overprotected

[x eNiGmA kiD x]

and there I go again
doubting my self
I think too much
and wonder to long
about my life
and where should it go
I'm weak sometimes
ok maybe daily
but it's all blurry now
am I growing up?
sometimes I don't
think about my life
I just live
then again I find my self
wondering off again
am I too overproptected...
I need space...
(I'm going to move out,
I've thought about it for 2 yrs now)
I don't have it bad though
I have everything anyone can want...
a loving family, a dog, even a boat
I just want my own space,
make my own mistakes,
amuse my self... loosen up and do it
on my own
does this mean what I think...
this is all part of growing up
It's so embarrassing
I don't know how to cook...
my mom does it all... my dad
always calling me pet names
but I'm feeling like a patient
and not like a 21 yr old
everytime I want to do something
their there doing it better for me...
or then again they go off
showing me off like a damn trophy
I love my family... but I want to
move out... grow up... cause they treat
me like I'm 12 yrs old...
the seeds others have planted in me
have grown... into beautiful insecurities,
strangling me to the point of unfocusing
my own urges... choices... & hopes...
though the doubts are there,
I'm still moving out
[ 02 May 2002: Message edited by: x eNiGmA kiD x ]

 

[Angelight]

i know how this feels...
this was an excellent piece Thanks for sharing!