This Sucks
Greenlighter
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- Oct 10, 2012
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Hi, Ive been on this site 1000's of times but this is my first post.
Basic history...
Through high school, college and until my 30's... I always partied with friends.. just beer and pot.
Then I hit my 30's.
Been on and off opiates for 5 yrs. First two years were very recreational.. never even knew what sick was. I was doing them by myself. It wasn't like I had any friends doing them so I had no info. until one day, I went on vacation and stocked up for a whole week. then I got home, went to work, and felt like I was dying. I had no clue why. Stayed clean for a year that time... hated opiates after that. Then my life started falling apart for other reasons. Then for about 2 years I basically would go on a week binge, then feel like shit for 2 weeks. Then repeat. 2 whole years of this is a loooonnng time and a tonnnn of sickness and madness. in my opinion.. hell on earth.
THE GOOD NEWS: I"M CLEAN FROM OPIATES. I literally hate them. Been clean for almost a year.
BAD NEWS: Between the booze, pot, and opiates.. I feel that I've done some permanent damage here. Although.. I never felt this way before the pills. So i'm pretty sure that's what did this.
THE OTHER BAD NEWS I have BIG responsibilities and I need to function from morning till bedtime like i'm a machine. EVERY DAY. So.. this stopped happening.. I would be at work and just felt BRAIN DEAD. This cannot happen for me. I have to produce.
SOOOOOOOOOOO.....
My dr gave me some Adderall and klonopin.. been on it for a couple months now.
It makes me feel like a normal person. I'm taking way less than most people. Literally .11 mg of klonopin(break .5 mg into 4's) and 1.5 mg of Adderall 2 times a day.(I have never abused these) BUT even this little amount makes a HUUUUUUUUUUGE difference in my life.
Quite honestly, I need it at this point. I'm SO much more productive while on it. And I NEED to be... to keep my job and family.
My question is: After all this opiate HELL... I'm scared out of my pants about drugs in general.... Should I be scared to take the Adderall and kpins... or just take them so I can fill my obligations? I appreciate any advice on this matter or especially any past experiences. Thanks in advance.
Basic history...
Through high school, college and until my 30's... I always partied with friends.. just beer and pot.
Then I hit my 30's.
Been on and off opiates for 5 yrs. First two years were very recreational.. never even knew what sick was. I was doing them by myself. It wasn't like I had any friends doing them so I had no info. until one day, I went on vacation and stocked up for a whole week. then I got home, went to work, and felt like I was dying. I had no clue why. Stayed clean for a year that time... hated opiates after that. Then my life started falling apart for other reasons. Then for about 2 years I basically would go on a week binge, then feel like shit for 2 weeks. Then repeat. 2 whole years of this is a loooonnng time and a tonnnn of sickness and madness. in my opinion.. hell on earth.
THE GOOD NEWS: I"M CLEAN FROM OPIATES. I literally hate them. Been clean for almost a year.
BAD NEWS: Between the booze, pot, and opiates.. I feel that I've done some permanent damage here. Although.. I never felt this way before the pills. So i'm pretty sure that's what did this.
THE OTHER BAD NEWS I have BIG responsibilities and I need to function from morning till bedtime like i'm a machine. EVERY DAY. So.. this stopped happening.. I would be at work and just felt BRAIN DEAD. This cannot happen for me. I have to produce.
SOOOOOOOOOOO.....
My dr gave me some Adderall and klonopin.. been on it for a couple months now.
It makes me feel like a normal person. I'm taking way less than most people. Literally .11 mg of klonopin(break .5 mg into 4's) and 1.5 mg of Adderall 2 times a day.(I have never abused these) BUT even this little amount makes a HUUUUUUUUUUGE difference in my life.
Quite honestly, I need it at this point. I'm SO much more productive while on it. And I NEED to be... to keep my job and family.
My question is: After all this opiate HELL... I'm scared out of my pants about drugs in general.... Should I be scared to take the Adderall and kpins... or just take them so I can fill my obligations? I appreciate any advice on this matter or especially any past experiences. Thanks in advance.
