dnb2012
Bluelighter
Not to sure the best place for this to be so i put it here feel free to move appropriately.
Over the last two years i seem to have this psychological addiction to m-cat not physicaly but mentally.. any way to cut it short i take numourous of grams friday through to monday. i regret it every week when i come down but i cant seem to stop taking it, i take it because it allows me to escape reality allows me to run away if you like, but now its taken a toll on me, from the point of i have to be of my head to smile, i cant face reality and responsabilty any more when i have to i just think be eaiser not to be here no more but i dont want to die so i choose to get hammered instead, now this week today in fact me and my partner had a huge fall out cant remember why but my attitude sucks, and i kicked off big time propa lost plot. Any way my mum come picked me and today was the first time i addmitted i had a drug problem, i hate the drugs i want of i want clean straight life but i cant se how, i told my mum everything, i felt instantly relieved, shes going to take me to the doctors (UK) and help me beat this help me beat my thoughts. I just now feel quilty and iv let er down as tonight when i left mums and went got some mcat and got off my head now (stupid ano) but we all make mistakes. i guess i dont know why im writing on here as i dont know what answers im looking for but i need to talk and sort this shit out.
all comments welcome even if you need to critisise me.
Over the last two years i seem to have this psychological addiction to m-cat not physicaly but mentally.. any way to cut it short i take numourous of grams friday through to monday. i regret it every week when i come down but i cant seem to stop taking it, i take it because it allows me to escape reality allows me to run away if you like, but now its taken a toll on me, from the point of i have to be of my head to smile, i cant face reality and responsabilty any more when i have to i just think be eaiser not to be here no more but i dont want to die so i choose to get hammered instead, now this week today in fact me and my partner had a huge fall out cant remember why but my attitude sucks, and i kicked off big time propa lost plot. Any way my mum come picked me and today was the first time i addmitted i had a drug problem, i hate the drugs i want of i want clean straight life but i cant se how, i told my mum everything, i felt instantly relieved, shes going to take me to the doctors (UK) and help me beat this help me beat my thoughts. I just now feel quilty and iv let er down as tonight when i left mums and went got some mcat and got off my head now (stupid ano) but we all make mistakes. i guess i dont know why im writing on here as i dont know what answers im looking for but i need to talk and sort this shit out.
all comments welcome even if you need to critisise me.
