I've been affected with social anxiety all of my life. Everytime I go hangout with friends, go to parties, or even talk to a stranger it gets all awkward for me. I'm always anxious of what people would think of me or getting picked at. People tell me to just relax and take it easy but it's not that easy! I'm in high school too, which is an important social time of your life you should enjoy.. Also I don't have low self esteem for my apperance, I always have girls thinking i'm good looking but it makes me sad that I can't talk to them.. except on E of course.
I started rolling throughout last year till now because all my anxieties disappear when i'm rolling. I'm like a whole different person when i'm rolling, I have no fear of talking to people. That's the main reason why I love the drug, not for the feeling, but for having the feeling of no anxiety for once in my life. I don't do it all the time, but when I do do it, it's like extremely a treat for me to feel outgoing.
What I want to do is become my true self, the person I am when i'm rolling but while i'm sober. I know it'll take work, but I need advice on how to overcome my social phobia and to just live life. I figured this is the perfect place to ask for help since no person who has never tried E wouldn't understand exactly how I feel. And no SSRI or Xanax bs, I want to be all natural outgoing.
So any advice on how I can rewire my mind to be the happy, social and fun to be with guy that I am on E would be appreciated!
I started rolling throughout last year till now because all my anxieties disappear when i'm rolling. I'm like a whole different person when i'm rolling, I have no fear of talking to people. That's the main reason why I love the drug, not for the feeling, but for having the feeling of no anxiety for once in my life. I don't do it all the time, but when I do do it, it's like extremely a treat for me to feel outgoing.
What I want to do is become my true self, the person I am when i'm rolling but while i'm sober. I know it'll take work, but I need advice on how to overcome my social phobia and to just live life. I figured this is the perfect place to ask for help since no person who has never tried E wouldn't understand exactly how I feel. And no SSRI or Xanax bs, I want to be all natural outgoing.
So any advice on how I can rewire my mind to be the happy, social and fun to be with guy that I am on E would be appreciated!