Opiates saved my life...sorta lol

[prochargdgt91]

I'll start at the begining of my journey. I'm currently 29 years of age, have fought anxiety and panic attacks since the age of 15, and that's where my story begins. In high school, I loved my marijuana and never felt any desire to try another drug. Pot was my one and only. However, one night I'm smoking with some friends and encountered my first panic attack. I was able to go outside and was immediately fine. Next day, same thing, only this time it was bad, very bad. Smoked, panic attack. This time, nothing helped. I spent the next 7 months on literally one long panic attack. In and out of hospitals, doctors offices, all said the same thing. Nothing medically wrong with me. I finally learned what was wrong with me from an aunt who was a nurse. I was put on Paxil and literally thought I was gonna die. So I stopped taking it. Since I was smoking weed when this happened, I obviously never smoked again, in fact, drugs or alcohol scared me to death. I wouldn't even take tylenol without reading the label, would walk around checking my pulse, wouldn't leave my house, afraid I would die in my sleep so I stayed awake until I literally passed out, vacations were out of the question because I was afraid of being somewhere that I did not know the location of a hospital, I went through all of this up until last year, with no medication, no help, just learned to deal with it. That's 13 years. Then, a wonderful thing happened, I broke my leg in 4 places. Remember my fear of drugs? I literally cried and begged the doctors not to give me anything because I'll die, I know, crazy huh? Obviously they did give me something. I was on a morphine iv every 4 hours and was given one oxycodone 10/325 every 4 hours. Obviously I was in a lot of pain, I ended up in surgery with a rod and 4 screws inserted, so I didn't really feel any effects from the medicine. This is where it gets weird for me amazing. I was given prescriptions for oxycodone 10/325 over the course of 2 months. When the pain wore down a little bit, I felt the magic powered of oxycodone! Not what you're thinking, though. I never experienced any "high" or "rush" but I also never took it other than prescribed. Strictly one pill every 6 hrs. What was amazing then? I felt normal. I felt like I did as a 13 year old. I wasn't high, drowsy, dizzy, I was normal. I went on my first family vacation in 20 years, even on crutches with my leg still moving different ways when I hopped, it was the best week of my life. I was able to sleep normal, I wasn't fatigued all of the time from anxiety, I got my appetite back, my love life with my wife went through the roof, I no longer had ED and was experiencing erections I got when I was 14. Totally opposite of everyone I have talked to about oxycodone. Obviously, it had to come to an end, but for those 3 months, I felt normal again.

 

[Erikmen]

First welcome to BL. I read your history and see that you are relieved. But I guarantee that opiates are not the solution but more like a greater danger.
All over the world everyone seems to have their problems solved by the meds you've taken. But it comes with a high price at the end. I'm talking about people with legitimate pain, like you've experienced. But no..
To be really short on the subject, this thing that apparently solved your issue may be a much greater problem in life to the point you would wish to have your panic attacks back. It's a long suffering life. Search for withdrawals and how many people leave this world because of this thing you've just admired at first.
There are other ways and I feel that this may come as a surprise now but it's true. No happy ending for opiate addiction.

 

[adrenalinerushes]

have you read about opiates on erowid, the experience reports? or have you done your research thoroughly on this magical life saving solution? this is very typical to me of someone who is in denial, to be honest. maybe you're not, i obviously don't know for sure, but this is my opinion.

i guess it's great that you don't suffer from panic anymore, but you haven't fixed it, you've most likely just put a ''band aid'' over it.

i've never heard of a story similar to this that wasn't coming from someone with a habit in the honeymoon phase. you may not think you're getting a ''high'' from it, but it's chemicals are working in your brain and doing what they do to other people. you have a tolerance i'm assuming... and yeah you're probably not nodding out or feeling out of it because of that reason.

i don't even know what else to say here, i hope you do your research on opiates and come to a more realistic understanding of ...reality vs what you think is a magic life saver.

i used to think this way when i first started taking vicodin. i was sixteen and had no conception at all of opiate addiction and how those pills would effect me. looking back, i don't know how i was so naive.

 

[prochargdgt91]

That's the thing. It's like I have reacted to this drug completely opposite of most. I was on the medication, imo, long enough to become addicted. I was on 4-6 a day for 3 months straight. I stopped cold turkey, never experienced any withdrawal whatsoever. It sucked because It literally did help me, but the doctor said I was ready to be off of them and that was that. I've been on many medications since then, either for pain or trying to treat anxiety. These medications were by far more threatening to me than oxycodone. I was put on neurontin and it actually increased my anxiety and made me feel drunk all of the time. I will not take anything that makes me feel high or drunk which stems from my first panic attack being my body links it to marijuana. I was then put on lyrica for nerve damage done by surgery and it made me feel the same way. Heart raced, panic set in and so on. So I stopped taking them and back to where I started. Dealing with it lol.

 

[prochargdgt91]

Hey! Thanks for your reply! Yes, I have done tons, and tons of research, but just to figure out what the big whoop was about ooxycodone and why it is abused. No, I'm not in denial, like I said, I can't take anything that alters my mind, for it sends me straight into a panic attack. I drank once and thought It was over, it's really that bad. I'm not saying oxycodone didn't do anything to me, because it obviously did, but I never had the nods, or since of euphoria or any of that. Going from 0 tolerance to taking 6 of those a day would more than likely produce that in 90 percent of people.

 

[adrenalinerushes]

yeah those drugs are basically like brothers to one another and they have way more bizarre side effects than opiates imo.

not quite sure what to say or think about your post.

opiates were prescribed back in the day for anxiety i'm pretty sure. they do help anxiety in a lot of people which is why a lot of people use them and become addicted.

 

[Erikmen]

True. I'm glad that you realized this is not the solution. Sometimes people don't get the effects like you've described as the opiate "magic" is working in mysterious and malicious ways..
People lose one life here to get off this addition and on its way you may lose friends, money, family not to mention your dignity..
Good luck!

 

[prochargdgt91]

Yeah I have a few friends that have lost everything due to addiction. I am now a firm believer that everyone's body reacts differently to medication. I also should add that It's not really opiates in general, just oxycodone. I had a wisdom tooth pulled a month ago and was given hydrocodone and I couldn't take it due to it gave me a high feeling. I took one 5/325 pills. I read that hydrocodone and oxycodone were basically the same drug but they effect me in totally opposite ways. I don't really understand it either lol. That's the only two opiates I've ever been on. Any who, thanks for the replies! I just thought I would share my story!