One week after three years

[littleboxes91]

Hey guys,

Love reading the forums. I had a terrible (in my opinion) dope addiction for years, I put it down cold turkey went to rehab and did fellowship for the last 3 yesrs, no slips no alcohol I was an AA glory boy. Around Columbis Day (Canadian Thanksgiving) I picked up dope again of course it got bad quickly but I managed to stop it before horrible consequences happened. I've not had dope in 8 days which I mean picking up a white chip isn't fun but it's certainly humbling. I used subs for 3 days, 2 mg, and my last dose was this Tuesday at 3pm. I've not had since then j felt fine all week throughout the holiday and what-not. I feel fine right now I mean I'm not comfortable I have a headache, im cold and having trouble sleeping but it's not a true withdrawal like I feared so much. So what my question is, do ya'll think the w/D's are coming or am I free? I'm worried obviously about a relapse but frankly I'm selfishly worried about losing my job if I have to take time off because of the w/d. And while subs aren't exactly fellowship approved, I would probably resort to that to make it til Christmas when I could do a proper withdrawal. What do you all think?

 

[neversickanymore]

Hey way to pull out of the trap

Subs have a very long half life. If you continue to feal good through 10-14 days then your clear.

No matter what your going to make it. Given your doing so well so far along you have a great chance of pushing out pretty comfortably.

 

[littleboxes91]

Thanks man. I appreciate it. It was rough breaking the news to my fiancé and my sponsor but I'm honestly gonna try to make lemonaid out of lemons. I see that what they say, "when you're in recovery, your disease is doing push-ups", is true. It got bad quickly. So I have a newfound respect for this disease. I obviously have to make amends when I get there, especially to my fiancé, she doesn't/didn't know "using me" and was really worried about me. I'm sure I've scared the daylights out of her. And my work performance has slipped, obviously. When you're on dope, you only think of one thing and it's not dividends. I feel like crap mentally, this stuff really fries your brain like that Reagan commercial with the fried egg haha. But I know from last time if I take it one day at a time and exercise patience (addict's worst nightmare) things will get better.

God bless you all, I hope your recoveries are going well.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

Best of luck on pulling through your relapse, you can do it man.

Try to make positive changes to make your return to sobriety an enjoyable one.

I really look up to people like you who can tell their sponsor and partner after a relapse. Many of us don't have the bravery or strength to be honest with the people in the lives who care about us the most.