opiates loss and depression

[James Skankton]

hey all l ong time lurker here at BL. anyone have any useful tips for beating opiate addiction and depressiion. have had a horrible past few years and cant come out of my hole. sometimei think about how the world would go on without me.. i know im gettin worse. i just cannot gett off morphine, take 90 mgs a day at least. tried a few times made got off once, last time got so violently ill even after tapering and benzo help that i threw up nonstop for a week and lost about 20 pounds. ill try anything

 

[BrokedownPalace]

Look into suboxone or methadone maintenance. Really helps you get stablized in your life and put the ritualistic and obsessive tendencies of your addiction behind you. Methadone maintenance saved my life over the past year. If I kept up shooting dope I would definitely be dead or in jail. I could type a novel about methadone, but im not feeling too hot tonight so feel free to PM me, or ask me anything specific in this thread. Ill definitely check back regardless. Keep your head up, buddy. I know how hard it is, but just remember even when it seems humanly impossible, life canget better.

 

[villian]

I'm not sure methadone maintenance is beating opiate addiction...

As cliche as it seems a nutritious diet and daily exercise can make a world of difference..

I personally find a lot of value in meditation as well..

It's not my cup of tea, but a lot of people find meetings help them. No harm is trying..

 

[brimz]

Methadone maintenaince can work 2 stabilise your life in the short term mos def.
But long term it's just the same thing , a ritual n also methadone imo has 2 be the hardest oppiate 2 get off . I 've been tryin for 15 years n i still use on top . Last resort imo.

 

[caltrain208]

Hey James- you'll try anything? Good to hear. Recovery is possible. I was hopeless, desperately lonely, and couldn't stop using, yet I found a program of recovery that has allowed me to stay clean many months, enjoying life all the while. While I was using I wanted so badly to be able to control and enjoy my use as I had when I started but I found it impossible. My life was so fucked I needed drugs to get some sort of enjoyment out of life. I remember wishing I were dead yet not being bold enough to make any serious attempts at my life. If you are admit defeat, are willing to believe recovery is possible, and willing to do the work it takes to recover, you are well on your way. If you'd like to know any more, please ask away, I'd love to do whatever I can to help you. Take care, everything'll be alright.

 

[xxRavenxx]

Wonderful you want to get sober. Good luck to you.

 

[turnin_AcEs]

Hey James,

I myself have recently been going through similar things and feel I am FINALLY getting to a point that this something I can overcome, I was in a similar spot, using large amounts of oxy, but really any opiate I could get my hands on. As far as the wd's, if you can do a very short taper with subs that will help, but it is important to keep it short because you don't want to just be addicted to subs chasing the same thing. Really my best advice would be a short taper(if possible) and start immediately eating healthier and vitamins(specifically vitamins B and C have helped me personally a lot) as soon as you start the taper and continue through the entire process.

As far as the depression goes this is the hardest for me by far and has led to my relapse on several occasions. I would recommend as soon as you are not physically sick anymore even if you do not feel you have the energy go and try and exercise as much as you don't want to it will absolutely help immensely. I like to follow my workouts with a sauna and lots of water the whole time. You would be amazed how much this really helps even as shitty as you're feeling. Also for me taking any kind of downer past the initial wd phase for some reason really impacts me mentally. As much as you might want a benzo for sleep I would say try to abstain. For me personally if i stay totally clear headed and really give it my all in exercise and just making points to accomplish small goals throughout the day really really starts to help with my overall mood very quickly. Continue the vitamins, healthy eating, water etc. and I hope that you will find that things start to become less dark and you can start to focus more on a bright future. Good choice in your sobriety and good luck my friend.
ACE

 

[unsettled]

Suboxone, I have no experience with Methadone.

It does stabilize you and at least for me took away alot of the depression, but I'm also on ADD meds and klonopin.

actually I think Suboxone has worked the best of anything for me as far as depression goes, I'd give it a shot. yeah you're still using opiates but your quality of life improves greatly. just try and stay at the lowest possible dose.