Hi everyone,
I have been on and off on amphetamines and valium for the last three years. When I was at my worst, I went to a rehabilitating center, and completed the programme. I know I withdrew from them physically. As time passed on, I found myself getting bored with my life. So then a social enhancer came good in handy(at least so I thought), but then I had to calm the overstimulative effects on the body with valium and so continuing my other addiction. It has never been as bad as before and it is far less frequently. I feel like a ship in the water that will get the idea it will hit shore soon and the next the wind is blowing all wrong. Swaying back and forth. That has to stop.
Now I made a list of benefits and drawbacks about both the drugs.They were both very focused on the negative sides. And I feel like I can find something else, something new , exciting in life that will push the boredom away. For example, go mountainbike in the dunes/mountains. Plus lot
s of exciting jobs also mean you are helping other people, be more in on the action, live life and adapt and learn to survive quickly. I need more excitement in life and I want to use it for good causes
I can not keep going on like this. I don't do it on a daily basis. but it affects my whole life.
What do you think?
Thanks and criticism always welcome of course
I have been on and off on amphetamines and valium for the last three years. When I was at my worst, I went to a rehabilitating center, and completed the programme. I know I withdrew from them physically. As time passed on, I found myself getting bored with my life. So then a social enhancer came good in handy(at least so I thought), but then I had to calm the overstimulative effects on the body with valium and so continuing my other addiction. It has never been as bad as before and it is far less frequently. I feel like a ship in the water that will get the idea it will hit shore soon and the next the wind is blowing all wrong. Swaying back and forth. That has to stop.
Now I made a list of benefits and drawbacks about both the drugs.They were both very focused on the negative sides. And I feel like I can find something else, something new , exciting in life that will push the boredom away. For example, go mountainbike in the dunes/mountains. Plus lot
s of exciting jobs also mean you are helping other people, be more in on the action, live life and adapt and learn to survive quickly. I need more excitement in life and I want to use it for good causes

I can not keep going on like this. I don't do it on a daily basis. but it affects my whole life.
What do you think?
Thanks and criticism always welcome of course
