TDS old habits

[Blakehaze]

-sigh- i tried, but it seems moving back to my 'hood has led me straight back into old habits.
today i bought a new pipe, and some meth to go with it.
ended up selling weed so this essentially cost me nothing.
now im alone in my room, wondering how far i will fall back into old ways.
at least the pain is gone for now..

 

[Maya]

^Blakehaze I know it is difficult to resist temptation specially if you go back to a place that triggers your addiction. However, it is still up to us to resist these temptations. We have control over ourselves and it is your will power that will help you to shove these demons back in a dark place. I am not quite sure as to when you will read my post but I hope that you have not fallen back deep into addiction. ♡♡♡ you have tds staff and me if you need some support.

 

[Blakehaze]

i havent developed an addiction yet. im hoping it doesnt. though my will power isnt that strong at the moment. going through the roughest patch ive ever had.
i appreciate the support, posting helps get things off my chest i cant talk to family or friends.
it really helps a lot.
today was the first day of intended use. as in i went im search of it. rather than just doing it coz the opportunity presents itself like i normally do. i also ran out about half an hour ago. we will see how the next few hours play out.

 

[Blakehaze]

your right toucan (nice name btw haha)
im not going to go through another addiction. it sucks.
i deffinantly dont need that right now.
lets just hope i do ok for the next few hours.
i was stupid and after about 15 hours of steadily smoking ice all i want to do is have a shower and get some rest.
luckily i got enough weed so i dont have to go back to my friends house for a while.
avoid the temptation. he doesnt make it easy though, lets me smoke for free when im around there=\

 

[tripnotyzm]

You're at a potentially critical point right now.
Don't beat yourself up too much for indulging in some thing that you have gone so long with out, you're only human and it does happen to a lot of us.
But you need to be smart & avoid going out and scoring again.
Once you pick up twice, three times, you are now at tremendous risk of falling back into that viscous cycle.
Just seriously weigh out the consequences before you think about seeing old mate'.

 

[Blakehaze]

-sign- i dunno. sleep is now out of the question.
the thing is i havent done it before. maybe a few puffs years ago, but nothing serious. i was addicted to the things.
maybe just a single re-up. then ill be done.
i cant afford more after that anyway.