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georgewc2001

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I still love rolling just as much as the first day i did it, but i'm starin to feel like maybe there's something wrong with me that i still love it and there's these other people that like "got over it". I mean it's really an opinion and what's in my own head but it's just a little depressing is all...any other older rollers have similar feelings?
 
Don't feel like you're alone.

I'm older (mid 30s) and still LOVE to roll on good quality MDMA. I honestly foresee this being something I enjoy with my s/o for the rest of my life. The beauty sharing and MDMA experience can bring to a relationship/marriage can truly be amazing.

That being said I have "gotten over" the way I used to experience MDMA. Maybe I'm just getting older or whatever but honestly the thought of how I used to be and the parties and raves (and my behavior during) I used to do MDMA during is pretty sad to me know. For me personally this experience has transitioned into something much more beautiful and meaningful that I really only want to share with my s/o.

I have friends that claim to have "gotten over it" but I personally tend to think what they've actually gotten over is the same thing I have gotten over. . . the behavior and parties and what not we all used to experience. This may sound a bit silly and foolish but it seems to me that I didn't really appreciate the depth and beauty MDMA can bring into a relationship until I actually starting experimenting with it during a relationship. I really believe that my friends that have "gotten over it" just haven't really tried to experience it as a deep and meaningful thing shared with someone you love. It's like trying to compare a random cuddle puddle at a rave with random hot chicks to an amazingly sensual and magical affirmation of love with your husband/wife/significant other. . . Sure the cuddle puddle of random hot (semi to fully) naked girls can be fun but as you get older you realize it's somehow shallow and empty when compared to that incredible sensual affirmation of love with your life partner. . .

Anyway the key (at least for me) is to keep it as a special thing that is occasional. I keep it to every 6 months or so. Course now that I'm older and out of the game access is the limiting factor. All the people I once knew aren't in the game anymore either (or arrested or w/e) and at my age you don't just go to the club to hook-up. That combined that I only every want quality product (as I'd rather do nothing than do less than great stuff) and you end up in a situation where it's pretty rare you actually ever find anything worth doing so you never really have to worry about being tempted to do it too often.

I hope I helped answer your ? a bit. There's nothing wrong with you :)
 
Thanks so much for your response...it brings me comfort as I find that rolling is something i'll probably do on and off for the rest of my life. just like you, i don't still get all crazy with the partying but i still love to dance n groove to some of the newer music while i'm rolling. as far as the supply goes, its really hard as i'm getting older and older too but if you can find one good young conect who understands you and what your needs are, you won't need anything else.
 
hi george
I have been using MDMA for a fairly long time, so maybe my input might help. To clarify some things first. I have only done MDMA a few times outside of smaller and more intimate events and each time i used it at a public event i was disappointed. That could play a role as to why it hasn't lost any magic for me. When i was introduced to MDMA it was as something wonderful and therapeutic. That's how i tend to look at most of my experiences with entheogens/entactogens. Although i have found other compounds which provide me with comparable and positive experiences as well outside of MDMA.

Seeing as i hang out with some people that have been rolling for over 30 years with no loss; i look forward to having MDMA and other useful compounds in my life indefinitely. :) I'm fortunate in that i always know a lot of young people who know about my background and respect my insistence on quality. They learn from me and I learn from them. As it should be.
 
I don't think there's anything wrong with me that I like mdma - or that I like these other activities/hobbies. I want to keep liking them. I'm comfortable not being like the stereotype people have constructed for me.


Wow. +1 to you sir. I have a lot of respect for what I just read. As I've matured and grown so has my usage and appreciation of MDMA. There is absolutely NOTHING wrong with you or your appreciation for your hobbies (including MDMA)

I do have a question for you, if you don't mind. Do you share your MDMA with your wife? Personally speaking I've found that when shared with my significant other it can really be an amazing experience. I'm curious if you do share it with her do you find that it has enhanced your marriage? Has it added a depth and layer that might not otherwise be there or is it just another activity that you two can share?

While I think that a good marriage over time should be complex and deep on it's own I tend to think that something like MDMA could add something that otherwise probably couldn't exist without it. Not something critical mind you that would make or break a relationship of course but just and added something special.

I'm not sure if I'm being clear on what I'm curious about but I hope so :D

(BTW this question really goes for any older MDMA lover whose experience could speak to the question)
 
my parents gave me my first hit of mdma. i'm 24 (21 at the time of first dose) and they are both 46. we still go to night clubs/music festivals together. my dad and I went to vegas in june for EDC. both of my parents still love it just as much as they did in the beginning, and i don't think either of them will be giving it up anytime soon.
 
my parents gave me my first hit of mdma. i'm 24 (21 at the time of first dose) and they are both 46. we still go to night clubs/music festivals together. my dad and I went to vegas in june for EDC. both of my parents still love it just as much as they did in the beginning, and i don't think either of them will be giving it up anytime soon.

WOW!!
I don't know what I'd do if my parents approached me with drugs. Of course I suppose If I where in your situation with your parents it might not be as preposterous a thing as it is in my situation with my parents. . .

Kinda neat to share that as a family.
 
I'm an older roller and I've just joined this forum to see if I was getting too old for MDMA!

I agree with Nottamous I think as you get older your use for it changes, the feeling is always great but it's one great way to reinforce me and the missus' love for each other - that's all we use if for now and do it 4 time a year!(MDMA that is!)
 
Old is all in your head; be as young as you want.

These kinds of questions come up from time to time, and they are pretty much the only ones I make comments back about. So, by searching my name here, you'll run in to lots of discussions over the last 8 years about older rollers and their issues.

Generally, as long as you give a good 6 week to 3 month break between doing it, you can continue indefinitely having great experiences without having a loss of its effectiveness. So, let your brain rest and recuperate after you have a night of it.

I agree with the other posters on this question that it can be a great way for a couple to deepen their committed relationship. One-on-one parties with your significant other can be landmark moments in both sensual connecting with one another and in communicating deep feelings. A safe place removed from interruptions and dangers is a must; we like darkness, party lights, good music... in short, basically the things you would enjoy at a party with others who are partying on it.

I also think that a person can remain open to sharing the experience with more close people than just your significant other. A nice party for us is with about 6 or 7 other couples, plus assorted single people. Our ground rules are unbending: nobody attends who isn't doing it. This policy has kept some couples from having the experience (i.e., where only one of the two is into exploring the stuff), but we all would rather not be around people who would be judging people by their behavior when they are high. As you know, it is not unknown that a person on it will do something that straights would regard as weird.

It isn't only young people who can be very opened up by the stuff, so the poster who contrasted getting cozy with "hot" girls as being something only for young people, something he has now left behind for intimate parties with his wife, he may be missing something. People in secure relationships can come to be relaxed about seeing their partner being happy, even if she/he is hugging and dancing (etc.) with others. After 20, 30, or in my case 40+ years with a partner (we're in our 60s), most of the issues of jealousy and possessiveness can be transcended. In our use of it, I get really excited even by the lead up days before a party where other open-minded, non-possessive couples we know and like are going to be partying with us. A house party doesn't have to erupt into some full on orgy to still put a lot more of a sparkle into your year. In this light, New Years Eve will be as enjoyable for us 60 somethings as it can be for 20 somethings, or 30 somethings, or... And yes, sometimes even old fogeys get a thrill from sharing some sensual moments with people other than their partners. (Hot tubs are especially fun!).

So, to review: have the right place; have the right people; don't be judging yourself; and letting go with close friends, or just with your partner can be a peak experience that makes life sparkle long after the rest of the world would stop labeling you a "raver," or "hot." Fun is what it is about, no matter what age you are.
 
Older roller here too (40). I'm in a similar situation, all my old friends who I would roll with have since moved on. My partner is straight-edge, so I have a difficult time finding friends to roll with. Also I tend to enjoy fun evenings in rolling, instead of wild nights out. Maybe I'm just gettin' old :)
 
my parents gave me my first hit of mdma. i'm 24 (21 at the time of first dose) and they are both 46. we still go to night clubs/music festivals together. my dad and I went to vegas in june for EDC. both of my parents still love it just as much as they did in the beginning, and i don't think either of them will be giving it up anytime soon.
Thats pretty cool. My Father started it all for me with cannabis. My dad is counterculture 100, but I cant see him at a dub show or rave. I am in my early thirties and still rollin, still feeling full effects, still using the shit responsibly, still testing my shit, etc..... I say mdma doesn't have a age cutoff for its use. Wasnt Ann Shulgin older when first exposed to mdma???
 
i guess i'm in the 40plus club!
still loving the music and parties, and it stopped being about the young hotties back about 10yrs ago? ya but i still do enjoy the eye candy!
my original crews? pretty much all moved on,
i never did get the close connection with a lady and get to experience the real personal side emotional, etc
i'll keep an eye out!
 
i guess i'm in the 40plus club!
still loving the music and parties, and it stopped being about the young hotties back about 10yrs ago? ya but i still do enjoy the eye candy!
my original crews? pretty much all moved on,
i never did get the close connection with a lady and get to experience the real personal side emotional, etc
i'll keep an eye out!
Fuckin A Rad Man! We all move on, bro.
 
Sorry for my delay in getting back on here...both my computers crashed. Thanks to all for your responses! It's great to hear that there's other older rollers out there and what your experiences are. I think i'll be using mdma for the rest of my life...assuming I can still get it, which is an ever growing more difficult task...especially here in the NE.

I have found that when i do roll, i tend to be (not always) with a younger crowd...I'm early 30s, they're early 20s but i'd say mature for early 20s in some respects. Anyway, it can be an amazing experience. It's touching when they play some songs i thought they'd never had heard of from back in my day. And, on the other hand, they have some amazing new music which helps keep me from getting sick of my ipod. It's great to see the enthusiasm for the scene is still there...puts a smile on my face :-)
 
I think i'll be using mdma for the rest of my life...assuming I can still get it, which is an ever growing more difficult task...especially here in the NE.

I'm an older roller and I prefer rolling over any other drug or alcohol.
And just like you, I find it nearly impossible to find it on the east coast.
It's been 6 years since my last roll, and it just feels like an eternity.

Enjoy it while you can find it, because pretty soon there won't be anything left at all.
That's all I gotta say!
 
6 years!? Wow, sorry to hear that. Do you have a kit? A lot of rollers don't. I'd suggest getting one if you don't and let everyone know you'd be happy to test for them. I didn't find ANYTHING clean from like December last year until October this year, so it's been tough in the NE, but this fall has been ok...relatively speaking. I think the old days are over...gotta get to the Netherlands...they got some pill now that's testing in a 180 - 220mg range :-o
 
A member of the 65+ club here. Came to mdma later in life, and still love the occasional roll with my partner. To be honest I've never tried rolling in a club or event environment. Don't know that I'd like that.
 
I'm an older roller and I've just joined this forum to see if I was getting too old for MDMA!

I agree with Nottamous I think as you get older your use for it changes, the feeling is always great but it's one great way to reinforce me and the missus' love for each other - that's all we use if for now and do it 4 time a year!(MDMA that is!)

^ this. as i've gotten older, the way i use a lot of things has changed. from mdma to mescaline/lsd/etc, it's all so much different than the days i used to just "have a good time" with when i was younger. i think most people don't go this route because alcohol is a shallow drug that doesn't have the ability to shift and change in such a drastic sense. so most people get past a certain time in their life and calm down, decide to drink like everybody else rather than continue using the same substances but with different purpose. the experiences are entirely subjective and will change as you change, ie: changes due to life experience and changes due to neurochemical changes (getting older). i've been rolling for 10+ years and it's changed DRASTICALLY since i started out when i was young, i can only imagine how much it might change as i continue to get older.
 
I'm 44 and also an old roller. When I was younger I had a lucrative side job providing X to people I knew. I had a solid hookup at the time and took advantage of it. I didn't sell to everybody, I just happened to have a lot of friends. One of mu buddys got busted with weed in his car and then rolled over on me. I got 6 years for my stupidness. Luck was on my side and I had a decent judge and a good lawer. The judge suspended 3 years and let me do the other 3 on probation. Funny that I never had to go through a task program or any drug classes even though imy crime was drug related.

I stopped selling it but I still used on occassion. I was in my late 20's at that time. Me and my wife love to do X together on occassion. But, being able to find it is the limiting factor these days. My main contact stopped after he spent 10 years for getting caught selling crystal.

The last time me and my wife shared the experience together was new years of 09. We went to the caribbean and partied at one of the largest new years party on Jost Van Dyke. Guy was selling shrooms on the dock. People with glow paint and lots of glow sticks everywhere. Fun time indeed. You would be surprised by the number of older people that still like to experience stuff like that. that's around the time that my contact stopped hooking me up on occassion. He is now married and won't even think about touching anything illegal.

I would give anything for another solid contact to buy from on occassion. I don't see it happening so all me and my wife can do is talk about old times gone. It really is something to do with that special other. Just hang at the house with some good music and glow sticks. Share the fun together and escape from the daily grind. It really does put the relationship back in perspective and let's you share the closeness that you have together.
 
^Sorry to hear you got busted. i did too...been over 10 years since then. It really wised me up though...most people are ok being reckless until they spend some time in prison...then you realize just how not worth it it is. My rule now is i don't sell anything ever no matter how tempting. I'd rather be free and poor then rich and locked up. Developing and maintaining connects now is a constant thing...being older just gives people more suspicion that you're a cop and maintaining connects means maintaining communication even if you're not gonna roll for many months at a time. A random phone call from someone they haven't heard from in a long time raises suspicion. That doesn't even factor in one of the most difficult aspects, which is when you finallly gain their trust and then they sell you some garbage they didn't even know was garbage...last thing they could care about is some old timer complaining about their shit when no one else is...why you gotta have a kit.
 
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