Ouch!

Last night was just horrid. After bitching and bickering the other day we got that squared away and going good. Then around 9pm she decides to surprise me by coming over and slipping into bed which was awesome, I missed her and I love cuddling with her. Everything is awesome, we fall asleep in each others arms and are in bliss and we sleep.
12 midnight comes around and my notification for Austin's school day decides to dingle 8.5hrs too early. THEN THEN my ex decides that texting me at 12:05am is perfectly acceptable on his son's school night and when he knows I have issues sleeping. He's been warned many many times not to text me after 9pm. So my gf freaks out and thinks Terry and I are having some secret affair, yeah NO. I wouldn't repeat that horror show. He's disgusting looks wise now anyhow from when I first started dating him 7yrs ago, so she had her spaz out and I am sitting there for an hour assuring her that I am not cheating on her or playing her at all. she's all pissy and tells me she's going "back home" and so I am frustrated at it all cause I'M innocent in it all ffs and so I very hard punch the wall of my stair case, didn't feel a thing but I think I scared the shit out of her. First time I've really punched anything at all with that kind of force, expected it to hurt, not one bit did it. Awesome, maybe i'll punch an asshole out now that I know it might not hurt as much as I thought. LOL
Yeah so I sat from 12midnight to 130am assuring her that I don't still love terry, no i am not cheating on her, no i am not a player, and no i've never cheated on anyone so why would i start...heck im lucky to get 1 person never mind cheat. I had so assure her forever that I love her deep down into my soul and I want to spend forever with her crazy ass.
Easiest way to halt a convo I learn is uttering th goose words in a relationship apparently.
We are good though, she stayed the night and we talked and talked and even talked in the morning.
Now she's making jokes of being my wife....with no help (sarcasm) from my neighbor friend constantly referring to me as her wife 8(
They all do it cause they know it drives me nuts cause I dont believe in marriage.
We're planning a date this tuesday, rather I am being sneaky and planning a special night. I spoil her rotten then again so does she to me.
we both drive each other nuts from time to time...LOL

Lesson learned = Don't punch walls

 

Yes. Don't punch walls, ya goof!

Insecurities can be tough, man. I know I certainly have quite a few and they always blow things out of proportion. You handled it well though. i hereby name you 'ONCOR, Diplomat Extraordinaire!'! :D

 

*bows* Thank you, Thank You.

Yeah big ass bruise = ugly haha My wall didn't suffer though, no breaks or dents or holes. YAY!

Gonna take her out for a 1st class dinner, get her some flowers, take her out to a move she's been wanting to see. She deserves a great night, and so do I. So I am calling in a fave. from my BFF and taking her out on the night.

Ive been cleaning all night ..... well, 2hrs....but still I hate it. Gonna pretty up the house. Slather it in candles and wonderful scent, flowers, nice music and a quiet house.

I got bitched at today tho. I have never been spoiled and given gifts and such (not real ones, just little things like a candy or chocolate or such) and compliments. So I kept turning down the little snack stuff. She bitched me out....not REAL just teasing me and such....

"Wow can't you ever take a present? What you gonna do when christmas comes?"

She doesn't realize how shitty it was in my house. I was ignored, barely fed, never watched, cooked my own food and NEVER had a christmas present or birthday present and was NEVER spoiled. I had to tell her I have to get used to it, its hard. You dont expect it to be hard....but with someone you love....it is.

I cringe to think what I'll hurt next.

Foot - check
head - check
hand - check

haha