Raz
Bluelighter
This is kind of a thematic sequel to Other People's Songs which I wrote a while ago. That piece was written when I was uprooting myself from Melbourne to move to Sydney for the first time, and it was really the first time my life completely turned around on itself.
Recently it's flip-flopped again, and if nothing else this is cheap therapy.
..If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong..
You sang this to my voicemail in your slurred broken mumble and I could hear it in the background and I could hear the grief in your head and your heart. I felt the distance between us then and I wanted to hold you and tell you I'm alive. I wanted to tell you that I'm still here. I wanted to tell you I'll always be here when you need me, even when it's not physically true. And I want to tell you that they may still be wrong.
What goes around comes around, what goes up must come down.
This is something I have brought upon myself and I mean that in the best and worst possible ways.
In trying to hurt myself I succeeded, and this came as no great surprise.
What I didn't know was that in taking that circuitous route I found my higher ground. I found the person I deserve to be.
There are no regrets and karma is just.
These are songs that were borne from other people's hearts, but have found their home in mine. They have meaning that was not intended, but words grow and I grow with them.
And it's still beautiful and sometimes it's sad, and I can't wait to see whose song will change me next.

Recently it's flip-flopped again, and if nothing else this is cheap therapy.
..If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong..
You sang this to my voicemail in your slurred broken mumble and I could hear it in the background and I could hear the grief in your head and your heart. I felt the distance between us then and I wanted to hold you and tell you I'm alive. I wanted to tell you that I'm still here. I wanted to tell you I'll always be here when you need me, even when it's not physically true. And I want to tell you that they may still be wrong.
What goes around comes around, what goes up must come down.
This is something I have brought upon myself and I mean that in the best and worst possible ways.
In trying to hurt myself I succeeded, and this came as no great surprise.
What I didn't know was that in taking that circuitous route I found my higher ground. I found the person I deserve to be.
There are no regrets and karma is just.
These are songs that were borne from other people's hearts, but have found their home in mine. They have meaning that was not intended, but words grow and I grow with them.
And it's still beautiful and sometimes it's sad, and I can't wait to see whose song will change me next.
