Welcome to both of you, SoBright, xwrfb1466,
I have been through so intesive and tiring withdrawals during almost all of my life and opiates are rock bottom.
I finally quit taking methadone after so many years and I realized that quitting can be the easiest part imo/e. The world turns all black and white, no to mention the sadness and mind tricks. But if I did this, anyone can. I really believe that. The power generator is yourself and at some moment you'll feel the light running through your veins again, it's not easy but it's indeed quite rewarding.
You can do this! You can be free again. Make the jump, find people to talk to. Look for a good physician and get some help. As soon as you begin, life will not be as limited and sorrow as it is now. Make sure you have someone to be with you.
You can read in some of the threads in BL, non prescription medical guidance you'll need. And keep in touch. I know the feeling of disappointment and frustration you are going through but trust in your instincts that you can patiently end this, one day at the time.
I wish you both all the best!!
