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Opiate Withdrawal ~ Times You've Had To Go Through It...

Maybe suffering withdrawals over and over again isn't as easy as I'm making it sound! Hell, I know it's not easy....it's just nice to know exactly what you'll feel when you'll feel it.

One BIG point ~ never, EVER finish your stash before you crash!!! I can't count how many times I've had to wake up in full on withdrawal after pulling a stunt like that. I honestly believe that doing this is absolutely awful. I'd rather finish what I have in the morning and suffer slowly throughout the day!

You're right about Tramadol vs. Heroin w/d. Tramadol takes shit away from you that other opiates do not and it leaves you in the darkest depression...not good on top of already suffering withdrawals.

PFFFT!

R*B
 
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Just to chime in on the Tram w/d- I used to take like 600-700mg a day for like a year straight, every day. When that party finally ended- I was sicker and more depressed than I've ever been. After that, it was like 6 years until I did another opiate (dilaudid). I can say the tram w/d induced the most soul crushing depression I had ever experienced......I still can remember a bit of that though it was back in '98....
 
In the last 3 and a half years, scarily probably 30 - 40% of it I spent dopesick.

I could never save any for the morning either, and most dealers didn't start till 1 or 2pm
 
Help_me_please, if your doctor is tapering you too quickly, just go ahead and tell him never mind, you need the medicine as originally prescribed. Then wean yourself off at your desired rate.

Damn it took me a long time to get to sleep last night because of tramadol wd.
I've been using hydrocodone during the day to keep me sane. It helps a lot. It just doesn't give all-day relief due to it's short half-life. I want my tramadol back :( Even while using hydrocodone as a withdrawal aid, the depression from tram wd still comes through pretty strong.

I woke up this morning and almost vomited, tramadol wd was so bad. 15mg of hydrocodone is just now kicking in. So, that's good. I'm not shaking anymore at least. Bad thing about hydrocodone is that it gives me some pretty bad nausea sometimes. And the only thing that helps is lying down with no head movement.
THANK GOD I can get my tramadol refill tomorrow morning.

Thanks for letting me use this thread to vent.
I will quit tramadol eventually, I promise. It would have to be through a very slow taper, though.
 
^ Although I think this can be a little dangerous if your not in the right state of mind due to the SSRI factor... I really think it is a better way to go about it. I tried tapering off but, cold turkey makes you pay for it, you don't want to have to go back through it or at least can remember how bad it the wds were. I think thats half the reason I'm still off the dope...
 
1. I've quit three times without assistance. Right now being the third, as in today being day 3 of totally clean. There is something gratifying about stopping before you run out of money and have to go crying to mommy/daddy/girlfriend/friend/whoever. It feels good (mentally and for the ego) and like shit (physically and emotionally) at the same time. I still haven't figured out opioids other than to know I should stay away from them forever.

2. I do not believe its easier to quit each time. In fact, I sincerely think it's harder. Because you know what's coming, you know you can get through it so that means it's just easier to relapse b/c your inner addict is just like, "Hey man, you've quit before, this'll just be a small binge and you can beat it even if it gets just a LITTLE out of hand." Withdrawals are withdrawals.
 
Okay, let's see here... I was an opiate addict for 2.5 years. I went through withdrawals constantly by choice, just to lower my tolerance. Still, I despised it every time. I can't even begin to guess how many 24 hour long periods I spent in withdrawal. Probably approaching 100, although some times were mild. I used poppy tea and it had a tendency to last a long time, thus causing the worst withdrawals to usually hit around the 48 hour mark. After a long time of abuse, the duration changed and I found myself getting sick much more frequently.

I think that the withdrawals don't really get easier every time, but they do get easier up to a certain point. For instance, my first withdrawal poppy pods is largely regarded by me to be one of the worst withdrawals I've ever experienced. It's because the sensations were so new, so unpleasant, I just wasn't prepared for the hell of it all. I didn't know I wouldn't be able to sleep, I didn't realize that some story on the TV would have me feeling really sad for little or no reason. As time went on the intensity of the withdrawals only increased, but I did become more prepared for the character of the experience and was able to deal with some symptoms accordingly. Every withdrawal was unpleasant though.
 
I too have lost track of how many times I kicked, at least from heroin.
I started using IV heroin in the early 80’s and I totally stopped with H in 2002. Now that I think about it I snorted H for the first time in 76’; but in those 20 plus years of shoting dope I kicked in a jail cell at least 6 times or more. I’ve purposely left town and kicked in a motel room at least that many times too.

Then there were the times when I just decided to stay in my house for at least a week or so and just kick. Those were the hardest times to kick because it was always so easy to just say fuck it I’ve had enough sleepless nights after a week or more and just go get off E.
I’ve also kicked about a half dozen times in hospitals, detox’s and rehabs.

I personally don’t remember it getting “easier” to kick; I might have been able to deal with it a little better after the first 10 or 15 times…I knew what to expect and such
 
at least a hundred times of 24 hours or more. full CT about 5 times. Usually with no support from other meds and in some fucked up circumstances to boot. One time I CT just after I got stabbed...

Tis sucks, but its true that once you get used to it, its not as bad, atleast for me. I know it has a definite end, and that keeps me going.

I know a guy who gets like 400 20mg oxies a month and eats them all in 3 weeks and then withdrawals the last week like clockwork... He also often runs out of temazepams early and withdrawals from them too. I swear to god the people in my real life are so much more fucked than people on bluelight... I think its cuz we have support and information or something..
 
One hundred times of one day? Maybe. Each time equally determined that this is the big one, too.

Currently, it's day three cold turkey. It's certainly the worst withdrawal experience I've had yet, but that's because I was irresponsible (heh, 80mg is fine - I'm quitting next week!)

Is it as bad as I feared? .. Maybe not. I hadn't been thinking about it like that.
 
I REALLY appreciate everyone's input on this. It's both reassuring and eye-opening to read all of your personal stories regarding the difficulty of opiate withdrawal as well as the amount of times you've had to kick the habit.

After thinking about it and reading this thread over again, I suppose using the word: "easier" when it came to repeatedly going through withdrawal wasn't the best choice of words. I guess what I was stating was that KNOWING what experience lies ahead and exactly what ailments I was surely going to feel was what made the process of withdrawal easier. However, withdrawal itself is NEVER easy as no matter how many times I put myself through it, the effects were never "better" than each previous time. I mean, depending on how long I had gone in-between withdrawal sessions and the dose of opiates I was on definitely depicts the severity of each withdrawal, I found that withdrawal in itself fucking sucks...PERIOD

It's actually funny to me that no matter how many times I've put myself in that same ol' shitty position, it never changes my thought process when I actually have opiates in my possession. I actually 'write checks' that even my OWN ASS 'can't cash' (an opiate-like take on an old saying). Nothing like sitting down and making deals with yourself...LMAO!!!

Hope all are well!
R*B
 
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