Well D. posted this horrible blog poem about being hurt and wishing all these awful things on this person. He still won't return messages. I did message him and ask him if that was for me and if it was just say so, continue to hate me and I'll leave him alone.
I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY HE JUST LEAVES ME HANGING! DOES HE HATE ME? WHAT DID I DO? IS HE RUNNING? AM I BEING IGNORED?
I want to cry over that poem even though it could be meant for the ex, which most are. But ouch, I don't think so. I want to cry so bad...sticks, part of it "I hope you fall and break your wings" well dear a little late for that. I seriously just had to stop IMing the person I was talking to and just stop and try not to cry.
I am trying here. I am trying to get better and this isn't helping damn it. Just say yes or no!!! Is it that HARD? Anyone have any idea why hes not returning my messages, or the texts or calls from yesterday even after I said just say leave me alone and I will??
And I had planned a date tonight. After all this bs I don't want to go. But I'm a woman of my word. Its just a movie. Thats it. And after that I'll just not plan anything anymore. I'm SO tired to nice guys hurting me. I don't know what game this guy I thought was so wonderful is playing...
DAMN IT GIVE ME SOMETHING? ANYONE ELSE THINK THIS IS FUCKING BULLSHIT.
I think I'll give it a day or 2, nothing I will just forget about him all together. Gone, because then it hurts less.
Need to get ready for my appt. I hate to go in mad or whatever..
to answer a ?
Love bombing is something used by cults. They bring you in a hug you and love you and treat you life family. One to keep you coming and two to separate you from others. Once they have you baptised and you can't get out without punishment, disfellowshipped (excommunication) it stops. And it hurt me and I didn't understand why the focus and the love was no longer on me as the prodigy student of Jehovah....
I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY HE JUST LEAVES ME HANGING! DOES HE HATE ME? WHAT DID I DO? IS HE RUNNING? AM I BEING IGNORED?
I want to cry over that poem even though it could be meant for the ex, which most are. But ouch, I don't think so. I want to cry so bad...sticks, part of it "I hope you fall and break your wings" well dear a little late for that. I seriously just had to stop IMing the person I was talking to and just stop and try not to cry.
I am trying here. I am trying to get better and this isn't helping damn it. Just say yes or no!!! Is it that HARD? Anyone have any idea why hes not returning my messages, or the texts or calls from yesterday even after I said just say leave me alone and I will??
And I had planned a date tonight. After all this bs I don't want to go. But I'm a woman of my word. Its just a movie. Thats it. And after that I'll just not plan anything anymore. I'm SO tired to nice guys hurting me. I don't know what game this guy I thought was so wonderful is playing...
DAMN IT GIVE ME SOMETHING? ANYONE ELSE THINK THIS IS FUCKING BULLSHIT.
I think I'll give it a day or 2, nothing I will just forget about him all together. Gone, because then it hurts less.
Need to get ready for my appt. I hate to go in mad or whatever..
to answer a ?
Love bombing is something used by cults. They bring you in a hug you and love you and treat you life family. One to keep you coming and two to separate you from others. Once they have you baptised and you can't get out without punishment, disfellowshipped (excommunication) it stops. And it hurt me and I didn't understand why the focus and the love was no longer on me as the prodigy student of Jehovah....