anxiousMoFo
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This is my first "formal" trip report contribution, not just to Bluelight. I hope readers can enjoy, learn and benefit from the description of my experience. 
Previous drug experience:
Experienced: cannabis, alcohol, nicotine (only physical addiction and w/d experienced, quit)
Semi experienced: alprazolam, zolpidem, lorazepam, clonazepam (all benzos oral only), opiates including oxycodone (insufflated, oral), hydromorphone (insufflated), hydrocodone (oral, rectal), morphine (oral), diamorphine (tar only, IV), tramadol (oral), amphetamines (adderall - oral and insufflated), opium alkaloids via poppy pods
Once / few times: cocaine (insufflated), psilocybin (oral, don't like psychs), methylphenidate (Ritalin - oral and insufflated), salvia divinorium, kava, kratom, wormwood and some stupid shits I can't remember.
Substances consumed:
120mg of oxycodone.
Brand name Oxycontin, OC 60.
.5mg alprazolam (note, not 5mg, but half of a mg).
Generic for Xanax, peach oval, pill ID forgotten
2mg lorazepam.
Generic for Ativan, white circular pills, pill ID forgotten
high potency cannabis brownie from a medical dispensary.
Legitimacy of substances: Since all substances were obtained through clandestine methods, however through consistent and reliable sources, I confirmed all pill ID's to match substance and dose as I always do prior to taking pharmaceuticals. I can attest for the brownie as it tasted very real and there was a dispensary sticker on the package describing potency as 5x.
ROA: No pills were crushed. I ate the brownie first, put all the 2 Ativan, 1 Xanax and 2 OC 60's in my mouth and had a water bottle in hand. I swallowed the pills with the water immediately before passing through security prior to boarding a 4 hour flight, followed almost immediately by an 8 hour flight. I flew by myself, however there were plenty of people in the airport and airplane, none of which I knew.
Drug use / meds: No current medications, at least not for "medicinal" use, only recreational dabbling with Adderall, some opiates and benzodiazepines for the last 6 months, however my cannabis use was more frequent than that: about 1 - 6 times a week for 1 or 2 years, but with 1 to 3 month breaks.
Mindset: tired from last minute planning and packing and little sleep the night before. Being excited for this experience, and better yet, my upcoming trip, this feeling of well being and positive anticipation was more prominent.
Setting: airport. Busy, crowded, etc. as usual. Nothing out of the ordinary. I found it interesting that the evident discomfort and stress that was evident in most people around me compared to my "feeling like a million bucks" made me feel like literally the only happy person, except that I was beyond happy. %)
This might seem like a shitload of drugs and a haphazard move, but I have always been very aware and cautious of my tolerance. Matter of fact, not only did I handle the drugs very well, I achieved the exact effects I desired.
Being experienced enough with cannabis, the pot brownie gave me a typical sense of well being, slow climbing body high and there was a hash-like mental high that's hard to put my finger on at this moment. It basically kept my spirits up and added a trippy edge to my nods and opiate "haze."
The jackpot was the opiate / benzo combination. Although I have never been physically addicted to opiates I did manage to build up a non desirable tolerance to OC of 100mg+, usually consuming 40mg - 80mg orally and 20mg - 60mg nasally. I often crush and cut up the pills for faster onset orally, nice peak, etc. I chose to not crush the OC's to delay the onset a bit as opposed to crushing it, knowing that the high would gradually build up over time.
My benzo use prior to this day has been strictly recreational, however, and although my tolerance shot up within a handful of experiences (typical, right?) and never quite went down despite using it sparingly. The 2mg Ativan were perfect for the flight. From personal experience, Xanax kicks in hard and will put me to sleep or fuck with my memory at 1.5mg+ doses. The Ativan lasted for several hours and other than easing up some flight anxiety, it boosted the OC nod intensity and frequency, without taking away the euphoria.
Although I do not regret taking that .5mg Xanax, I am not entirely sure why I did, since the other pills and the brownie overpowered it. I have tried a cannabis (smoked) and Xanax combo a handful of times, also once with Klonopin and a couple times with Ativan and found it wonderful to take off that weed paranoia, which would have likely been prominent since I was in an airplane.
Once I eased up in my seat and allowed the pill train to take over, I was feeling great. I was partly inspired by someone on BL that posted on another thread about "melting into your little airplane seat," referring to using opiates during a flight. I pulled off some nice nods, sometimes waking to realized there was still food in my mouth from 20 minutes before that I didn't finish chewing. The flight was very comfortable, I was relaxed, happy, high, mellow, pain free and was sedated just enough that after the first flight I could sleep at will, but was far from blacking out.
I believe this drug combo minimized the dreaded jet lag, which only lasted 1 day and it was minimal compared to flying sober as I had taken about 8 variations of this same trip for many years. The gradual oxycodone build up peaked as the brownie were off, and by the time I landed I had "post-opiate happiness" and by night time I was ready to sleep.
Remember that opiates and benzos are strong drugs and I do not recommend anyone not familiar with their effects to consume them in an airport / airplane, especially in conjunction. Although I nodded for a couple of hours, I otherwise handled and behaved myself well and had no trouble interacting with others when needed. Although tolerance is often a burden, aka "a bitch," it can come in handy when you need to handle your scandal. People with little benzo experience could potentially pass out and miss a flight, get robbed, or call to much attention to themselves even at low doses. Being concerned with harm reduction I am always very cautious of my dose, often keeping personal written or typed coded logs of my pharmaceutical substance use to keep track of my tolerance to the mg or gram. Sounds like paranoia, but that's one of my techniques that have worked so far to curb addiction and avoid w/d and o/d. Another technique to balance out drug use is reading The Dark Side threads here on BL and meeting, talking to and observing addicts to try to learn from their mistakes.
Please everyone thinking about replying to this, no aggressive reminders of the slippery slope that opiate use can lead to. To me, part of the fun of using drugs other than their direct effects, self exploration, self discovery is the often unconscious act of rebellion and desire to try different things. I never think about it like that during my use, but in retrospect it is likely true. Not only did the drugs ease and relax me during the flight, but the thrill of getting away with the experience during the flight also influenced the substances' effects on me positively. This drug experience was my ultimate proof that set and setting + drug use is a two way street in terms of synergy.
Previous drug experience:
Experienced: cannabis, alcohol, nicotine (only physical addiction and w/d experienced, quit)
Semi experienced: alprazolam, zolpidem, lorazepam, clonazepam (all benzos oral only), opiates including oxycodone (insufflated, oral), hydromorphone (insufflated), hydrocodone (oral, rectal), morphine (oral), diamorphine (tar only, IV), tramadol (oral), amphetamines (adderall - oral and insufflated), opium alkaloids via poppy pods
Once / few times: cocaine (insufflated), psilocybin (oral, don't like psychs), methylphenidate (Ritalin - oral and insufflated), salvia divinorium, kava, kratom, wormwood and some stupid shits I can't remember.
Substances consumed:
120mg of oxycodone.
Brand name Oxycontin, OC 60.
.5mg alprazolam (note, not 5mg, but half of a mg).
Generic for Xanax, peach oval, pill ID forgotten
2mg lorazepam.
Generic for Ativan, white circular pills, pill ID forgotten
high potency cannabis brownie from a medical dispensary.
Legitimacy of substances: Since all substances were obtained through clandestine methods, however through consistent and reliable sources, I confirmed all pill ID's to match substance and dose as I always do prior to taking pharmaceuticals. I can attest for the brownie as it tasted very real and there was a dispensary sticker on the package describing potency as 5x.
ROA: No pills were crushed. I ate the brownie first, put all the 2 Ativan, 1 Xanax and 2 OC 60's in my mouth and had a water bottle in hand. I swallowed the pills with the water immediately before passing through security prior to boarding a 4 hour flight, followed almost immediately by an 8 hour flight. I flew by myself, however there were plenty of people in the airport and airplane, none of which I knew.
Drug use / meds: No current medications, at least not for "medicinal" use, only recreational dabbling with Adderall, some opiates and benzodiazepines for the last 6 months, however my cannabis use was more frequent than that: about 1 - 6 times a week for 1 or 2 years, but with 1 to 3 month breaks.
Mindset: tired from last minute planning and packing and little sleep the night before. Being excited for this experience, and better yet, my upcoming trip, this feeling of well being and positive anticipation was more prominent.
Setting: airport. Busy, crowded, etc. as usual. Nothing out of the ordinary. I found it interesting that the evident discomfort and stress that was evident in most people around me compared to my "feeling like a million bucks" made me feel like literally the only happy person, except that I was beyond happy. %)
This might seem like a shitload of drugs and a haphazard move, but I have always been very aware and cautious of my tolerance. Matter of fact, not only did I handle the drugs very well, I achieved the exact effects I desired.
Being experienced enough with cannabis, the pot brownie gave me a typical sense of well being, slow climbing body high and there was a hash-like mental high that's hard to put my finger on at this moment. It basically kept my spirits up and added a trippy edge to my nods and opiate "haze."
The jackpot was the opiate / benzo combination. Although I have never been physically addicted to opiates I did manage to build up a non desirable tolerance to OC of 100mg+, usually consuming 40mg - 80mg orally and 20mg - 60mg nasally. I often crush and cut up the pills for faster onset orally, nice peak, etc. I chose to not crush the OC's to delay the onset a bit as opposed to crushing it, knowing that the high would gradually build up over time.
My benzo use prior to this day has been strictly recreational, however, and although my tolerance shot up within a handful of experiences (typical, right?) and never quite went down despite using it sparingly. The 2mg Ativan were perfect for the flight. From personal experience, Xanax kicks in hard and will put me to sleep or fuck with my memory at 1.5mg+ doses. The Ativan lasted for several hours and other than easing up some flight anxiety, it boosted the OC nod intensity and frequency, without taking away the euphoria.
Although I do not regret taking that .5mg Xanax, I am not entirely sure why I did, since the other pills and the brownie overpowered it. I have tried a cannabis (smoked) and Xanax combo a handful of times, also once with Klonopin and a couple times with Ativan and found it wonderful to take off that weed paranoia, which would have likely been prominent since I was in an airplane.
Once I eased up in my seat and allowed the pill train to take over, I was feeling great. I was partly inspired by someone on BL that posted on another thread about "melting into your little airplane seat," referring to using opiates during a flight. I pulled off some nice nods, sometimes waking to realized there was still food in my mouth from 20 minutes before that I didn't finish chewing. The flight was very comfortable, I was relaxed, happy, high, mellow, pain free and was sedated just enough that after the first flight I could sleep at will, but was far from blacking out.
I believe this drug combo minimized the dreaded jet lag, which only lasted 1 day and it was minimal compared to flying sober as I had taken about 8 variations of this same trip for many years. The gradual oxycodone build up peaked as the brownie were off, and by the time I landed I had "post-opiate happiness" and by night time I was ready to sleep.
Remember that opiates and benzos are strong drugs and I do not recommend anyone not familiar with their effects to consume them in an airport / airplane, especially in conjunction. Although I nodded for a couple of hours, I otherwise handled and behaved myself well and had no trouble interacting with others when needed. Although tolerance is often a burden, aka "a bitch," it can come in handy when you need to handle your scandal. People with little benzo experience could potentially pass out and miss a flight, get robbed, or call to much attention to themselves even at low doses. Being concerned with harm reduction I am always very cautious of my dose, often keeping personal written or typed coded logs of my pharmaceutical substance use to keep track of my tolerance to the mg or gram. Sounds like paranoia, but that's one of my techniques that have worked so far to curb addiction and avoid w/d and o/d. Another technique to balance out drug use is reading The Dark Side threads here on BL and meeting, talking to and observing addicts to try to learn from their mistakes.
Please everyone thinking about replying to this, no aggressive reminders of the slippery slope that opiate use can lead to. To me, part of the fun of using drugs other than their direct effects, self exploration, self discovery is the often unconscious act of rebellion and desire to try different things. I never think about it like that during my use, but in retrospect it is likely true. Not only did the drugs ease and relax me during the flight, but the thrill of getting away with the experience during the flight also influenced the substances' effects on me positively. This drug experience was my ultimate proof that set and setting + drug use is a two way street in terms of synergy.
