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Opiates Help!

Thanks to everyone who helped me. I did it twice in the past 2 weeks since this conversation. Maybe again next week I don't know.. The everyday thing is not really for me.
I don't steal from my work if that is what your asking... =D!
 
I was just making humor. I do not contact anyone on this board for anything but advice or feedback.
 
That is the name of my account back then.. haha WOW! Anyway, wow were all of you guys right. Oxy destroyed my love life and my job. Thankfully, I quit my job and moved into a new area far away from pharmacy before It got too bad.

My girlfriend of 6 years left me due to my addiction back in 2013. I had to quit the pharmacy job back in 2013. I STILL do it.. I did it everyday for a long time. However, now it is once or twice a month. My new gf does it with me..

Furthermore, I've lost a few of my friends now too. The ones who did not do oxy stopped hanging around me. The ones who do oxy went to H when I would not. Therefore, we stopped hanging out because they went and grabbed something else and thought I was judging them. Only a few friends continue to do just oxy like me. I've also lost 3 friends this year to overdsoe on H.


Hopefully, this resurrection stops people from every doing OXY. Maybe just maybe they will see themselves in me back 4 years ago.

MUCH LOVE,

Sam
 
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i am 57 now .i knew the very first time i touched opiates i loved them .it can be a long hard road , over and over u kick to get high again.and some die. i would say stay away from it if u can.
 
Amazing story... thank you for coming back, Sam. I am in love with oxy's too... I am on a very slow taper now, as I do not want to go cold turkey ever again, and did so in 2013. I start using again after a year clean due to the boredom I associate with PAWS or maybe just life, and I do have legitimate pain issues so am able to get them prescribed. TBH, during this taper, the last couple hours before my next dose are spent watching the clock, waiting to take my next pill. I am so sick of their ability to control me, that my hope is to get off them in a few months. I hate the money I spend, and mine are prescribed, but have to pay the doc every month to get the next prescription, cash only, no insurance. Also, laws are always changing and who knows when I will get cut off... don't want to be stuck without a stash, and tapering is the only way to get a couple put away for a rainy day. I wonder if I had read your post years ago if I would have followed your advice??? Probably not... I loved oxy's too much the first time I got them prescribed.
 
theartofwar said:
seriously, I know I'm stubborn and didn't listen but please look at the people pointing out this - you have supply and friends ,it's all good atm. Soon it won't be, the friends will go with the supply, shit gets real ugly fast. That's a great turn out - you all end up in detox/ rehab - reality of it is prolly one of you will die one will end up in jail or both will happen.

The group i started with we got 3 left outta 11 back when i was 16 and the 3 aren't holding up to well bro ! My body needs time away from he lifestyle and opiates PERIOD. (Like the rest of my life).

Just dont think it's all that, it's not, I used to worship the shit. Now I man up to my own reasons I did - they are mine - I'd suggest you find yours as to why you like the drug. Try to really respect drugs in general and they will be much friendlier in return this I promise.
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It made me so sad to see theartofwar's posts in this thread. Now his name is in the Shrine and I guess there are 2 out of 11.

IamSam, thank you so much for coming back and posting. So many times people disappear in the midst of posting about the early stages of addiction and it's hard for me to not assume the worst. I need these kinds of posts to help me keep things in perspective (and I'm sure it helps everyone else here, too). Congratulations on the hard work and persistence it took to break free. May your life just keep getting better.<3
 
IamIamSam said:
That is the name of my account back then.. haha WOW! Anyway, wow were all of you guys right. Oxy destroyed my love life and my job. Thankfully, I quit my job and moved into a new area far away from pharmacy before It got too bad.

My girlfriend of 6 years left me due to my addiction back in 2013. I had to quit the pharmacy job back in 2013. I STILL do it.. I did it everyday for a long time. However, now it is once or twice a month. My new gf does it with me..

Furthermore, I've lost a few of my friends now too. The ones who did not do oxy stopped hanging around me. The ones who do oxy went to H when I would not. Therefore, we stopped hanging out because they went and grabbed something else and thought I was judging them. Only a few friends continue to do just oxy like me. I've also lost 3 friends this year to overdsoe on H.


Hopefully, this resurrection stops people from every doing OXY. Maybe just maybe they will see themselves in me back 4 years ago.

MUCH LOVE,

Sam
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Wow, no offense very sad. Not judging you i been addicted for years but I just found it sad. I really really hope there are people out there that want to fuck with opiates, that come to the forum and say FUCK THAT after reading alllll the sad stories here. Good luck everyone
 
I started as a weekend warrior and laughed at people that couldn't control themselves but Sun. turned into Mon. turned into Tues. etc. Now I wake up every morning and shoot up a gram of Arizona black tar to get out of bed. I do at least three grams /day and have to be a small, small, business owner to support my habit. I don't even try to quit after years of failed attempts. I figure I'll be 80 shooting up. Stop now. Thats all I have to say.
 
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