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Well, I feel kinda awkward writing this. Not sure why. Your basic social anxiety coming out, I guess.

Anyway, I'm listening to Spacemen 3 "Forged Prescriptions" album on youtube as I write. I'm addicted to those guys' music; it's absolutely drug-addled brilliant drone meets psychedelic rock meets Velvets meets gospel (I know). Fucking gorgeous.

I'm on disability for bipolar so I have lots of time on my hands, and lately I've been obsessively thinking about drugs, so decided to join up and meet some like-minded individuals. I came off heroin about 3 years ago. I love it, but frankly not sure if I could survive yet another run.

I done me some wrong in the past, and am trying to become a better person.

Got a Master's degree in psychology, but never practiced.

Livin' by myself.

Done most of the drugs there are at one time or another.

Can't think of anything else to say right now, but I'm glad to be here. Some of you guys' posts are hilarious. (And others touch my heart). Funny, almost feelin' like I've come home.
 
Spacemen 3 are awesome. I particularly love the title "taking drugs to make music to take drugs to" (and it's not a bad record either)!

Good to hear you've had 3 years away from heroin - I'm working my way towards a decent amount of time post-detox myself after quite a few years of opiate addiction.
Did you find that abstaining got easier over time...or were you able to make a clean break, so to speak?

Anyway, have a look around the various subforums - there is discussion on bluelight on a huge range of topics, amongst a huge range of people. You seem to have exemplary qualifications (in the things you listed about yourself) and clearly a good taste in music (if i do say so...) so welcome aboard!
 
"Did you find that abstaining got easier over time...or were you able to make a clean break, so to speak?"

I went to detox and used methadone to get off, then I lived in sober living for a few months and did outpatient and went to 12 step meetings. I relapsed at first and got a small habit that I went off of on my own. Then I stayed clean and sober for a while, then smoked some crack, gave that up. Don't go to meetings anymore, drink a bit and smoke pot. Yeah, it was difficult because the post acute withdrawal syndrome got me with depression. It's hard to stay off once you've had heaven on earth, y'know?
 
Hello, always nice to meet fellow ex-opioid abusers. What do you personally find helpful in staying clean? Not looking forward to fighting those cravings by myself once I'm off Suboxone.
 
Welcome to bluelight..Welcome home. The doors are always opened and the lights are always on. I myself just 3 days ago was diagnosed with bipolar. But have lived with it all my life untreated.
 
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