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OhBoyCali

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Hey all,

So, after a month or so of being COMPLETELY sober, I fucked it up last night. I was doing so good too- no alcohol, no coke, no weed, not even a fucking tylenol. Just Zoloft the doctor prescribed me for my depression.

Last night I saw an ex-gf, and it didn't go well and I just couldn't not have a beer at the bar on my way home....next thing I know I'm blowing lines, drunk as fuck, and got in a brawl outside some dive bar. Got my face knocked up pretty bad, my right eye is swollen as all hell.

So frustrating to have to go back to day 0.....which will have to be tomorrow, because I've already had some drinks today and did a few lines a little while ago.

Sometimes it feels like I just can't win! SHIT
 
You sound alot like me and my g/f where on the outs. I went back to drinking got on a 4 day bender and took every drug i could get my hands on. If there had been anyone i thought enough to beat up most likely i would have since i was in quite the rage at the time.

Doing self destructive shit like that only makes matters worse trust me. So yeah i know where your coming from there but trust me getting drunk and doing blow is going to make things a million times worse.
 
i guess im lucky that I was only ever addicted to opiates, and cant really see myself being addicted to any other drug. A line is ok once in a while, but all the time... I dunno to each is own I guess. At least you dont have to wd or anytihng man. Going back to day 0 isnt going to be that difficult is it?
 
I guess it could be worse. It's just frustrating to have been doing so well sober and recovering, and then be back in the shit. I've been drinking pretty hard these last few days, doing alot of blow...just trying to get out of my head, you know?
 
Sorry to hear about the slip-up. Don't think that just because you end up having a drink at some point it means you have to go all out, you still have the option of stopping after it and resuming your sobriety. It doesn't mean you lost the whole last month...during that time you learned how to live without drugs and alcohol. Good luck!
 
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