opiate addiction loss of desire

[xXSlimShady]

Hello I'm new here I've been around but just now created a account. Well I've been addicted to opiates for almost 2 years now and want to quit. I mostly do 70 - 90 mgs of lortab or oxycodone a day. I wanna quit i've tried before gone through withdrawel and ended up relapsing 3 weeks. Everything seems crappy without them I loss all my interests! I use to go to mma (mixed martial arts) and work out a lot but now I just wanna sit home an do opiates. An every morning I have sever anxiety also get anxiety butterflies an get shaky. It's like that horrible feeling you get in your stomach before you have to stand up in front of a bunch of people something like that. The lortab helps with that to. Sorry for spelling I'm about leave. So does anyone have any advice for helping me stay sober an the anxiety? Does my interest an energy ever return or will I always need them to function? I am 20 by the way. I also don't even want to bother talking to people unless I'm on them it sucks.

Will appreciate all responses thanks!

 

[T. Calderone]

I felt very creepily similiar to what you experience. It's been 16 months since I quit pain management and the initial withdrawals are feeling physically ill. This won't last more than a few days. I can really relate to what you say with losing interest in things, as emotionally it can be hard. I just didn't want to do shit. Still don't want to deal with people either. I get annoyed even with my family. The cravings can suddenly sneak up on you even after months of not using.

Are you still using the lortab or off them?

 

[escapingwonderland]

I noticed when I was on opiates, I thought I was a more outgoing person. In reality, I think I was just numb to everything. The true test was the money I made on/off opiates. I was actually nicer and more personable without and the money I made showed it. At first it is hard to find yourself right out of the addiction, and the anxiety comes...but eventually you learn to accept your new normal and adapt to it.

Good Luck!

 

[theartofwar]

It takes time, opiates become the ultimate anti depressent / anxiety self medication. Making everything okay, then you get hooked and life spins out of control fast. I remember last time i was in detox they did the questionaire and asked me what my hobbies were, i was like im a heroin addict lol, thats what i do. I lost all interest in life and it did take time, but, it comes back. Then it's just the fight to stay clean

 

[xXSlimShady]

Thanks for the advice and yes i took some lortab I had to be on it to even want to post or get help! It sucks. Oh ya and ever since starting opiates I've lost interest in all other drugs. Alcohol just makes me crave them and gives me chills.

 

[xXSlimShady]

Glad to see I'm not the only one with this.

 

[eurocopa]

hey slimshady, you're strong man, you'll beat this shit, it will take time, but you'll make it.
Why don't you make a gradual taper off the pills in question. theres tons of threads with all sorts of tapering techniques.
A slow taper and a little help from otc
medicines has always worked for me, things like dextrometorphan, pregabalin, clonidine, etc

 

[xXSlimShady]

Thank you I will look into that I appreciate it.

 

[elser85]

whats up all, im new to posts but i have been utilizing this site for the past week while geting threw my own quest with "super flu."
slim....shit sucks either way you look at it. im finally to the point where i can function somewhat. but its been a long fuckered up road. ive been sober severel time before, a year here and a few there and the one thing ive learned threw it all is time is your best friend. the more time you give yourself to heal that brain your body will surely follow. first time i got clean at the age of 21 took me a couple weeks to get back to my ole self. my anxiety was so high that all i wanted to do was go cop some shit, when the jones got so bad i jus smoked some weed....thats your ticket cheif. taper down get some valerian root and smoke some trees....jus gotta soilder on. if your gonna do it, do it.

 

[xxsicknessxx]

suboxone is a very very good option to help you get off ox just... I recommend trying to not stay on suboxone for to long.. use it to wean off else your trading one addiction for another even if its a cheaper addition.. I have been on subs over a year and my habit was ridulously high.. I never thought I was be alive again even with subs I went through about 4 months horrible WD... with the subs I made it.. though a year later I still don't feel right ... it takes a couple of years for the brain to bounce back ... friken drugs they take your feeling of normality away

Just ... tough it out try to get something to wean you off the drugs some benzos or subs or something Wean off it fast you'll be ok.. just except not feeling back to normal for along time... you can't except that high feeling ever again either (thats the hard part for me)

 

[Pagey]

Opiates annihilate all your interests so it's normal for you to feel like you don't enjoy doing anything anymore. Don't worry though, once you're clean your interests will come back - which is an incentive to stop.
The first few weeks of withdrawal are the worst but it does get better. You have to believe that. Just tell yourself that with every second that passes, you're getting better and you won't ever feel as bad as you do now again. It can only get better.
As was mentioned, suboxone maintenance might be a good thing for you to look into.
As for anxiety, it's definitely NOT a good idea to use opiates to deal with that. I would suggest benzos but you'd be at a risk of trading one addiction for another (I was addicted to benzos, got clean and then just switched to an oxy addiction a couple months later) and benzo withdrawal is just not something you want to experience, it landed me in the hospital. So I'd suggest trying to deal with those issues by maybe seeing a therapist? It can help to try and understand why you experience such severe anxiety, and for some people just talking about it is enough to make it go away.