tommy34
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Hey all, I was having a talk with my sister last night which got me thinking. Ill post some background info first so it makes sense.
So also a year ago now I was seeing this girl (Who is now my girlfriend) she had really bad allergies so I offered to see if I could find something in my mums drug box. I found her some antihistamines and while I was looking she picked up a box labeled 'Endone' she said "This stuff is kind of like morphine". Later that night she left and I quickly grabbed the box of Endone, I ate 2 pills <Too much unneccesary detail here>
Since I finished the box I have not been able to get onto any decent opiates. I have done many CWE's made poppy tea just trying to get that warm cuddly feeling again. I think about opiates every day, especially heroin..<snip> Before I stole the Endone, I had never really given opiates much thought, I was into speed and marijuana. Now when I think of either of those two I don't get the same excited feeling I used too and that I get now with opiates.
So last night I was chatting to my sister who is a midwife and she was talking about opiates during birth. She was also saying that new research shows that baby's who are not cuddled and shown affection are more likely to become opiate addicts. She referred to a movie we watched together explaining that hormones released during birth almost replicated opiates, the hormones are released from then on when the mother sees the baby, causing a loving bond between a mother and her child.
This got me thinking. Could something of happened when I was a baby that has caused me to fall in love with opiates now? Could I be trying to replace something that is missing from my life?
Thanks for reading
So also a year ago now I was seeing this girl (Who is now my girlfriend) she had really bad allergies so I offered to see if I could find something in my mums drug box. I found her some antihistamines and while I was looking she picked up a box labeled 'Endone' she said "This stuff is kind of like morphine". Later that night she left and I quickly grabbed the box of Endone, I ate 2 pills <Too much unneccesary detail here>
Since I finished the box I have not been able to get onto any decent opiates. I have done many CWE's made poppy tea just trying to get that warm cuddly feeling again. I think about opiates every day, especially heroin..<snip> Before I stole the Endone, I had never really given opiates much thought, I was into speed and marijuana. Now when I think of either of those two I don't get the same excited feeling I used too and that I get now with opiates.
So last night I was chatting to my sister who is a midwife and she was talking about opiates during birth. She was also saying that new research shows that baby's who are not cuddled and shown affection are more likely to become opiate addicts. She referred to a movie we watched together explaining that hormones released during birth almost replicated opiates, the hormones are released from then on when the mother sees the baby, causing a loving bond between a mother and her child.
This got me thinking. Could something of happened when I was a baby that has caused me to fall in love with opiates now? Could I be trying to replace something that is missing from my life?
Thanks for reading
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