marienbad
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Long story short, I am an opiate addict and stopped at the start of this year, ending a long year of constant use (and several other years of less frequent use). When on opiates I feel "complete." I'm normally a very reserved person, sometimes to a fault, and opiates make me feel perfectly able to express myself and say what I want to say which I might be too shy to do when sober. Generally opiates seem to tick all the boxes for me, in every mental area. Of course they do, though, that's why I have used them so much and am an addict. But the problem is that nothing else seems to work in making me truly happy.
I am a very depressive person and have been for many many years, but lately it's been as bad as ever. I could elaborate but this post is long enough.
Another long story short, I have a strange problem with sensory input. I become overwhelmed by the smallest things like the feel of a fabric or the glare of a light or having to dry myself off after a shower. This has been a problem for a couple years but it's become UNBEARABLE. I feel like I cannot function some days because I simply can't stand how everything feels. This is the most central concern for me right now.
Anyway that brings me to now. I am taking Paxil for these problems, and have been for 15-20 days now. The problem is, like every other antidepressant I've tried, it's killing my stomach. Not to get graphic but 3 times in the past 12 days I've practically shat out my whole intestines. It's not just a minor inconvenience, it's a draining ordeal which is alll to familiar to me as someone with recurring stomach issues (not quite Crohns but somewhat similar). And my doc says Paxil is the anti-d LEAST likely to cause me stomach issues! I know people say this is just side effects that will go away, but to me it's debilitating and extremely painful and always launches me into a deep depression after where I feel hopeless and desperately crave opiates. And I'm only taking 5mg Paxil, that's how little I weight and/or how sensitive my body is.
So I am considering getting off it. The problem is it actually does help my sensory issues...
Anti-depressants I've taken in the past: Zoloft, Wellbutrin, Remeron, Seroquel, Cymbalta. All caused stomach issues (in addition to mental fogginess/zombie-feeling etc) that I could not stand.
I feel so lost as to what to do.
Any advice tips or help is extremely appreciated. I hope this post didn't ramble too much.
I am a very depressive person and have been for many many years, but lately it's been as bad as ever. I could elaborate but this post is long enough.
Another long story short, I have a strange problem with sensory input. I become overwhelmed by the smallest things like the feel of a fabric or the glare of a light or having to dry myself off after a shower. This has been a problem for a couple years but it's become UNBEARABLE. I feel like I cannot function some days because I simply can't stand how everything feels. This is the most central concern for me right now.
Anyway that brings me to now. I am taking Paxil for these problems, and have been for 15-20 days now. The problem is, like every other antidepressant I've tried, it's killing my stomach. Not to get graphic but 3 times in the past 12 days I've practically shat out my whole intestines. It's not just a minor inconvenience, it's a draining ordeal which is alll to familiar to me as someone with recurring stomach issues (not quite Crohns but somewhat similar). And my doc says Paxil is the anti-d LEAST likely to cause me stomach issues! I know people say this is just side effects that will go away, but to me it's debilitating and extremely painful and always launches me into a deep depression after where I feel hopeless and desperately crave opiates. And I'm only taking 5mg Paxil, that's how little I weight and/or how sensitive my body is.
So I am considering getting off it. The problem is it actually does help my sensory issues...
Anti-depressants I've taken in the past: Zoloft, Wellbutrin, Remeron, Seroquel, Cymbalta. All caused stomach issues (in addition to mental fogginess/zombie-feeling etc) that I could not stand.
I feel so lost as to what to do.
Any advice tips or help is extremely appreciated. I hope this post didn't ramble too much.