OK so I've been floating through life in a nothing job living at my parents place spending all my money every week on opiates, which at the level I'm at get me very mildly high (barely at all) but stave off withdrawals for about 24 hours. So I take one dose a day. I've managed to keep it at one by sleeping in in the morning, and working in the evening - so the only time I can get hooked up is middle of the day, and once I get my hit I dont bother about buying more until im sober again (by which time its work, then its too late after that)
Anyhow, I've been given an opportunity to move in with a friend and take on a real fulltime job. wow. but I'm going to need to move in before I get the new job, which means i need to have the money from my current shitty job (all of it) to afford to move. Which means I need to stop spending it.
I only have 1 month.
The only times I've quit before have been due to lack of money or lack of ability to get what i needed. Oh and once for a girl i loved (that ended badly obviously lol)
Anyhow, something I've contemplated alot is a kind of 'controlled crash' - I go in 3 day cycles, every 3 days dropping my dose by enough to be uncomfortable but not enough to make me unable to work/shit burning fire water/roll around in agony/lose too much sleep.
My goal is to cut back in 10% chunks.
day 1,2,3 90%
day 3,4,5 80%
day 6,7,8 70%
day 9,10,11 60% and so on...
I chose 3 days because generally thats how long withdrawals take me to not completely fade, but to become bareable. so in this case im hoping they will be barely there as it should only be very mild withdrawal.
Of course the problem is that after you get down to the 60ish % mark you start to think about how your tolerance must have dropped, and how high youd get if you went back to 100%! Or you say 'youve been good all week, reward yourself!"
Anyhow, that basically explains everything... I'm wondering if anyone has tried this kind of quit, if anyone can help in any way, provide some info? Need your help guys, its been 8 years and I'm so over this thing, but I know its not gonna go without a hell of a fight. I dont have any benzos or anything to help btw, and cant get any.
Anyhow, I've been given an opportunity to move in with a friend and take on a real fulltime job. wow. but I'm going to need to move in before I get the new job, which means i need to have the money from my current shitty job (all of it) to afford to move. Which means I need to stop spending it.
I only have 1 month.
The only times I've quit before have been due to lack of money or lack of ability to get what i needed. Oh and once for a girl i loved (that ended badly obviously lol)
Anyhow, something I've contemplated alot is a kind of 'controlled crash' - I go in 3 day cycles, every 3 days dropping my dose by enough to be uncomfortable but not enough to make me unable to work/shit burning fire water/roll around in agony/lose too much sleep.
My goal is to cut back in 10% chunks.
day 1,2,3 90%
day 3,4,5 80%
day 6,7,8 70%
day 9,10,11 60% and so on...
I chose 3 days because generally thats how long withdrawals take me to not completely fade, but to become bareable. so in this case im hoping they will be barely there as it should only be very mild withdrawal.
Of course the problem is that after you get down to the 60ish % mark you start to think about how your tolerance must have dropped, and how high youd get if you went back to 100%! Or you say 'youve been good all week, reward yourself!"
Anyhow, that basically explains everything... I'm wondering if anyone has tried this kind of quit, if anyone can help in any way, provide some info? Need your help guys, its been 8 years and I'm so over this thing, but I know its not gonna go without a hell of a fight. I dont have any benzos or anything to help btw, and cant get any.