Wow! Thanks for the kind words yo! I post so much stuff on here, and I NEVER get any feedback. I honestly didn't think my poem was that good, just a cheesy piece about a girl, but now that I read your follow up, I realize there were a lot of other things in there that I was directing this towards. In answer to your question, neither. haha. I pretty much live my life by the motto "to forgive and forget, live and regret." I've had so much ill shit happen to me (some my fault, some not) and a few bad relationships in my lifetime, that I've almost given up even the thought of trying to make something of myself or the people i call my friends. The girl I wrote this poem about takes all of that away. However the issue I'm facing right now is that I have absolutely no clue whether I should tell her or not that I'm basically in love with her. As for right now, in her eyes, we're friends. But she has pointed out on several occasions that we seem to connect on some weird level that neither of us have ever connected on with anyone before. The other thing I realized that I was trying to get out was a problem I'm having with my best friend. We've been best friends and bandmates for 7 years now, and it seems as the years have gone by, he gets progressively worse and worse. It may be wrong of me to think this way, but I virtually saved this kid's life from drug abuse, and I still get treated like shit. Whenever he has a girlfriend, the music we play and our friendship always comes second. We've gotten to the point now where we've (well, not to sound conceited, but I have) written some very very good songs, and we've been planning to go to Dayton for a couple of weeks to show our material to my buddy Jay (who's going to play drums for us). And now Jeff is nowhere to be found. He won't return my phone calls. I know he's out with his girlfriend, and I think I made it quite clear in the message I left for him today that it's going to look really bad on him, and really bad on me if he doesn't show up tommorw. And to make matters worse, the girl this poem is for is going to come by and check us out. How good does that look when you're other guitarist doesn't even show up?! I've gotten to the point now in my life where I'm no longer giving people second chances, and Jeff's had more than his share. I've decided if he doesn't show tommorw, we're done. We're done as friends, we're done as musical partners, we're just done. He's no showed and not called so many times, that he's not just unreliable, it almost makes me wonder if he even gives a shit anymore. I've taken this approach to a lot of people and things in my life, and it's actually really depressing, but people have basically shit on me for too many years now for me to just sit back and take it anymore.
I just realized I'm rambling BIG TIME, so I'll shut up now, I suppose.
Thanks again for the kind words!
Dave
