I have no idea what went on last night. Someone please tell me what they think because for all I know I could be overreacting.
First off, there's no denying I'm in a very very dark place right now which is what brought me to abuse and become addicted to prescription painkillers. It's been about three months now. I started off on Tramadol and was up to taking 400mg (50-100mg was what the doctor said to take) when my prescription ran out and then I couldn't find anywhere to get any so I stole a bottle of oxycodone and a bottle of hydrocodone from my mom even though I knew I'd get caught. I ran out of those about a week and a half ago but I got my wisdom teeth removed on Friday. I think I took 40mg of Percocet last night but honestly I can't remember and it could be a few more than that, probably not more than 55mg though. Anyways, I'd never taken a dosage that high of oxy before. I also had taken 2 800mg Motrins earlier in the day, the latest one being 3-4 hours before the Percocet. Within thirty minutes, I felt differently than I ever have on opiates before. When I first started taking painkillers I got fucked up on the lowest of doses. I was heavily sedated on 100mg of Tramadol and able to nod off on really low doses as well but then that stopped pretty quickly as my tolerance built. I was running into things, unable to balance. But I felt extremely tired in a non-sedated, non-nodding kind of way... It wasn't at all pleasurable like it had been in the past, it just...was. I remember thinking, "This is what being dead feels like." Because my mind just stopped but in a way I'm not used to and I actually felt like I was dead, just laying there with my eyes closed. My breathing was obviously pretty shallow, shallow enough for me to notice it was abnormal. My heart rate was really slow for a while but at one point my heart kicked back up suddenly for a few minutes before settling back down.
I feel like that's too low for me to have had an overdose, but at the same time, my reaction to it was completely abnormal. Or could it have been an acetaminophen overdose? I have hepatitis c and I don't know if my daily use has messed with my liver but it could have because I haven't had a panel done since before I started with the pain pills. I'm 110lbs, 5'5". I totally could be overreacting because I'm prone to doing that, but I'm freaked out.
First off, there's no denying I'm in a very very dark place right now which is what brought me to abuse and become addicted to prescription painkillers. It's been about three months now. I started off on Tramadol and was up to taking 400mg (50-100mg was what the doctor said to take) when my prescription ran out and then I couldn't find anywhere to get any so I stole a bottle of oxycodone and a bottle of hydrocodone from my mom even though I knew I'd get caught. I ran out of those about a week and a half ago but I got my wisdom teeth removed on Friday. I think I took 40mg of Percocet last night but honestly I can't remember and it could be a few more than that, probably not more than 55mg though. Anyways, I'd never taken a dosage that high of oxy before. I also had taken 2 800mg Motrins earlier in the day, the latest one being 3-4 hours before the Percocet. Within thirty minutes, I felt differently than I ever have on opiates before. When I first started taking painkillers I got fucked up on the lowest of doses. I was heavily sedated on 100mg of Tramadol and able to nod off on really low doses as well but then that stopped pretty quickly as my tolerance built. I was running into things, unable to balance. But I felt extremely tired in a non-sedated, non-nodding kind of way... It wasn't at all pleasurable like it had been in the past, it just...was. I remember thinking, "This is what being dead feels like." Because my mind just stopped but in a way I'm not used to and I actually felt like I was dead, just laying there with my eyes closed. My breathing was obviously pretty shallow, shallow enough for me to notice it was abnormal. My heart rate was really slow for a while but at one point my heart kicked back up suddenly for a few minutes before settling back down.
I feel like that's too low for me to have had an overdose, but at the same time, my reaction to it was completely abnormal. Or could it have been an acetaminophen overdose? I have hepatitis c and I don't know if my daily use has messed with my liver but it could have because I haven't had a panel done since before I started with the pain pills. I'm 110lbs, 5'5". I totally could be overreacting because I'm prone to doing that, but I'm freaked out.