Krayzieaztec
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- Sep 24, 2016
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A little background I’ve always had a “okay I’m starting to need this to not feel like shit let me detox 3 days” attitude and always tried to keep my tolerances low with whatever I tried(except weed I was a big pothead but that’s besides the point I don’t even smoke now). Did it with coke and xans and felt like shit for the days and took it like a champ, I’m a big believer in moderation, if possible. If you know yourself well enough to know it’s not possible and have to be sober I applaud you, really I do. but anyway back to the point. (I get off point and tangent a lot I’ll work on it lol)
I used to take pressed percs30s snorting them until I had an od scare no narcan but I came back to which I thank the most high everyday for. I went cold turkey after that the first three days are the worst but after that it’s whatever. I was off them for a few months till my bad decision made things real bad. I was on them and my tolerance grew I was snorting more than 10 a day at my worst and knew it was getting bad when I’d lose count of how many I did that day. I had an episode of psychosis which honestly saved me cause the next step was heroin cause that’s when I decided to get help. And am currently tapering off methadone every 2 weeks.
Well I was talking to a great friend of mine basically family and he made me realize somewhere along the line I forgot my own rule and forgot why I even started to take them. I was a rock then, you couldn’t peer pressure me into anything anyway but the percs slowly took me down to the point where when I asked for help I pleaded not to detox and to do methadone treatment instead which is really embarrassing for me to admit cause another rule I had was to always respect the drug you’re trying/taking.
Somewhere along the way the fake percs rewired my brain and I wanted to share this because I hear about how your brain gets rewired but I’ve never seen real life examples or experiences. So if you really know yourself notice the little things cause after thinking it over it was because of some back/shoulder pain that couldn’t be diagnosed and I had forgot the reason I started.
Was wondering if anyone had any of those realizations or similar experiences and wanted to share them because we all learn differently that’s why I wanted to post this how did you learn your mind changed, if it did?
Sorry mods this is my first post, long time viewer and now that I’m finishing this I’m wondering if this belongs in a different thread sorry if it does. Bless you all I’ve been using this site since before I made an account you all do great work and it’s very much appreciated
I used to take pressed percs30s snorting them until I had an od scare no narcan but I came back to which I thank the most high everyday for. I went cold turkey after that the first three days are the worst but after that it’s whatever. I was off them for a few months till my bad decision made things real bad. I was on them and my tolerance grew I was snorting more than 10 a day at my worst and knew it was getting bad when I’d lose count of how many I did that day. I had an episode of psychosis which honestly saved me cause the next step was heroin cause that’s when I decided to get help. And am currently tapering off methadone every 2 weeks.
Well I was talking to a great friend of mine basically family and he made me realize somewhere along the line I forgot my own rule and forgot why I even started to take them. I was a rock then, you couldn’t peer pressure me into anything anyway but the percs slowly took me down to the point where when I asked for help I pleaded not to detox and to do methadone treatment instead which is really embarrassing for me to admit cause another rule I had was to always respect the drug you’re trying/taking.
Somewhere along the way the fake percs rewired my brain and I wanted to share this because I hear about how your brain gets rewired but I’ve never seen real life examples or experiences. So if you really know yourself notice the little things cause after thinking it over it was because of some back/shoulder pain that couldn’t be diagnosed and I had forgot the reason I started.
Was wondering if anyone had any of those realizations or similar experiences and wanted to share them because we all learn differently that’s why I wanted to post this how did you learn your mind changed, if it did?
Sorry mods this is my first post, long time viewer and now that I’m finishing this I’m wondering if this belongs in a different thread sorry if it does. Bless you all I’ve been using this site since before I made an account you all do great work and it’s very much appreciated
