Knightrous
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- Aug 28, 2011
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Hello. First post. [Do you like my username?]
I need some advice or thoughts/exercises to keep me from having bland or non-visual experiences.
Just a little history:
I've been doing N2O on and off for about 4 years. In the beginning it was once a month or so and gradually grew to 3 times a week or more.
During my virgin months, I did nitrous with a friend and experienced huge aural trips where every sound just vibrated and blended together into this awesome mechanical noise. I thought that was it. It was something to say "this is cool" and nothing more. But over the next few months I learned to do them by myself and really get to think about things. Then came the deja vu, clairvoyance, sudden mind-blowing realizations, and of course huge eruptions of laughter after something serious transformed into something silly.
The next stage moved from mere visuals to full-on dreams. It was like I could feel my muscles moving, as if I was actually running away from the tornado I was dreaming about. Or, in many experiences, I was reaching for something I was desperate to grab hold of, only to wake from my dream and have no memory of what I was JUST thinking of, yet my hand was outstretched trying to grab whatever is was.
Fast forward 3 years later:
I feel like my mind has expanded to a limit. I feel like the old, wise martial arts instructor that "knows all there is to know" and has experienced all that life has to offer. But seriously?? That can't be the end of it. I used to be able to drop 2 carts in a balloon, suck it in and breathe slowly, and then get an awesome "live dream." I would come out of it in disbelief like "OMG there's no way that WASN'T real!"
But the last few weeks have been a bit bland. I always keep my eyes closed and I still see shapes, colors, patterns and formations -- but rarely do I fall completely into a dream anymore. I used to have experiences where I did not even remember inhaling. I would just suddenly come out of a dream and be SHOCKED that I was unconscious so quickly.
I am not at the point where I want to combine the N2O with something stronger. Nitrous is about the only thing I can buy without having to find a dealer (and be paranoid about getting busted.)
Anyhow, I will post more but just wanted to get this intro typed. I really didn't want to put this in the "Big Dandy Nitrous Thread" because it talked so much about canisters, tanks, balloons, how-to, where-to, and such. I just want to know if anyone has hit a plateau the way I have, and what worked to get things kicked back into a higher gear.
A few of my solutions that worked for a while, but don't always produce the desired effect each time are:
Just before inhaling:
- Thinking about a deep, meaningful issue or problem (the ones that make me cry are the best, but I can only cry so much.)
- Creating a fictional story in my head
- Counting backward from 10, going into negative numbers if need be
- Pretending that I am someone else, someone trying nitrous for the very first time, making myself nervous or shy.
- Pretending that I am getting ready for deep space travel, suiting up and strapping myself into a rocket and having no idea what possibilities lie ahead.
Any tips for getting that loving feeling back [that don't involve combining with another drug] would be great. Eventually I will find a way to get a hold of something else. But for the time being, all I have is nitrous, alcohol and my thoughts.
Cheers.
I need some advice or thoughts/exercises to keep me from having bland or non-visual experiences.
Just a little history:
I've been doing N2O on and off for about 4 years. In the beginning it was once a month or so and gradually grew to 3 times a week or more.
During my virgin months, I did nitrous with a friend and experienced huge aural trips where every sound just vibrated and blended together into this awesome mechanical noise. I thought that was it. It was something to say "this is cool" and nothing more. But over the next few months I learned to do them by myself and really get to think about things. Then came the deja vu, clairvoyance, sudden mind-blowing realizations, and of course huge eruptions of laughter after something serious transformed into something silly.
The next stage moved from mere visuals to full-on dreams. It was like I could feel my muscles moving, as if I was actually running away from the tornado I was dreaming about. Or, in many experiences, I was reaching for something I was desperate to grab hold of, only to wake from my dream and have no memory of what I was JUST thinking of, yet my hand was outstretched trying to grab whatever is was.
Fast forward 3 years later:
I feel like my mind has expanded to a limit. I feel like the old, wise martial arts instructor that "knows all there is to know" and has experienced all that life has to offer. But seriously?? That can't be the end of it. I used to be able to drop 2 carts in a balloon, suck it in and breathe slowly, and then get an awesome "live dream." I would come out of it in disbelief like "OMG there's no way that WASN'T real!"
But the last few weeks have been a bit bland. I always keep my eyes closed and I still see shapes, colors, patterns and formations -- but rarely do I fall completely into a dream anymore. I used to have experiences where I did not even remember inhaling. I would just suddenly come out of a dream and be SHOCKED that I was unconscious so quickly.
I am not at the point where I want to combine the N2O with something stronger. Nitrous is about the only thing I can buy without having to find a dealer (and be paranoid about getting busted.)
Anyhow, I will post more but just wanted to get this intro typed. I really didn't want to put this in the "Big Dandy Nitrous Thread" because it talked so much about canisters, tanks, balloons, how-to, where-to, and such. I just want to know if anyone has hit a plateau the way I have, and what worked to get things kicked back into a higher gear.
A few of my solutions that worked for a while, but don't always produce the desired effect each time are:
Just before inhaling:
- Thinking about a deep, meaningful issue or problem (the ones that make me cry are the best, but I can only cry so much.)
- Creating a fictional story in my head
- Counting backward from 10, going into negative numbers if need be
- Pretending that I am someone else, someone trying nitrous for the very first time, making myself nervous or shy.
- Pretending that I am getting ready for deep space travel, suiting up and strapping myself into a rocket and having no idea what possibilities lie ahead.
Any tips for getting that loving feeling back [that don't involve combining with another drug] would be great. Eventually I will find a way to get a hold of something else. But for the time being, all I have is nitrous, alcohol and my thoughts.
Cheers.