Opioids, the downfall of me.

[brownbradley39]

I have never felt the weight of addiction with any substance like opiates/opioids. Not even the most painful memories can overcome the desire for the "warm, fuzzy feeling". Nothing has ever been so addictive to me or altered my personality to turn into a fiend, thief and liar. It's caused me a lot of pain but it's just so difficult to stop.. I'd just like to hear some tips and hear from people that have been through this or something similar.

 

[T. Calderone]

They were my downfall too and the consequences were devastating for me. Never thought I would lie, borrow or steal to score either. I officially quit June 2011 but have relapsed a couple times, not enough to catch a habit.

Have you considered NA meetings or rehab? If your heart isn't in it, sobriety won't happen. But if you really want to quit for good, you have to stay away from friends that use, tell them you're done. Same with connects and of course neighborhoods where you would cop from. It can be done but you have to be ready to fight!

 

[brownbradley39]

It's the connects that got me up and going again, my friends don't use drugs at all. I'd been good of the painkillers for a solid two months when bam one day out of the blue I got a text saying he could hook me up with norcos and oxy's. I can feel the powerful cravings coming on again and I don't want to reach the depths I did last time.

 

[brownbradley39]

*off*

 

[brownbradley39]

I've been to NA and I didn't really like the meeting, I didn't feel I connected with them. And not to sound rude or like a judgmental asshole but they were all pretty "fried" and it just made it sort of awkward for me. I enjoyed AA more, it's just awkward that both my parents and a stepdad go to AA and all they're friends..