Aint nothin wrong....aint nothin right, and still i sit n lie awake all night...ohh whooa oh......
I been tryna draw more lately so today I made a lil design for a tattoo. concentrating on shit for a while felt good n kept my mind off things. shit looks all fucked up with the computer colors tho. real sketch looks alot better.
Watchin this movie Empire . Alot of memories comes back .
In the driver seat sweat stickin me to the leather. busted seat belt buckle stuck to the front of my shirt with a safety pin so I dont get pulled over for not wearin it , it didnt pull out more than six inches, not enough to get to the buckle part.
Blunts smoked in the twilight walkin down the block, nobody knows. smilin n giggling like two young kids...wat we are....all over the residential streets, crouching on a front porch silent while the L burns. never will forget 9th street til the day i die. endless hours of pokin veins and noddin under shady summer trees, breezes whisperin us awake to take another drive to the spot. lazy and warm like life seen thru a kaleidoscope of green and yellow light.
night time the pavement blacktop still warm from the days heat soakin into the soles of my feet, up up into my soul, a lil glow inside. this little light of mine, im gonna let it shine and shine it did......never did i feel so perfect and whole. and its somethin that can never come back. preserved perfect in memory like a story book tale, the years will go by and the pages will tear, wear down, edges soft like dollar bills...a detail will drop out of my mind like lost pocket change when i bend over and ill forget to pick it up, another piece gone of a time recent literally and a lifetime away truthfully. leanin over the arm rest head on his arm, two hopeless junkies found some comfort in each others in ability to love, content with the strange friendship they found and eyes open to the glitter of the street light and reflections off the glass. damn how did the time pass...............
last summer was a whole lot of beginnings n crashed hard n fast. this summer i feel like a baby. born n learning to walk again. i feel a change stirrin in me like a germinated seed stickin its first green finger tip out of the dirt after it rains.
I want it all. the money and the clothes. The class. fancy restaurants. the breifcase hand off and the poker face connect, big things discussed over trivial desserts, the lexus, the beemer. smell of fresh leather interior and back seat covered in the smell of sex.
But Im scrappin. cable got turned off, Heard my moms singin a song the other night as she was cleanin, "got no job just collection calls, dont got nothin for none of them all, Lord tell me whys it me....got seven channels of shit on tha tee vee........"
cuz the switch over they did or watever it was, we only get static even on the regular channels like 7 and 9, so aint no point. i guess that digital cable shit u cant watch regular tv without a box now. damn thing is worthless than for movies, but cant afford to watch a movie neither, and the internet is the only service we still got on, but got a letter from some big company about downloadin their movies and they gonna cut off our internet if we do it again, so that ones out. better find somethin streaming, quick.....
Shit, Im bout ready to take the tv down to the block and get us some grocerys . Grits for dinner and cereal for days.
No job no insurance. Felony record less than a month old so i cant pull that old made a mistake but im a new person now trick.
I want to get higher n higher n higher n higher..................til the breath stops fightin in my throat and the epic battle of lungs, oxygen, nervous system, the most important war there is, fought in microscopic tubes n vessels, slowly dies down and lay me down to sleep. Ill be dreamin of all I could be.
I been tryna draw more lately so today I made a lil design for a tattoo. concentrating on shit for a while felt good n kept my mind off things. shit looks all fucked up with the computer colors tho. real sketch looks alot better.
Watchin this movie Empire . Alot of memories comes back .
In the driver seat sweat stickin me to the leather. busted seat belt buckle stuck to the front of my shirt with a safety pin so I dont get pulled over for not wearin it , it didnt pull out more than six inches, not enough to get to the buckle part.
Blunts smoked in the twilight walkin down the block, nobody knows. smilin n giggling like two young kids...wat we are....all over the residential streets, crouching on a front porch silent while the L burns. never will forget 9th street til the day i die. endless hours of pokin veins and noddin under shady summer trees, breezes whisperin us awake to take another drive to the spot. lazy and warm like life seen thru a kaleidoscope of green and yellow light.
night time the pavement blacktop still warm from the days heat soakin into the soles of my feet, up up into my soul, a lil glow inside. this little light of mine, im gonna let it shine and shine it did......never did i feel so perfect and whole. and its somethin that can never come back. preserved perfect in memory like a story book tale, the years will go by and the pages will tear, wear down, edges soft like dollar bills...a detail will drop out of my mind like lost pocket change when i bend over and ill forget to pick it up, another piece gone of a time recent literally and a lifetime away truthfully. leanin over the arm rest head on his arm, two hopeless junkies found some comfort in each others in ability to love, content with the strange friendship they found and eyes open to the glitter of the street light and reflections off the glass. damn how did the time pass...............
last summer was a whole lot of beginnings n crashed hard n fast. this summer i feel like a baby. born n learning to walk again. i feel a change stirrin in me like a germinated seed stickin its first green finger tip out of the dirt after it rains.
I want it all. the money and the clothes. The class. fancy restaurants. the breifcase hand off and the poker face connect, big things discussed over trivial desserts, the lexus, the beemer. smell of fresh leather interior and back seat covered in the smell of sex.
But Im scrappin. cable got turned off, Heard my moms singin a song the other night as she was cleanin, "got no job just collection calls, dont got nothin for none of them all, Lord tell me whys it me....got seven channels of shit on tha tee vee........"
cuz the switch over they did or watever it was, we only get static even on the regular channels like 7 and 9, so aint no point. i guess that digital cable shit u cant watch regular tv without a box now. damn thing is worthless than for movies, but cant afford to watch a movie neither, and the internet is the only service we still got on, but got a letter from some big company about downloadin their movies and they gonna cut off our internet if we do it again, so that ones out. better find somethin streaming, quick.....
Shit, Im bout ready to take the tv down to the block and get us some grocerys . Grits for dinner and cereal for days.
No job no insurance. Felony record less than a month old so i cant pull that old made a mistake but im a new person now trick.
I want to get higher n higher n higher n higher..................til the breath stops fightin in my throat and the epic battle of lungs, oxygen, nervous system, the most important war there is, fought in microscopic tubes n vessels, slowly dies down and lay me down to sleep. Ill be dreamin of all I could be.
. wtf kinda needles do u see that aint that size? u talkin about the lenth of the needle tip itself which i slightly exaggerated for the effect, or the barrell and body of the actual syringe part or wat? its definately regular size, 1 cc, long tip syringe, I drew it from the one sittin on my drawing pad so its def. accurate lol