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ScotchMist

ScotchMist

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Hi to all EADD,

So ive been a lurker for long enough now I think. A couple of years maybe.

I see so many interesting people on here that I thought id try and get involved a bit, hopefully I can add something to the place, if not I'll shuffle off back under my rock and let you all get back to being interesting and giving OTW a hard time..;)

I'll make my postion clear on him from the start, he is a twat imo..!

A brief history of me, my drug of choice is heroin, unfortunately/fortunately I dont let myself practice that choice anymore and ive been clean ( of smack ) a little over a year. It still pisses me off that I cant use opiates sometimes but I know its for the best and my life is something I couldn't of imagined over a year ago.

Im a father of two so most of my spare time is spent with them doing my best to make them happy and make a mends for the time that I was there but with very little emotion.. They're beautiful..

When myself and Mrs Mist go out we are still partial to some MD, K, Acid etc... This rarely happens anymore due to commitments such as kids and work but we like to dip our toes in every now and then.

Love going to festivals, even more so this year having not to worry about running out of gear on Sat/Sun morning.

I'll leave it there for now.

Look forward to getting involved and getting to know some of you.. :)
 
Thank you both..

It feels a little weird as I feel I already know you ( sort of ) from being a lurker. Thats why I thought id throw a little intro in, also I did 8 months of NA so its kind of second nature now to just start telling people about myself..

I couldnt get on with the whole abstaining thing though ;)

Edit: just noticed I signed It off with "I'll leave it there", very NA that... lol
 
ScotchMist said:
It feels a little weird as I feel I already know you ( sort of ) from being a lurker.
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Hah, that's pretty much what I said when I started posting. And aye, it's an odd situation to know people's personalities but them not know you.

Anyway, the Gibberings thread is that way. :) -->
 
And to think Treacle accused me of driving people away.

Welcome scotchmist. Leave your fucking shoes at the door, apparently there are standards here.
 
One Thousand Words said:
And to think Treacle accused me of driving people away.

Welcome scotchmist. Leave your fucking shoes at the door, apparently there are standards here.
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Haha I warm to this fucker sometimes... I think deep down he ain't as bad as he makes out

And welcome Scotchmist, lovely intro.
 
Thanks all...

@ steewith2ees - well done on 4 months, be proud of it..

Im here anytime if you want a chat/advice/support, fire me a pm anytime and I'll try and help as best I can. I dont feel im out the woods yet if im honest, I struggle still at times but ive learnt how to control myself a little better..

You have to watch out for those cravings, sneaky little bastards they are...;)

Keep on keeping on, its not easy but it does get easier..
 
ScotchMist said:
Thanks all...

@ steewith2ees - well done on 4 months, be proud of it..

Im here anytime if you want a chat/advice/support, fire me a pm anytime and I'll try and help as best I can. I dont feel im out the woods yet if im honest, I struggle still at times but ive learnt how to control myself a little better..

You have to watch out for those cravings, sneaky little bastards they are...;)

Keep on keeping on, its not easy but it does get easier..
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Erm... 4 months is the best Ive ever done scotchmist and that isnt my current total. Im chipping at the moment and im currently on 11 hours. I feel like a cunt now following your supportive words but to be honest Im at it every 4-7 days at present, being the useless toss bag that I am. Due to kindling Im only ever 1 serious binge away from moderate wd symptoms which is the trap I keep falling into whenever I get my hands on seerious monies 8)
 
ScotchMist said:
Hi to all EADD,

So ive been a lurker for long enough now I think. A couple of years maybe.

I see so many interesting people on here that I thought id try and get involved a bit, hopefully I can add something to the place, if not I'll shuffle off back under my rock and let you all get back to being interesting and giving OTW a hard time..;)

I'll make my postion clear on him from the start, he is a twat imo..!

A brief history of me, my drug of choice is heroin, unfortunately/fortunately I dont let myself practice that choice anymore and ive been clean ( of smack ) a little over a year. It still pisses me off that I cant use opiates sometimes but I know its for the best and my life is something I couldn't of imagined over a year ago.

Im a father of two so most of my spare time is spent with them doing my best to make them happy and make a mends for the time that I was there but with very little emotion.. They're beautiful..

When myself and Mrs Mist go out we are still partial to some MD, K, Acid etc... This rarely happens anymore due to commitments such as kids and work but we like to dip our toes in every now and then.

Love going to festivals, even more so this year having not to worry about running out of gear on Sat/Sun morning.

I'll leave it there for now.

Look forward to getting involved and getting to know some of you.. :)
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lol....let me get this straight.

You've spent the last 2 years reading up on our OTW feuds in your spare time and never revealing yourself. Sad cunt.

You'll fit in nicely :)
 
Really no need to feel a cunt mate?

You really are talking to someone who knows relapse as good as anyone, from 15/16 until 21 I was full on, never dreamt of trying to get off it. Things happened and I got clean for a year then, then some more things happened and I got back on it and since then ( 8 years ) I've been on and off it more than I can remember. Sometimes clean a month, sometimes a day, hell sometimes 30 mins after ive sworn to everyone I can that im never doing it again, I sincerely meant it at the time to, however 30mins is along time in your head when its all over the place isnt it..!

Offer still stands if you want a chat ;)
 
Cheers fella - will take you up on ur offer when i get sorted but ive just started a new account on here so im limited on the amount of pms i can send at the mo.

Other than that your story sounds similar to mine with regards to the lack of rhyme or reason in relapse and recovery, with the noted exception that you seem to have more or less cracked it
 
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