Off to rehab

I'm waitin for the bus from rehab to pick me up to start this thing

I'll be in detox for 2 to 5 days and then rehab for 14 days.

I'm glad I won't be away from my dog for as long as I suspected. I miss him already.
Last night I shot a gram and a half of coke, drank 3 beers and smoked weed

I never got rid of my spikes and I have weed stashed at home. I'm gonna have to get a friend to get rid of that shit when I get out

I've been to meetings at the rehab they are placing me in. It has been around for a long time and has a good rep.

I smoked weed before coming to this place. I'm glad cause I'm nervous. I'm kinda scared too. I'm gonna have to make a lot of changes in my thinking and behavior. They'll give me the tools I need to do this, I just need to use them

See ya's when I get out

 

You're definitely going into this with the right attitude. Know that you've got BLers on your side and thinking about you. See you back here soon!

 

OD- We are all pullin' for ya!

 

Good luck to ya!

 

hey good luck yo but why get rid of the weed? I dont understand the whole problem against weed in NA and all that. Im a dopehead. i like dope. I am a addict and like to be fucked up but of all things weed has been the most wonderful helpful thing ever when it came to gettin clean. Weed is a amazing tool that can help you get clean in so many ways and i feel like ppl that write it off when they quit dope or coke or another hard drug are really deprivin themself of somethin that got amazing potential to help. U a smart dude so i was just suprised to see that u are following into that NA "every and any drug is bad and is the exact same thing as using your DOC becuz it all leads to the same thing" bullshit. smokin some trees can really make u think about things in a deep way that u dont get to when u dont, and sometimes its just wat u need. Fuck dope, puff a blunt and chill and you got all you need dont leave that sweet leaf behind its here to help you. anyways i hope it all goes good , i meant to PM u earlier but ima get back at u soon and talk to u when u get outta the program. good luck yo b good.
peace
lacey

 

Thanks lacey. Even before when I got clean in '93 (and had NO clue about NA) I knew that I used shit so that I could simply escape from myself.

Weed (for me) is just another way to run away. when I smoke weed it just isn't enough for me. I want a stronger high than the 'tease' shrubbery provides.

I wish I could smoke it but, in the past, I've proven to myself that I love getting as fucked up as possible and smokin pot just doesn't work for me

PM me sometime. I need to empty my inbox later tonight so...