I noticed there was talk about cannabis and its use as an analgesia.... well from my experience it only amplifies it around 90% of the time and 10% of the time it can actually take my mind away from the pain. I guess when it comes to intractable pain where opiates don't provide analgesia and cannabis does.... well i guess i find that hard to believe.... but after reading a little i found that THC has anti inflammatory properties... apparently 30 times stronger than aspirin(which is not that impressive IMO) I'd still prefer to take celebrex or ibuprofen for an NSAID.... the reason why is i smoke cannabis a fair bit right, and when i'm WD'ing from opiates i don't get RLS and i can sleep 20 hours straight. the worse the opiate WD the more i can sleep(lucky me) but the only thing i can't handle is the incredible lower back pain i get from opiate WD... and cannibis does fuck all.... in fact it makes it worse.
Migraine headaches and neuralgic pain yesss i can see how cannabis could be a very effective analgesic that cannabinoids have a direct effect on biochemical pain signals in the central nervous system, but thats pain i seldom suffer from.... maybe it's because i smoke lots lol. anyway thats off topic but interesting none the less.
with regards to opiates i've been using suboxone to save up massive amounts of oxycodone. i first started using suboxone recently to make my OC script last the month as i'm building an awesome relationship with my GP and after 3 months of coming back a week early and asking for an increase it got to the point where he started to worry about my tolerance and wanted me to stick with 20mg 3x daily. ever since then i've been using bupe to consolidate and it has given me a really good idea of each drugs pro's and con's and their analgesic effectiveness with tramadol being the perfect bridge between the 2.
I actually went to a 28 day rehab which i busted out of after 5 days. cannabis has a stronger hold over me than opiates, but whilst in there i obviously told them i wasn't being prescribed oxycodone for my pain, so i ended up reducing my OC to 10mg a day and used the max dose of tram and when i went in there and told them i was on 400mg of tram they instantly wanted me to reduce. straight to 200mg(which was tough but bearable) the addictions dr there wanted to properly assess my pain and was planning on further reducing my tram dose to 100mg and thats when the pain started to effect my state of mind and along with the psychological effects of WD'ing from cannabis, was too much and i walked, and subsequently have used about 2 grams of H in the last few days.... no cannabis though. before going into the rehab i had just picked up my monthly oxy script, had one night of fun with it and gave the rest (80 20mg pills) to my mum, who locked them away nice and tight in her safe..... they,ve gone to europe for 2 months and it was my idea to give her the tablets, but i regret that big time and now i'm stuck with just tramadol and feel guilty as fuck for using that much smack for the first time in ages. suboxone costs me a fair bit, but tramadol on it's own doesn't suffice and using H out of spite was dumb on my part, just felt really guilty about leaving the rehab as i promised my mum that i'd go to get off the cannabis and benzo's as she's been really supportive of helping me with my PM and desire to quite smoking and taking benzo's.... it's really fucking my life and she knows that i'm not ready to cut out the opiates which aren't effecting my life like cannabis and benzo's have been for a long time. I had only used H twice this year until my failed rehab and now that i went crazy using H i feel liberated from it even more than ever.... if that makes sense. in hindsight i should have scored some bupe instead.... although i pay aver the odds for it.... doubling the dispensing fee, it's a good deal for both party's and more importantly it's reliable as if i was on the program myself
having said all that i will be going on suboxone for 18 days from tomorrow and in that time i won't be smoking cannabis and only using tramadol at to bridge the gap and completely and rapidly reduce off it while on bupe. that way i'll really be able to gage bupe as an analgesic for an extended amount of time + i should have a job doing carpet tiles by then... so will be a big test for my knee.
As for morphine, well i had my first experience with it on day 2 of my failed rehab. I had a serious bout of acute gastritis and was sent to Cabrini private hospital where i was administered morphine as the pain in my stomach was brutal. I didn't even ask for it and was given it for my pain there..... with my symptoms they initially though i had food poisoning as i was throwing up non stop, and then later a possible gall bladder. after i was discharged i went to the doctor that was treating me and asked him just out of curiosity how much morphine i was actually administered.... i ended up having an initial shot of 30mg and another 30mg an hour later as my pain was really bad. after about 3 hours i asked for more and they gave me 20mg so all up i was given 80mg of morphine in the space of 5 hours. It felt identical to H with the only difference being the slow warm onset as opposed to the rush of H.... i had hardly an histamine release and i'd say that i'd scratch myself more when shoot H compared to morphine.... strange really. comparing morphine to oxycodone, i'd say that it has more euphoria and duration of euphoria than oxycodone. but i guess it's hard to judge when you're laying in hospital with minor WD's and huge stomach pain, but never the less it was very nice to finally try morphine even though i felt like dying before being admitted..... i don't think i would have been given the same treatment at a public hospital and getting private health insurance was one of the best things i have done this year.... 120 bucks a month..... the excess at the private hospital was 330 bucks though, but at least i got to tick morphine off the list.... now i want hydromorphone! : )
that may seem all good and well, but it's possible i'd be forced to move out of home if i haven't given cannabis, benzo's and smack the arse by the time my parents get back... it's a tightrope, a fucking tightrope.... sorry i'm just comfortably numb and still struggling with the thought of not ever having a smoke again... especially when all my mates are probably smoking it up as i type. oh well, no cannabis/benzo's/heroin = my dreams of travelling the world for love and adventure. And yes, opiates can't come with me, but for now they can get my arse into gear to be able to physically save up enough cash so i can realise my dream.
peace everyone on BL...considering i was suicidal a few days ago
