Yeah, i can see the logic. The 5 Lopes have kicked in now and with that extra Clonidine and a wee snort of 4MPH the mysterious craving has fortunately now gone. That also means that had I just been more patient I would have been OK on 5 Lopes when they eventually kick in, so I will remember that for tomorrow and stick to 5. As you say if Lope Wds are nasty even though my habit will be miniscule and very brief if all goes to plan obviously i want to minimise any WDs as much as possible.
I'm also realsing that im not truly off opis yet, until ive quit the Lopes and other comfort meds. I guess when that day comes it will be the true test, or it may be nothing at all with any luck.
All apologies once again to everyone concerned, for my "hogging" this opi support thread again. I dont intend to annoy anyone or make the whole thing about me. I know plenty of others have had habits way out of any league ive ever been in, and may see my blabbering on as whinging and pathetic. I'm just trying to find the best and easiest way off, that's all. Plus I'm not as experienced as most opi users here so im not familiar with all the tricks you may know, and am not very confident in my own mental and physical resilience, i'm 45 now, so its not as easy as it is for all you teens and twenty somethings.
I don't have Knock around any more to support me this time if people start getting annoyed and ganging up against me again, so im probably being over defensive, but getting my defense in first none the less.
I managed to annoy several members last time i went through an opi quit and leaned very heavily on this thread for support. None of those members that did get annoyed last time are currently posting afaik.
Thank you for your kind words. I do hope that one day these posts and dialogue with yourself may come in useful for other members or lurkers.
Yea I can't get clonidine. I have four kids. Gonna have to make do with what I have. And pray I am one of those loperamide stories that does ok w minor WD..... Soon to find out![]()
[MENTION=183133]mydrugbuddy[/MENTION] sorry i tried to post earlier but it got deleted. Just want to say I wish you all the very best in your taper / recovery n I think that Knock would be proud of you (miss him every day). I feel that, in a way I've travelled some of your journey n I agree that you will help others. As others have said addiction is addiction. You still have the psychological element where one minute you're telling yourself you'll never use again - the nezt thing you're using like no thoughts of that nature transpired. I've had conversations about my codeine addiction where my psychological thoughts were silar to those experiencing Heroin addictiom (when we discussed it).
I've had a numbrr of addictions myself, opiate, 3-FPM n behavioural - n for each one the psychological aspect are completely the same; fear of losing the thing we're addicted to, denial, secrecy, needed more n more, the obsession. So please never feel as though you're annoying anyone because you're not. I will be so incredibly happy for you when you've come off opiates whether that's lobe or whatever.
I'm not the best to advise, currently struggling with my own demons but I will say is take it day by day n will be here as support n motivate ome another if you'd like you've lots of support n you can do this. I wish you all the success in the world.
G thanks for explaining that about lobe. I wasn't aware that it passed the blood-brain barrier either.
Evey