxycodone is a dreamwork for my add, but alas, damned if you ask, damned if you dont.

 

[Nikibeamer]

Yes I thought it was quite unprofessional of my Pdoc to discuss another patients treatment but did say it after I casually told her I found oxy to help my symptoms but I kind of just dropped it after that since at the time I was pregnant and taking nothing. But her exact words were" I actually have a patient I prescribe 2 20mgs oxys a day for that helps him with symptoms too". She then said that there has been studies that oxycodone works for add/anxiety.. But like I said I was pregnant so I dropped it. This is one reason why I'm considering asking.


The reason I don't want to depend solely on my general Dr prescribing it is because I don't feel like it will always be a permanent script from him and he's mentioned that he doesn't want to keep me on it. Plus he is as old as dirt and really shouldn't be practicing. I told him about my sciatic pain and he literally had me stand in front of him while he was sitting in a chair and rub my butt cheek and wrote the script. Lol he's a old pervert.


i do have legitimate sciatic nerve pain I get acupuncture, massages and go to the chiropractor and truthfully it only flares up maybe a week a month ..




I've tried kratom it was ok.


Im so tired of trying new things so I really don't want to try anything else at this point you all know how it is I hate the constant trial and error especially when I found what relieves all my symptoms!!!! What the hell is the difference in being addicted to adderall or benzos? I seriously don't get the logic.

 

[zzz101]

oxycodone is awesome.

do more experiments with kratom. more research and different blends n doses, etc. you might find something that works better for you. you have to not use it often though for tolerence and sometimes it is unpredictble

it would also be way more safer to take than oxycodone.

 

[TheLostBoys]

Psychiatrists never are logical when prescribing meds. The head of our psychiatric dept. at the biggest hospital in my town went senile & now had Alzheimer's....... I wonder if someone prescribed him antidepressants because he was always depressed.

You're actually lucky to have an older doctor, those older doctors give out scripts way more than these young doctors.

 

[Nikibeamer]

True about the older doctors! The younger ones seem to want to always suggest exercise, my diet and if I've tried meditation lmfao.
which is downright offensive. It's like duh asshole a person with add is really going to be able to sit down and meditate and I work out 5 days a week and live a very healthy lifestyle. You would think they would have learned something in med school about brain chemistry.

 

[Cliffy78]

I use oxy for my mental issues too. The garbage psych meds just zombie me out and some make me really bug out. The oxy actually helps, even really serious mental shit. No side effects after athe first few scripts.
There's a lot of us that the oxy helps. Just gotta keep it under control which isn't always easy when u got a steady script...

 

[Nikibeamer]

I'm glad to know I'm not the only one!!! Is it some kind of drug company conspiracy as to why it can't be labeled for add or anxiety also? I had a doctor insist I try Bistolia for my add/anxiety and that's for high blood pressure???

 

[Cliffy78]

Ikr! I wish the drs would just let the patient decide about the risks. A lot of people with very legit pain issues can't get proper pain meds, or if they do then it's just not enough. I've been on the same dose for 5 years, I brought up that wasn't working as good as it used to so he sent me to pain man. And they wanted to give me shit waaay stronger than the oxy, shit just doesn't make any sense. Let us worry about a possible addiction, sometimes the meds are all that's keeping someone from offing themes elves...

 

[TheLostBoys]

True about the older doctors! The younger ones seem to want to always suggest exercise, my diet and if I've tried meditation lmfao.
which is downright offensive. It's like duh asshole a person with add is really going to be able to sit down and meditate and I work out 5 days a week and live a very healthy lifestyle. You would think they would have learned something in med school about brain chemistry.

LoL......don't get me started with young doctors. I think they are graduating dumber & dumber doctors into our society.......

I had a young pakastanian doctor tell me the same as you......he suggested my lower back need to be strengthened. I went thru therapy & the whole nine yards & it didn't do sh*t for me. Stretching & walking every day helps me a ton more than stupid therapy.

Therapy isn't for everyone but these idiots have a protocol & have to follow it like a robot.

He suggested that I take up running but when I run, a shooting sharp pain shoots up into my head & my back hurts immensely.....I told him this & he still was adamant that I keep running.

I literally told him that if I did hit him in the back of his head with a 4×4, does he think it would hurt or would it all be in his head like he tried to say with me even tho I have Xrays & MRIs........

I ended telling him I don't want to see him anymore, I'm.gonna find a better doctor, & I did.

 

[TheLostBoys]

I'm glad to know I'm not the only one!!! Is it some kind of drug company conspiracy as to why it can't be labeled for add or anxiety also? I had a doctor insist I try Bistolia for my add/anxiety and that's for high blood pressure???

Some doctors are just plain retarded........I think they got their diploma in a south american country.

You're right, there is a conspiracy, its to screw up the minds of our young people & adults with all these antidepressants & other meds that make no sense to take.

 

[Buprenorphine]

It is hard though I cannot see many legit Doctors prescribing Oxycodone for those reasons you have. Besides even if you do get a RX for Oxycodone you will get dependent eventually and that just adds to the list of problems with anxiety and all the stuff. I think thats what would be called off label RX'ing. I guess if you find the right Doctor that will get you Oxycodone every month for those reasons more power to you. Like I said... If I could go to the doctor and get on Oxycodone Schedule then wtf am I taking buprenorphine for? If I could just be like "Hey Dr I have add and anxiety can I please get 200 30's please?" lol I bet most Dr's would tell me to get the F out of the office lol.

Honeslty though if it were possible I would be on Oxy all day too. Thats why I recomended Suboxone becuase it is made from the same part of the plant as oxycodone and you can go to the Dr and will be able to get it because it is a schedule III Drug and for me it has a lot of the same effects as oxy but not a full blown agonist.

 

[Nikibeamer]

If I have no luck I will for sure take your advice and maybe try something else. I've actually also talked to my crazy, hormone specialist doctor about it just because she's a super open old hippy type. She was also somewhat open she just said she would have me sign a contract??? I guess that I'm not abusing, selling or whatever. I said I would try my physiatrist first but will certainly take her up on it if she's serious. I'm pretty convincing after a doctor looks at my history I guess I do have 2 legitimate options if my Pdoc won't do it.
And i do realize that at some point I will have some kind of issues from oxy as well but I'm convinced that happens with all drugs eventually. Xanex for sure after 15 years of on and off use caused me anxiety and isn't that's what it's supposed to help? Don't even get me started on what Ambein did to my sleep cycle. I will never touch that again.I would rather that then live like this forever. Pick your poison I guess.

 

[TheLostBoys]

Of course its pick your poison.......do you want to live like a passive zombified retard your whole life on antidepressants or would you like to have 3 to 7 years of the best years of your life on oxy before becoming dependant.......if youre able to control your intake, you can do it.

People say you will become dependant on it.......that's s given. How much you ingest is up to you if you have some self control........we all know its easier said than done but its been proven & I know people that are doing it over 5 years now.

You can become dependant on Prozac & that sh*t turns most people into zombies & Xanax is a miracle when taken randomly, but if taken every day, its a terrible drug to have an addiction to, worse than opiates by far.