Well it's reached that point, again, where I'm wondering what's the point of posting here. Does it achieve anything, for me or anyone who reads what I write? Perhaps I get a chance to practice writing and trying to communicate a point, but the novelty and desire to hone a different tool is now being outweighed by a sense of pointlessness - this is a forum dominated by people who have minds clouded by substance use and who have natural political and social inclinations that are diametrically opposite to my own. I've been there, some of the people I know in real life are still there, and it's fucking pointless to try and reason with a person who is sharing their internal space with one or more parasites. I think a part of me wanted to try and break the spell in a few people by throwing out some criticisms and opinions that irritated them enough to begin to question a few of their own beliefs and actions, but then there is this common theme I've noticed since childhood and that is that the majority of people want to play games.
I don't think I can even be bothered to find another forum either.. the more I read and listen to people the more I'm convinced no one has a bloody clue who they are. It all seems like one big circle jerk. We're robots and 99% of people don't want to hear it. They want to believe they're unique, free-willed, and that all their cherished opinions and beliefs are well thought out rational arguments that they have someone earned by study or personal application, when they know the same as the person they argue with.. which is next to nothing. They think they know, but they don't even understand the meaning of the word.
It's time for me to accept the truth of the situation. This forum is good representation of the madhouse that modern society has degenerated into, and it is a futile and pointless waste of energy to try and change or improve it. I don't get a return of investment in terms of emotional connection either because it's digital and not personal, making it doubly pointless. This time I'm not coming back. Bye.
I don't think I can even be bothered to find another forum either.. the more I read and listen to people the more I'm convinced no one has a bloody clue who they are. It all seems like one big circle jerk. We're robots and 99% of people don't want to hear it. They want to believe they're unique, free-willed, and that all their cherished opinions and beliefs are well thought out rational arguments that they have someone earned by study or personal application, when they know the same as the person they argue with.. which is next to nothing. They think they know, but they don't even understand the meaning of the word.
It's time for me to accept the truth of the situation. This forum is good representation of the madhouse that modern society has degenerated into, and it is a futile and pointless waste of energy to try and change or improve it. I don't get a return of investment in terms of emotional connection either because it's digital and not personal, making it doubly pointless. This time I'm not coming back. Bye.

I'm still gaining weight at the moment, 175lb (5'9). Once I reach 180lb and shred down to my abs I'll come back and post you a pic 