Yesterday was a bit of a 1 step forward 2 steps back situation. Smoked the foil residue at around 5/6pm..... didn't get much off it but definitely stronger and longer lasting than my dose of DHC would have been. So at this point, I thought I'd just let that count as my second dose of DHC, not too much harm done that way. Bit later on I used a bit of ket (for recreation rather than comfort needs, I swear this bag is gonna be finished long before I actually feel like I need it but goddamn, as most of you are probably aware of the depression benefits of ket, this stuff just feels so damn good for the soul). Finally, about an hour before bed, I took my diaz. It was sometime after this point that I came to the conclusion that, as I already have like half a bitcoin on a DNM I may as well make an order for gear/opioids of some form under a fake name, and arrange it so it arrives on a day where it is least likely that parents will be around. Then wait for the mail like a hawk (I'm working on my current project near to the front door, which makes this task seem easy if it wasn't for the fact that we have a porch door that sounds louder than a fucking church bell to go through to get to the mail box).
Anyway, thinking I've made the right choice for the moment, I went ahead and took my 120mg DHC dose before I went to sleep..... even though I almost certainly could have done without it. So it is just under 12 hours from my last opioid dose and I feel absolutely zero withdrawal symptoms. In an ideal world, this would be great news.... but realistically I think it is much more likely I have just undone those first 2 days of recovery. As of yet undecided as to whether I will actually go ahead and order more opiates off the DNM, I'd probably be looking to place an order so it arrives either tomorrow or Thursday if I do.
I realise this thread is starting to sound like the whiny blog of a teenager and I don't really have any questions at the moment, but I thought I'd just keep you all up to date with what is going on. Nevertheless, feel free to leave any advice.