motherofearth
Bluelighter
Hello Bluelighters,
I know, I know. The broad title and topic comprising it appear to be likely addressed by using the fucken search engine. But I didn't so that, I did this instead, so help me damn you!
I recently got clean from my 4 yr doap habit for all of 8 days. For the first 7 I took suboxone (4mgs max - .5mgs for the jump dose). I was sleeping well and working a lot so as far as I could tell I felt fine too. Being an addict though, this relatively pain free situation was unsatisfying to me, so I went back and scored a dub (0.3) and had at it. I stayed high between the next day to the next day and a half before of course I fed that back monkey again today, scoring a half (0.5).
And here in is my question: if I stop tonight completely how much pain/discomfort can I expect? More importantly, being I've no more easy suboxone access (that exgirlfriend has flown the coup atm), I've the equivalent of a single shot left. Should I break it down into several shots (prolly 3 max) and administer it as needed? Or should I just damn the torpedoes and take it all to the head? I work two jobs, and definitely get wild and weird hours for some shifts - like, shifts starting at 3-5am - which undeniably and frankly frighten me. I've very bad self-control unsurprisingly, but I feel like I'd have less trouble from such small amounts I'd only take to minimize the withdrawal. If executed correctly, I'd not be buying anymore.
I've tomorrow and Thanksgiving off, and I am fairly resilient when it comes to withdrawal, so I am (probably naively) hoping by the fresh morning of Friday, when I begin my 10 hr work day, I'll not be feeling too bad.... or maybe I will, especially if the prospective smaller shots don't succeed in a standard taper, but only drag things out.... for my fellow heroin addicts, what would you do?
Thanks in advance for any thoughtful replies. I've not posted in a little while on BL, but I wanna toss in: this community since I discovered it in late 2011 as a lurker, then when I registered in Spring 2012, up until my current saga of struggles has always been such an enriching place. I've taken away practices I now consider standard that truly have reduced harm to my body, and literally saved my life, as well as a few others in my vicinity. Drug addiction is a motherfucker we all know, but for those inexperienced dabblers just using on a single fateful weekend benefit in ways that can only be said to be life saving. So from the bottom of my heart, to everyone who works, moderates, shares, and makes this place the standard 'go-to' for harm reduction knowledge, thank you! This goes for not only the staff, but the everyday commenters as well. I hope to always have such warm and vital feelings aroused by the quality of this community.
Love,
MOE
....now: HELP MEH
I know, I know. The broad title and topic comprising it appear to be likely addressed by using the fucken search engine. But I didn't so that, I did this instead, so help me damn you!
I recently got clean from my 4 yr doap habit for all of 8 days. For the first 7 I took suboxone (4mgs max - .5mgs for the jump dose). I was sleeping well and working a lot so as far as I could tell I felt fine too. Being an addict though, this relatively pain free situation was unsatisfying to me, so I went back and scored a dub (0.3) and had at it. I stayed high between the next day to the next day and a half before of course I fed that back monkey again today, scoring a half (0.5).
And here in is my question: if I stop tonight completely how much pain/discomfort can I expect? More importantly, being I've no more easy suboxone access (that exgirlfriend has flown the coup atm), I've the equivalent of a single shot left. Should I break it down into several shots (prolly 3 max) and administer it as needed? Or should I just damn the torpedoes and take it all to the head? I work two jobs, and definitely get wild and weird hours for some shifts - like, shifts starting at 3-5am - which undeniably and frankly frighten me. I've very bad self-control unsurprisingly, but I feel like I'd have less trouble from such small amounts I'd only take to minimize the withdrawal. If executed correctly, I'd not be buying anymore.
I've tomorrow and Thanksgiving off, and I am fairly resilient when it comes to withdrawal, so I am (probably naively) hoping by the fresh morning of Friday, when I begin my 10 hr work day, I'll not be feeling too bad.... or maybe I will, especially if the prospective smaller shots don't succeed in a standard taper, but only drag things out.... for my fellow heroin addicts, what would you do?
Thanks in advance for any thoughtful replies. I've not posted in a little while on BL, but I wanna toss in: this community since I discovered it in late 2011 as a lurker, then when I registered in Spring 2012, up until my current saga of struggles has always been such an enriching place. I've taken away practices I now consider standard that truly have reduced harm to my body, and literally saved my life, as well as a few others in my vicinity. Drug addiction is a motherfucker we all know, but for those inexperienced dabblers just using on a single fateful weekend benefit in ways that can only be said to be life saving. So from the bottom of my heart, to everyone who works, moderates, shares, and makes this place the standard 'go-to' for harm reduction knowledge, thank you! This goes for not only the staff, but the everyday commenters as well. I hope to always have such warm and vital feelings aroused by the quality of this community.
Love,
MOE
....now: HELP MEH
As upi may've guessed from that: I am very familiar w/ loperamide. I'm looking at some sitting on the desk right now, just in case it comes to that, I feel it's helped moderately in the past, but not to the extent to where I'd call it a poor man's suboxone like some folks do. Also, the inevitable constipation can often times make it just not worth it for me. Thank you for that tip all the same 'cos that is good to suggest for ppl who've not heard of it.