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Octsober!!

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Was pretty close to being off of opiates, but then after barely getting any sleep and just been generally miserable, I relapsed and got high on H for 2 days, took some adderall, and smoked some crack. :\

That relapse caused my insomnia, muscle aches, restless legs, and weird body temperature to come back, so that was a good reminder that I can't fuck with these drugs.


It's been about 5.5 days since I last took any H and 10 days since I took any suboxone. :)

I had my first amazing acid trip the other night and I'm hoping to have gained something from it. Shit was crazy man, I forgot how much I loved tripping and just being able to look at your life in different ways.


I do feel quite good at the moment. I've smoked weed today, that's it. No suboxone, no heroin, no opiates....fucking devil of a drug! You can't get away from it! I feel so......free I guess. :)

I could actually go into November with 10 days clean of opiates, maybe only on weed. Soooo close to actual sobriety!!!!!!!!! =D :) :D <3 Too bad I never see my girl lately. :(
 
would love to spike some shit right around now for no other reason than 'just because'. I think nicotine withdraw has something to do with it but still... ...WTF?
When are these fuckin' thoughts and cravings going to go away?
 
OverDone said:
would love to spike some shit right around now for no other reason than 'just because'. I think nicotine withdraw has something to do with it but still... ...WTF?
When are these fuckin' thoughts and cravings going to go away?
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They go away in time... Mine have, and I used to sit there and rock back and forth just thinking about it - give yourself a chance and they'll fade away :)
 
Alright guys I'm in, going to do today until 28 Nov alcohol free with one "free pass" I can use at anytime in the month...I guess we'll begin with a little history.

I used to use a lot of heroin and ice and stuff in my younger days (I'm 32 now with a child and partner) but a few years ago I decided to leave that lifestyle behind, with that decision came the drinking that comes with working full-time and the associated alcohol culture.

It's gotten to a point now where I drink during the day on weekends and don't want to wait until night. I started to prefer drinking by myself at home to going out to bars with friends and stuff. Pretty shitty really.

I've been reading Octsober all along and I usually do a 30 day alcohol detox once a year or so anyway, I've missed the boat on October this year but I'm starting today. The fact that my insides are burning and I'm sick of waking up with heartburn/acid reflux all night is motivating me more.

So I guess my goals are good health and to save some money, the clear mind that comes with it all is always nice too.

Anyway good luck to everyone and I'll post back how I go.

NL.
 
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^^ Good luck mate :)

I'm keen for you to start that No-vember thread Redleader. Not too sure if I'll manage any better than I did staying dry in October but it's inspirational reading about others sticking to sobriety, offering advice etc.
 
Maybe I'll expand on this further another time, but I just wanted to pop in and say that during the month of October, 2009 I began consciously reducing the intake of my drugs of choice. I have a challenging road ahead of me but I've taken the first wobbly steps and I plan to keep going, staying strong and coming out on top.

Octosober gave that extra incentive/push that I needed to get the ball rolling in the right direction.
 
I am in for NOvember as well. Although I did the taper and have done well in Octsober, there have been times when I have wanted to drink socially. I demanded complete abstinence of myself, and it has led to social isolation and depression on those grounds.

My substance to be addressed will still be alcohol.

The rules (so far) will be:

  • No drinking on school nights. Period.
  • No drinking more than 1-2 days in a row.
  • Beer, cider, and red wine only.
  • No drinking alone.
  • No more than 3 drinks at a sitting.
  • No mixing with benzodiazepines.
  • One full glass of water after each drink.
  • 75% of my days (or thereabouts) must be alcohol-free.

    I may add a few revisions to this, but that's the plan so far.
 
Carl Landrover said:
I could actually go into November with 10 days clean of opiates, maybe only on weed. Soooo close to actual sobriety!!!!!!!!! =D :) :D <3 Too bad I never see my girl lately. :(
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Yeah, we just broke up. :(

1.5+ years away.

I'm glad I made all this effort to get sober and now she's not even going to be fucking around.


I trusted her. My heart is torn.
 
Carl, I can relate. Mine left right in the beginning of me doing what I needed to get well.

Don't worry, brother. Someone else (and more worthy) will enjoy the benefits of the new you
 
im in for NOvember.

im planning on making a bit of a night out of halloween, but then i want to get back on track. this system is working for me so far so i want to keep going.
 
I was thinking of using my free pass for a Halloween party also. To be honest I don't know if I'll go though it's pretty far away and the crowd there are definitely hardcore drinkers who could potentially get in my face all night.

It's 5am of day 3 for me and I haven't had any alcohol or drugs or anything. Had some really strong cravings and triggers yesterday though, like cooking the BBQ (which I almost always do with a cold beer in my hand).

I was also getting a little annoyed at getting stuck at home while on my work holidays due to my partner and child having a cold, so I sort of figured well I'll just stay home and get drunk. I didn't end up drinking though, what I really need to do is move all the beer out of the fridge and out of my sight.

Next week will be the real test when I"m back at work, not drinking whenever I get annoyed at something that happens there.

Oh and I had way to many caffeine drinks like coffees and Coke yesterday, it definitely upped the anxiety. I have benzos here if I have to use them, but I've been clean from benzos since March (and that was a one off use not a habit just a stupid drunk idea at the time) and it would feel like a step backward. That said I think a single benzo dose is probably still better than alcohol at this point.

Anyhow best of luck to you all, I will post back soon.
 
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LOL

i like how this is in the dark side xD


umm.......i've been sober for 3 days.....although it's not my choice...mainly cause i have to save my money up for this weekend so i wasn't able to buy any bud
 
Carl, I'm so sorry to hear about your breakup :( *hugs* <3
OD has some wise words though, try to use it to your advantage, to focus on sobriety so you can share the new improved you with another someone-special :)

Mariposa said:
The rules (so far) will be:

  • No drinking on school nights. Period.
  • No drinking more than 1-2 days in a row.
  • Beer, cider, and red wine only.
  • No drinking alone.
  • No more than 3 drinks at a sitting.
  • No mixing with benzodiazepines.
  • One full glass of water after each drink.
  • 75% of my days (or thereabouts) must be alcohol-free..
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Excellent 'posa! I love this list, I think I will apply it to myself as well :)

rollin_stoned said:
and for november it should be "Just say no-vember"
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I like it :)
 
I've been following this thread on and off for a few weeks, and trying my best to stay octsober as well. So far pretty good. I had a small amount of ketamine this week and one Lsd trip earlier this month, but other than that I've been drug free. My main obstacle was stopping my very heavy cannabis use.
I basically just wanted to jump in and show my support for you guys and say I'm with you. :) Stay strong.
I look forward to healthy and drug free november.
 
Looking back...had a hard yet sucessful Octsober.

Good things:
Way less alcohol consumption
Weight loss from reduce calorie consumption
Acheived original goals

Bumps:
Acheived goals very quickly in the month and had a hard time continuing to improve...and then guilt over more drinking.
Fighting w/ SO because of soberness/miscommunications (I guess could be a good thing in long run)

I'm in for NO-vember but I want to really set my limits since I know what I can acheive.
 
In for NOvember and will describe revised protocol there.

I completed the challenge with two small bumps - sips of beer. No full-blown relapses. No desire. No drug use other than benzos and weed.

Octsober has ended for me, NOvember will bring new challenges. I am drinking my first full beer in a month - and stopping at three for the entire evening, maybe even two.

:)
 
I just wanted to say I can't believe I did it!!!!!!! and to thank everyone who posted to this thread. I got sick of typing lying down hence why I didn't post recently (I'm up and about again now) but I've been checking in to read it regularly and I'm sure I wouldn't have stayed so strong without the feeling of not being alone that I derived from reading of others' struggles and triumphs - whatever you've achieved you're all heroes whether you realise it or not.

Particular thanks have to go to those who replied with the support and encouragement I asked for when I was at my lowest ebb. It made an incalculable difference to think that you both sympathised and believed in my abilty to beat the cravings despite starting to doubt myself. You almost certainly saved me from relapse and discouragement, maybe even total failure and I can't thank you enough.

Hopefully I'll catch up with some familiar characters on the NOvember thread. I really think I can take this thing to the next level now
 
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