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Bluelighter
One Night
With my life hectic as it is lately
And the second rate feeling that stirs within my soul
You came at the right time
I wanted to loose my mind
I could not take it anymore
Looking over
Seeing them snuggling
Feeling more alone and so unattractive
She looks at me with that look and
I could not take holding my tongue
I said and the wheels of those too started
Turning
Without them I would not have been there
Without them I would have slept alone another night
Not even the sexual reasons I just needed to be held
So much feelings of lack of self worth
Though it seems everyday I am told
“ You’re a beautiful person inside and out now”
It is that now that gets me, I am still the same inside
Still neurotic still on my journey
The only change is how I look now
And how they look at me
But not how I see myself
But you changed that for a few hours
She left as soon as my feet entered the door
You just knew
I sense you peace and serenity
Your comfort
Maybe you were searching for something
That night too
We took the chance to discover something’s about each other
We found friendship
We took the time in learning little not enough
It was just a start
It was that kiss I expected but didn’t
I didn’t make a move
Such a coward I felt
To scared to be rejected
But you didn’t
You swept me literally off my feet
I wanted to tell you no
I am not that sort of girl
But I think you knew
The chemistry was there for now
That is all that mattered
Brushing your hair back as you kissed me
Feelings rushing in me that were making me feel valid
Even if for just awhile
Our bodies close the sounds of pleasure
It was finding tranquility letting someone
In for just a bit,
I expected no more then now
We could not speak at this point
The language was not that of words
Not that of love
Just language of need
As I tried to sleep in the wee hours of the morning
With you next to me
I smiled
Sleep the days before had not come easy
And they did not me that night
My body exhausted my mind
Still refusing to slow down
Feeling someone next to me
I was glad it was you,
I was glad I gave little to someone
I immediately respected and found interesting
But it is like we both knew
It was too soon for anything more
I still can’t find the words to tell you
Thank you and what it meant to me
For that one night
I smiled the next day; you could not wipe the grin off my face
Not because I got laid, not cause I found the love of my life
Cause I felt attractive for a day
For one night my mind didn’t batter
With my emotions
For on night I was able to just be me
With my life hectic as it is lately
And the second rate feeling that stirs within my soul
You came at the right time
I wanted to loose my mind
I could not take it anymore
Looking over
Seeing them snuggling
Feeling more alone and so unattractive
She looks at me with that look and
I could not take holding my tongue
I said and the wheels of those too started
Turning
Without them I would not have been there
Without them I would have slept alone another night
Not even the sexual reasons I just needed to be held
So much feelings of lack of self worth
Though it seems everyday I am told
“ You’re a beautiful person inside and out now”
It is that now that gets me, I am still the same inside
Still neurotic still on my journey
The only change is how I look now
And how they look at me
But not how I see myself
But you changed that for a few hours
She left as soon as my feet entered the door
You just knew
I sense you peace and serenity
Your comfort
Maybe you were searching for something
That night too
We took the chance to discover something’s about each other
We found friendship
We took the time in learning little not enough
It was just a start
It was that kiss I expected but didn’t
I didn’t make a move
Such a coward I felt
To scared to be rejected
But you didn’t
You swept me literally off my feet
I wanted to tell you no
I am not that sort of girl
But I think you knew
The chemistry was there for now
That is all that mattered
Brushing your hair back as you kissed me
Feelings rushing in me that were making me feel valid
Even if for just awhile
Our bodies close the sounds of pleasure
It was finding tranquility letting someone
In for just a bit,
I expected no more then now
We could not speak at this point
The language was not that of words
Not that of love
Just language of need
As I tried to sleep in the wee hours of the morning
With you next to me
I smiled
Sleep the days before had not come easy
And they did not me that night
My body exhausted my mind
Still refusing to slow down
Feeling someone next to me
I was glad it was you,
I was glad I gave little to someone
I immediately respected and found interesting
But it is like we both knew
It was too soon for anything more
I still can’t find the words to tell you
Thank you and what it meant to me
For that one night
I smiled the next day; you could not wipe the grin off my face
Not because I got laid, not cause I found the love of my life
Cause I felt attractive for a day
For one night my mind didn’t batter
With my emotions
For on night I was able to just be me
