Well, todays breakfast menu,
-30mg amphetamine salt combo
-3mg alprazolam
No heroin as my friend ended up having to pay back a bunch of people with a total of like $400-$450 today, so not going out to get heroin like I thought I was going to today, which kinda sucks. I was hoping for even just a shot of 3 nickle bags. I'm thinking I'm not gonna take any methadone at all today to help make sure all my methadone lasts. I got amphetamine and xanax to hold me over today, and so far its working. The last time I dosed any methadone was two days ago, only 10mg because I didn't realize I was going to do heroin later that day, so I did 10mg of methadone nasal, then did 3.5 nickle bags of heroin IV. That methadone def didn't carry over to yesterday when I had a lot more heroin, so I'm def do not have any methadone in me today.
I had 2mg of alprazolam and 5 nickles bags of heroin yesterday (4.5 nickles [2.25 dimes] IV taken around 1:40pm yesterday, .25 of a nickle IV at 2:45pm, and .25 of a nickle + two soaked cottons IV at 3:30pm) which give me a high till 10-12pm surprisingly - I Didn't expect the small little IV bumps to help extend the duration as long as it did. I'm not feeling any sort of opioid WD or anything today, about ~24 hours after the first shot of heroin yesterday. That works for me. I'm sure I'd only be getting mental WD symptoms atm any way right now, with the physical hitting probaby tonight around 11pm-12am or so. With the alprazolam I know I can shut down any mental WD anxiety. Alprazolam (xanax) works alot better for acute pyschological opioid WD than clonazepam or ativan IME. It also knocks me out 20-30mins post sublingual administration at night as well, making it useful for opioid WD sleeping issues. Should have bought some immodium and DXM while I was at the pharmacy though, but oh well. I just have 4mg of immodium which really wont do shit for me, but might be worth while taking if I get the shits real bad from no opioid in me + the amphetamine shits. I'll see how that goes.
Anyway, Of course because of my break from amphetamine salts (I think roughly its been ~4.28 weeks [~30 days] since I last used any amphetamine or stimulant (freebase cocaine in the form of street crack, or methamphetaime), my tolerance is pretty low were 30mg has gotten me going. I like to personally believe with almost baseless speculation, that my methadone use (weak NMDA-antagonist) helps in combo with time to decrease my amphetamine tolerance faster than just with time by it self. (I've been using amphetamine salts decently regularly for 2 years now, plus a 2 year peroid of use in high school, and the tolerance never drops this fast). So yeah, it obviously I'm amping a bit. The alprazolam def is making the amps feel alot better. Better than if I was using clonazepam instead of alprazolam (alprazolam for me has a greater muscle relaxant property and doesn't effect my mental state as much as clonazpem - I feel almost normal on alprazolam besides being anxiety free, more relaxed, and a bit loose).
I've already accomplished a decent bit of the stuff I need to do today which makes me proud. I woke up to a call from a guy (my junkie friend), who's helping me try and get a job at this store he works at (but at a different location). So he was telling me to apply at this place, which I went right ahead and did after I found my glasses. I got an application in, and hoping my friend does some magic, and I can land that job. I've also applied to a few other place this morning, picked up my amphetamine script, said thank you to all the people who wished me happy birthday on face book (on amphetamine of course lol, probably should have done it before I got a strong buzz going). Now all I gotta do today is fold a bunch of papers to stuff into envelopes (its for a job my family has with some lawyer [I wont get into the details]), clean out the pool, clean my room, read some Song of Ice and Fire book 2 (I'm at the last 200 pages), chill with my grandparents for my birthday/open presents for my birthday, and whatever the fuck the amphetamines tell me to do haha.
hehe, /end rant.
btw, alprazolam + amphetamine = a little less euphoric methamphetamine (roughly the same amount of body load, still the amphetamine need to get shit down, but not the overwhelming feeling the straight amps gives you, little to no anxiousness, but just not that super euphoria that doesn't have the chemically amphetamine like feel). Just wish I had some ketamine. Even just a small bump of ketamine every now and then on amphetamine = heaven. amphetamine + ketamine (+ marijuana, optional but recommend - even just a little hit works fine) = one of my favorite combos ever. It takes away like all the negative amphetamine traits, makes everything a bit colorful, makes you really lovey dovey like MDMA, and dancing + music is out of this world