on soulmates and lonliness......

[yoUr bLiSS]

I try to keep the faith nowadays. Smiling and pushing on thru this madness we call life. Keeping my glass half-full now as opposed to half-emtpy and watered down with a stray cigarette butt floating amisdt. This world is enormous. The possibilites endless. I have only lived 1/4 of my life and my spirit runs eternal. It will happen somday. In some lifetime, some century, some late night dream. I've seen glimpses of other kindred souls in close friends. Tracy is the bright side of my soul, Susan the dark. Yet somewhere somehow is there one who encompasses both? I do believe in soul mates. They are quite plentiful if you've the desire and the wisdom to recognize. Nancy and Teresa share my goofiness. Silly slices of soul and spirit. Krisy, my Muse, my musical teenage angst twin soul. I've found all aspects of my being in others, individual pieces. For this I am blessed. Yet who is my equal. Boy, girl, fish, insect...I do not care.
I want a happy lunatic
A passionate freak
Someone who understands all that I am...
I am....
Velvet and Laughter
Sunshine and Blood
Scars and Dreams
Butterflies and Pain
Addiction and Rainbows
Poetry and Stars
Passion and Ice
Fire and Numbness
Black cats and White unicorns
Though all my actions say otherwise
This fiercly independant girl is getting lonley.
This perpetual search getting old
I want to be half of a whole again

 

[cherub]

I have a feeling you are quite younger then me, so i am gona give alittle advice ,,, or just something to think about,,, one you are whole already,, loniness is a symtom of not knowing who you are,, things come in there own time so for whatever that is worth,, remember you are perfect the way you are,,
and if you do not feel you are are not whole,,,, how can you expect other people to look at you and accept you if you can't accpet yourself.
it takes time and growing for those answers to come but they do and that is usually when you least except someone to come in your life.
I do believe in soulmates,, maybe not always as lovers but as friends and mentors,, they are there and they will enter your life as so your life and destiny feels fitting you can't change that part but you can change how you view the things around you.
I really like this though,,, you will get there